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Close. 16 more days. I'll probably kill myself if i fail my national examinations. The cohort for the past years will be changed from next year onwards which means i'm the last batch of students = More difficult next year. My parents and relatives have high hopes on me since my elder brother is the cleverest in the family and i'm expected to do the same. Worst my elder brother studies the same school as me and my math teacher ask me if i can pass, i told him i probably won't then he said my elder brother said i WILL pass. That's extra pressure. If i fail, i cannot face them anymore!! Of course, in my country, if you try to commit suicide and you fail, you'll be jailed. If i want to die, i MUST die.


Awww that's not nice. Don't ever give up. Remember this: "It's not how you fall that matters, it's how you get back up and keep on trying your best that does" ~slightly changed for your convenience~


Ah. Thanks. I appreciate it. Well, i'll try to look on the bright side of life~ (: But thinking of life makes me sick, i need money everywhere! Why not end my sufferings? But i can't bare to leave my animes and mangas behind. And i thought of asking my parents to bury my mangas and anime DVDs with me, if i'm dead that is.


Hey i know how tough it is out there....believe me. I have a huge loan i gotta pay back to the bank and I'm in california. If you don't already know...we have such a bad economy and now we've gone into a recession again. Things are always hard, but as long as you hold your head up everything will be fine.


Yea, i know that the economy is bad, my friend working part-time got fired because of that. But i can't really complain much can i? I mean i'm not working, and i'm living off my dad [my mom don't work]. But i really envy you, to have such a optimistic look about life. I'm a pessimist and i completely have no confidence in everything i do. Well, maybe it's just me worrying too much about that i'll fail. My friend told me that i'll definitely pass but i told myself that i'll probably fail. I should start saving up and not spent mindlessly. Sighs.


Actually i did have a downfall like 2months ago....in one night i seriously was about to commit suicide and everyone was hysterical. Since then i've looked at life in the manner that i always have and I'm a much stronger person for not allowing it to keep me down. ~though some suicidal thoughts do remain in my mind till this point~

If you truly believe you will pass then you will. If you put yourself down then the outcome is opposite. If you fail who cares? Just smile and try harder next time, that's the way it should be. Okies?
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ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:

Close. 16 more days. I'll probably kill myself if i fail my national examinations. The cohort for the past years will be changed from next year onwards which means i'm the last batch of students = More difficult next year. My parents and relatives have high hopes on me since my elder brother is the cleverest in the family and i'm expected to do the same. Worst my elder brother studies the same school as me and my math teacher ask me if i can pass, i told him i probably won't then he said my elder brother said i WILL pass. That's extra pressure. If i fail, i cannot face them anymore!! Of course, in my country, if you try to commit suicide and you fail, you'll be jailed. If i want to die, i MUST die.


Awww that's not nice. Don't ever give up. Remember this: "It's not how you fall that matters, it's how you get back up and keep on trying your best that does" ~slightly changed for your convenience~


Ah. Thanks. I appreciate it. Well, i'll try to look on the bright side of life~ (: But thinking of life makes me sick, i need money everywhere! Why not end my sufferings? But i can't bare to leave my animes and mangas behind. And i thought of asking my parents to bury my mangas and anime DVDs with me, if i'm dead that is.


Hey i know how tough it is out there....believe me. I have a huge loan i gotta pay back to the bank and I'm in california. If you don't already know...we have such a bad economy and now we've gone into a recession again. Things are always hard, but as long as you hold your head up everything will be fine.


Yea, i know that the economy is bad, my friend working part-time got fired because of that. But i can't really complain much can i? I mean i'm not working, and i'm living off my dad [my mom don't work]. But i really envy you, to have such a optimistic look about life. I'm a pessimist and i completely have no confidence in everything i do. Well, maybe it's just me worrying too much about that i'll fail. My friend told me that i'll definitely pass but i told myself that i'll probably fail. I should start saving up and not spent mindlessly. Sighs.


Actually i did have a downfall like 2months ago....in one night i seriously was about to commit suicide and everyone was hysterical. Since then i've looked at life in the manner that i always have and I'm a much stronger person for not allowing it to keep me down. ~though some suicidal thoughts do remain in my mind till this point~

If you truly believe you will pass then you will. If you put yourself down then the outcome is opposite. If you fail who cares? Just smile and try harder next time, that's the way it should be. Okies?



