Not Without You

Aha! well, here is my shoujo-ai, yuri fic! well actually, you could say this is more of a friendship thing than yuri but I wanna see what you guys think!
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Chapter 1:
How come your avoiding me Secchan?

Have I done something wrong?

When we were little, we would always be together.

Even when there was lightning and thunder, I would always be scared.

But this time, it was different.

I had you.

I wasn’t lonely anymore.

You would always be with me.

I asked you if you didn’t mind sleeping with me, You didn’t.

You held me close, and I couldn’t help but feel safe and comfortable in your arms. It actually felt as if I belong—as if I belong with you.

No one could ever separate us.

We were always stuck together.

Daddy’s maids tried to get both of us to separate but I wouldn’t let go of your arm. They told me to, but I wouldn’t listen.

Even back then, I didn’t want to be separated from you.

Even now.

One day, daddy needed your help with an errand, and even daddy couldn’t get me to let go of you.

I was stubborn and didn’t listen.

Then you told me that you would come back to me once you were done.

It was as if I was in a trance because hearing your soft, soothing voice got me to let go.

Though I was still worried that you wouldn’t come back.

So you made a promise to me.

“Don’t worry Konochan! I’ll come back and I’ll play with you again soon okay? That’s a promise!” I still remembered your words and your promise, and I kept it all deep in my heart.

And you did keep your promise.

You came back.

I was happy.

But then you had to go again and you left without telling me.

Daddy said you just left to go train and that you would come back.

So I waited.

And waited.

But you never did.

You never came back.

I’ve been waiting for 7 years and I finally met you when we were 13.

The first time I saw you in years was at our first year at Mahora.

You changed so much Secchan.

Your eyes are smaller and has a more serious look than the big innocent eyes you used to have.

You even have a case behind your back that seems to be holding a katana.

Have I really missed that much in your life Secchan?

You and I were both in the same class all the time each year.

And every time I walked up to talk to you, you would just bow and walk away.

It hurts.

It hurts not being able to talk to you.

It hurts not being close to you.

I want to relive the past and I want us to be friends again.

I want to be able to laugh, smile, talk, and even sleep with you again.

But…

I can’t.

I can’t relive the past.

Not without you.
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Chapter 2:

I couldn’t protect you.

And I still can’t.

You must be wondering why I’m avoiding you right?

Konochan?

It’s because I’m afraid that I will hurt you again.

Because I might end up losing you again.

Maybe even permanently.

Back in the past, we would always play together.

And I would always be by your side.

Except closer…

Now all I can do is watch you from the shadows.

Watch you from afar.

You would always smile and laugh back then.

Your smile was much wider back then as well.

Why isn’t your smile happy anymore?

Yeah, I see you smile all the time with your class mates.

But it’s not the same smile you gave back then.

Are you sad?

Are you sad that I’m not there?

Is it because I don’t talk to you anymore?

Because I’m not there by your side?

I want to be by your side; Honest. I want to talk to you again; Really.

I want to be able to hold you close and make you smile all the time like you used to.

But..

I’m afraid that I might hurt you again, like before.

When you nearly drowned…

I still remember that awful day.

It’s even a nightmare that I always have when I sleep.

Because I wasn’t able to protect you.

And I’m afraid that I might not be able to protect you again.

Every time before class starts, you would walk up to me and greet me.

But I just left you, without saying anything.

Please don’t think that I am ignoring you.

That I don’t want to be with you again.

Why would I?

Why would I ignore you?

Why would I not want to be with you again?

Why would I ignore…my everything?

You’re my everything, Konochan.

I hope you know.

I hope you know that I would always be with you.

That I would always be there watching you.

You were the only person who accepted me.

The only one who would accept me as a friend.

And the only one who didn’t care about my true self.

You still wanted to be friends with me, even if I was a half demon.

I was lonely.

Until I met you.

If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be here at mahora.

I would probably be gone by now.

You taught me how it feels like to laugh, smile, and play.

And most of all,

How to love.

Maybe, just maybe I can talk to you again, Konochan.

Mana tells me that it would be best to protect you when I’m with you.

There by your side.

And maybe I will.

Then maybe we can do all the things we used to do when we were younger.

Heh, maybe even sleep together.

But I wouldn’t have known all these wonderful things.

I wouldn’t know that there would be one person who I truly care about actually exists in this world.

I wouldn’t.

Not without you.
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So, what do you guys think? Hope its good! XD (oh, and this was written as angsty and drama, lol!) I already finished this fic a long while now but I wanted to post it up here too! Hope you guys don't mind!

oh yeah! and the anime is Negima!? (remade) or if you want the original, Mahou Sensei Negima!
The couple is KonoSetsu = Konoka and Setsuna

Ohhh how cute yet so sad. I really liked it though. It was,...sweet in a way. 5/5! Finally someone does a yuri fanfic.