But the problem is, i don't have the confidence. And i DO believe the thing called : Miracle. I'm hopelessly wishing that it would happen. And the problem about trying harder is something i really fear, trying again means more money spent and another year wasted, the cohort for next year won't be the same as this year. And my weakest subject is maths. And next year to get promoted maths is a compulsory subject, with added pressure we need to score under a given grade. If i remembered correctly i need to pass : English, Maths, Chinese, Science and other 1 subjects under the score of 20. I'm really trying hard to tell myself that everything will be okay but it doesn't helps.
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You damn Koreans and your suicides...what's wrong with you....
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JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:

Close. 16 more days. I'll probably kill myself if i fail my national examinations. The cohort for the past years will be changed from next year onwards which means i'm the last batch of students = More difficult next year. My parents and relatives have high hopes on me since my elder brother is the cleverest in the family and i'm expected to do the same. Worst my elder brother studies the same school as me and my math teacher ask me if i can pass, i told him i probably won't then he said my elder brother said i WILL pass. That's extra pressure. If i fail, i cannot face them anymore!! Of course, in my country, if you try to commit suicide and you fail, you'll be jailed. If i want to die, i MUST die.


Awww that's not nice. Don't ever give up. Remember this: "It's not how you fall that matters, it's how you get back up and keep on trying your best that does" ~slightly changed for your convenience~


Ah. Thanks. I appreciate it. Well, i'll try to look on the bright side of life~ (: But thinking of life makes me sick, i need money everywhere! Why not end my sufferings? But i can't bare to leave my animes and mangas behind. And i thought of asking my parents to bury my mangas and anime DVDs with me, if i'm dead that is.


Hey i know how tough it is out there....believe me. I have a huge loan i gotta pay back to the bank and I'm in california. If you don't already know...we have such a bad economy and now we've gone into a recession again. Things are always hard, but as long as you hold your head up everything will be fine.


Yea, i know that the economy is bad, my friend working part-time got fired because of that. But i can't really complain much can i? I mean i'm not working, and i'm living off my dad [my mom don't work]. But i really envy you, to have such a optimistic look about life. I'm a pessimist and i completely have no confidence in everything i do. Well, maybe it's just me worrying too much about that i'll fail. My friend told me that i'll definitely pass but i told myself that i'll probably fail. I should start saving up and not spent mindlessly. Sighs.


Actually i did have a downfall like 2months ago....in one night i seriously was about to commit suicide and everyone was hysterical. Since then i've looked at life in the manner that i always have and I'm a much stronger person for not allowing it to keep me down. ~though some suicidal thoughts do remain in my mind till this point~

If you truly believe you will pass then you will. If you put yourself down then the outcome is opposite. If you fail who cares? Just smile and try harder next time, that's the way it should be. Okies?



But the problem is, i don't have the confidence. And i DO believe the thing called : Miracle. I'm hopelessly wishing that it would happen. And the problem about trying harder is something i really fear, trying again means more money spent and another year wasted, the cohort for next year won't be the same as this year. And my weakest subject is maths. And next year to get promoted maths is a compulsory subject, with added pressure we need to score under a given grade. If i remembered correctly i need to pass : English, Maths, Chinese, Science and other 1 subjects under the score of 20. I'm really trying hard to tell myself that everything will be okay but it doesn't helps.


Ah, so it's a lack of confidence that you have then...well that kinda problem can be helped with friends and people who cheer you on. Just think of them, in a positive way of course, and give it all you've got. Study hard...don't get distracted and believe in yourself. If that little voice says you can't you tell it to shut the hell up.

I took AP History, Biology, and English...but that was like 5yrs ago. LoL
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ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:

Close. 16 more days. I'll probably kill myself if i fail my national examinations. The cohort for the past years will be changed from next year onwards which means i'm the last batch of students = More difficult next year. My parents and relatives have high hopes on me since my elder brother is the cleverest in the family and i'm expected to do the same. Worst my elder brother studies the same school as me and my math teacher ask me if i can pass, i told him i probably won't then he said my elder brother said i WILL pass. That's extra pressure. If i fail, i cannot face them anymore!! Of course, in my country, if you try to commit suicide and you fail, you'll be jailed. If i want to die, i MUST die.


Awww that's not nice. Don't ever give up. Remember this: "It's not how you fall that matters, it's how you get back up and keep on trying your best that does" ~slightly changed for your convenience~


Ah. Thanks. I appreciate it. Well, i'll try to look on the bright side of life~ (: But thinking of life makes me sick, i need money everywhere! Why not end my sufferings? But i can't bare to leave my animes and mangas behind. And i thought of asking my parents to bury my mangas and anime DVDs with me, if i'm dead that is.


Hey i know how tough it is out there....believe me. I have a huge loan i gotta pay back to the bank and I'm in california. If you don't already know...we have such a bad economy and now we've gone into a recession again. Things are always hard, but as long as you hold your head up everything will be fine.


Yea, i know that the economy is bad, my friend working part-time got fired because of that. But i can't really complain much can i? I mean i'm not working, and i'm living off my dad [my mom don't work]. But i really envy you, to have such a optimistic look about life. I'm a pessimist and i completely have no confidence in everything i do. Well, maybe it's just me worrying too much about that i'll fail. My friend told me that i'll definitely pass but i told myself that i'll probably fail. I should start saving up and not spent mindlessly. Sighs.


Actually i did have a downfall like 2months ago....in one night i seriously was about to commit suicide and everyone was hysterical. Since then i've looked at life in the manner that i always have and I'm a much stronger person for not allowing it to keep me down. ~though some suicidal thoughts do remain in my mind till this point~

If you truly believe you will pass then you will. If you put yourself down then the outcome is opposite. If you fail who cares? Just smile and try harder next time, that's the way it should be. Okies?



But the problem is, i don't have the confidence. And i DO believe the thing called : Miracle. I'm hopelessly wishing that it would happen. And the problem about trying harder is something i really fear, trying again means more money spent and another year wasted, the cohort for next year won't be the same as this year. And my weakest subject is maths. And next year to get promoted maths is a compulsory subject, with added pressure we need to score under a given grade. If i remembered correctly i need to pass : English, Maths, Chinese, Science and other 1 subjects under the score of 20. I'm really trying hard to tell myself that everything will be okay but it doesn't helps.


Ah, so it's a lack of confidence that you have then...well that kinda problem can be helped with friends and people who cheer you on. Just think of them, in a positive way of course, and give it all you've got. Study hard...don't get distracted and believe in yourself. If that little voice says you can't you tell it to shut the hell up.

I took AP History, Biology, and English...but that was like 5yrs ago. LoL


Ah. I wished i can have the motivation to study hard. My dad said i'm lazy = i'm lazy to study which means if i really study i can score better. If i want to blame, blame it on me and my laziness. Laziness have to be feared. My friends are good. But they have the same problem as me and i encouraged them like you encouraged me, and they don't really doubt themselves. This shows i can help others instead of helping myself. You can say this is a good thing, but it really sucks. I do think in a positive way, about my friends. But all that comes to my mind is : Fun. God. I want to have a machine to clean my brain of all unnecessary stuffs and send information into my brain. And the holiday i'm enjoying now really ruined me. I forgot all the POA i learned during school. But i scored fairly well for that for my past exams so i'm not that concerned. But recently i disregard that subject and my grades fell. Me who was once a student my teacher was proud of nearly died of embarassment. Sighs.
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JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:


ZeroCorp wrote:


JusticexFreedom wrote:

Close. 16 more days. I'll probably kill myself if i fail my national examinations. The cohort for the past years will be changed from next year onwards which means i'm the last batch of students = More difficult next year. My parents and relatives have high hopes on me since my elder brother is the cleverest in the family and i'm expected to do the same. Worst my elder brother studies the same school as me and my math teacher ask me if i can pass, i told him i probably won't then he said my elder brother said i WILL pass. That's extra pressure. If i fail, i cannot face them anymore!! Of course, in my country, if you try to commit suicide and you fail, you'll be jailed. If i want to die, i MUST die.


Awww that's not nice. Don't ever give up. Remember this: "It's not how you fall that matters, it's how you get back up and keep on trying your best that does" ~slightly changed for your convenience~


Ah. Thanks. I appreciate it. Well, i'll try to look on the bright side of life~ (: But thinking of life makes me sick, i need money everywhere! Why not end my sufferings? But i can't bare to leave my animes and mangas behind. And i thought of asking my parents to bury my mangas and anime DVDs with me, if i'm dead that is.


Hey i know how tough it is out there....believe me. I have a huge loan i gotta pay back to the bank and I'm in california. If you don't already know...we have such a bad economy and now we've gone into a recession again. Things are always hard, but as long as you hold your head up everything will be fine.


Yea, i know that the economy is bad, my friend working part-time got fired because of that. But i can't really complain much can i? I mean i'm not working, and i'm living off my dad [my mom don't work]. But i really envy you, to have such a optimistic look about life. I'm a pessimist and i completely have no confidence in everything i do. Well, maybe it's just me worrying too much about that i'll fail. My friend told me that i'll definitely pass but i told myself that i'll probably fail. I should start saving up and not spent mindlessly. Sighs.


Actually i did have a downfall like 2months ago....in one night i seriously was about to commit suicide and everyone was hysterical. Since then i've looked at life in the manner that i always have and I'm a much stronger person for not allowing it to keep me down. ~though some suicidal thoughts do remain in my mind till this point~

If you truly believe you will pass then you will. If you put yourself down then the outcome is opposite. If you fail who cares? Just smile and try harder next time, that's the way it should be. Okies?



But the problem is, i don't have the confidence. And i DO believe the thing called : Miracle. I'm hopelessly wishing that it would happen. And the problem about trying harder is something i really fear, trying again means more money spent and another year wasted, the cohort for next year won't be the same as this year. And my weakest subject is maths. And next year to get promoted maths is a compulsory subject, with added pressure we need to score under a given grade. If i remembered correctly i need to pass : English, Maths, Chinese, Science and other 1 subjects under the score of 20. I'm really trying hard to tell myself that everything will be okay but it doesn't helps.


Ah, so it's a lack of confidence that you have then...well that kinda problem can be helped with friends and people who cheer you on. Just think of them, in a positive way of course, and give it all you've got. Study hard...don't get distracted and believe in yourself. If that little voice says you can't you tell it to shut the hell up.

I took AP History, Biology, and English...but that was like 5yrs ago. LoL


Ah. I wished i can have the motivation to study hard. My dad said i'm lazy = i'm lazy to study which means if i really study i can score better. If i want to blame, blame it on me and my laziness. Laziness have to be feared. My friends are good. But they have the same problem as me and i encouraged them like you encouraged me, and they don't really doubt themselves. This shows i can help others instead of helping myself. You can say this is a good thing, but it really sucks. I do think in a positive way, about my friends. But all that comes to my mind is : Fun. God. I want to have a machine to clean my brain of all unnecessary stuffs and send information into my brain. And the holiday i'm enjoying now really ruined me. I forgot all the POA i learned during school. But i scored fairly well for that for my past exams so i'm not that concerned. But recently i disregard that subject and my grades fell. Me who was once a student my teacher was proud of nearly died of embarassment. Sighs.


LoL. Sounds like me when i was in high school...lazy and everyone doubted my abilities. Kinda surprised everyone when i did better than them. See it's good when u help others...now you need to practice on helping yourself...which is kinda what i'm doing cus my whole life i put others before me. Like my besty in the whole world..i'd give her my life and soul.

I don't know if that's a good thing or not but i'm happy with it. So just keep your head up, remember what i told you and you will be fine. Add me and i'll talk to you if you ever need any motivational help. Okies? Oyasuminasai-ni. ^_^
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Well, not everyone doubted my abilities, maybe some. No! The students in the express course. They think they are the better ones. I dislike them. But some teachers prefer teaching us in the normal course, we are more chatty [maybe too much], more relaxed [too much], more carefree[too much!]. Anyway.
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in't a sin to commit suicide, and for what ridiculous reason might some person would want to end his/her life to me i think its just wrong if youve got a bad life coup with it or try to make it better thers no harm in doing that is there?..
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I almos signed up for AP Calculus
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Tried and failed (obviously)
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i nevr came close
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You damn Koreans and your suicides...what's wrong with you....


They like to suicide themselves... fo' the devil!!
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if ur worthless help us by dying and save us space plz n thx
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Being a regular train traveler I have had my fair share of suicides, most of the times I get pissed off because they cause pain to so many people; their family, friends, witnesses, people who have to clearn the mess up, police officials, not to mention the machinist himself, the travelers on the train and many more.

I think it is one of the most selfish things to do, but then again people who have degraded so far mentally don't think like that anymore. I mean put a bullet in your head or hang yourself or even better; get piss drunk and take some pills (at least you'll die feeling somewhat good) At least then you'll not bother train passengers etc.

Generally I don't feel sorry for the person in question themselves but I do for the family, good example was that just yesterday a mate of mine indirectly witnessed a guy jumping in front of a incoming train at our station. The police were there very quickly but he could see bits and pieces on the track regardless of the barackade the police set up, he witnessed how the brother of the guy came storming up the track and was barely held back by like 4 big police officers.. I guess it's true that intense emotion gives rise to extreme strenght.

I hope to god I'll never reach that point (not that I'm depressed or anything) please remember that suicide ALWAYS is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
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Raurtom wrote:

Being a regular train traveler I have had my fair share of suicides, most of the times I get pissed off because they cause pain to so many people; their family, friends, witnesses, people who have to clearn the mess up, police officials, not to mention the machinist himself, the travelers on the train and many more.

I think it is one of the most selfish things to do, but then again people who have degraded so far mentally don't think like that anymore. I mean put a bullet in your head or hang yourself or even better; get piss drunk and take some pills (at least you'll die feeling somewhat good) At least then you'll not bother train passengers etc.

Generally I don't feel sorry for the person in question themselves but I do for the family, good example was that just yesterday a mate of mine indirectly witnessed a guy jumping in front of a incoming train at our station. The police were there very quickly but he could see bits and pieces on the track regardless of the barackade the police set up, he witnessed how the brother of the guy came storming up the track and was barely held back by like 4 big police officers.. I guess it's true that intense emotion gives rise to extreme strenght.

I hope to god I'll never reach that point (not that I'm depressed or anything) please remember that suicide ALWAYS is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.


Oh yes god that is so true...its the worst permanent solution anyone should ever take. I learned that the hard way...kinda glad i lived to tell and share my experience. This way not only do i help myself but others going through it as well.
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