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Hmmm. Well my lifes pretty boring and I have no special talents and my past isnt super dark but if you'll listen I dont really mind telling you about myself. My names niki and im a 19 year old college student. I major in digital cinema. I work in the law library in my school cause my dads good friends with 3 of the librarians and the circulation desk manager. I've only really had 1 friend my entire life because of my antisocial personality. I go to her house in my free time and her family calls me their adopted daughter. It's not that I dont like being home but my house doesn't really feel like home. My dad cheated on my mom when I was in the seventh grade and she moved out with my sister and I for about 6 months. I guess she didn't like being alone or something and we moved back. My dad still sees the lady and my mother just ignores it. I've been to the damn womans house to feed her cats while she was on vacation. I think he's waiting till my sister turns 18 to move out of the house so he doesn't have to pay child support. It feels like I'm in a movie that has already reached it's climax and now i'm just waiting for it to end. I'm gonna be a cat lady when I'm older and live my life in seclusion (my sister already agreed to support me after she becomes a mortition*sp*) cause I'd rather be alone and miserable than together making someone else miserable. Yeah, after the 7th grade I've became a major cynic. Wow that felt good to get off my chest. Lets see what else. I love yaoi, horror movies, my cat, survival horror videogames, 90's music, manga and anime in general, my sister, my best friends brother (but i'll never mention it), and having other people do my hair (i think its relaxing).
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☻☻☻.......... ^-^ ...... my name is Sagarika... Can prefer to call me saga or rika... in cr and at skwl plp call me rika.... welll i am 14 years old and gona be 15 soon in june 24th ... ^-^ .. i like rock and metalic music... i am very impatient person.. well i like yaoi anime or manga only in art yh not in real life.. .... well now most of tym i am buzy at swkl and since i am school council << its so booring.. o.O and i love art , graphic and music.. well since my lyf is devoted to art.. LoL ... well......i like writing poems too.. since i write every day.. b4 going to sleep... i live in United Kingdom.. amd has moved diffrent countries,,,, LoL .. well i am not into relationship even thgh i am in one right now but never got intrested since i got badly hurt.. wepping for days.. TT-TT well.. that most of it.. my regular days is cooking skwl and playing sports.... well in hobbies i do cooking , baking, swimming, dancing, sports... that most of it.. well i have no intrest in actor and actresses only watch them lol....... Never admired any 1 .. omg that most of.. it ☻☻☻╠ÎãÖ

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Uhmmm... when i was five i was burnt very badly. I recovered from it so you cant tell that i was burnt. I was a naughty little girl when i was little and got into alot of fights with ppl. I have one brother who is younger than me by two years. uhmm... when i went to middle school i got all honoroll and high honoroll. Now i'm in highschool and i got one C so far by my b**** a** teacher who's madd old and needs to retire after 30 years. I such at math and is very good at physics. I'm a freshmen. I live in Massachusetts. I'm cambodian and like half chinese. One time me and my best buddy khinny pulled a prank on one of my other friend (chrustine) making her think that khinny's brother had a overly obsessed crush on her. So went we went somewhere together we made her sit next to him. Her facial expressions are priceless. Some of her facial expressions looked like this Lmao!!! you had to be there...
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-about me-
I'm Mark, 24, and I'm gay lol.... I'm Filipino, born in the Philippines, lived in Japan and now currently living in Texas, USA. My life I lived happily and yet deep down I was depressed. My childhood was weird let's just say I may have been molested one from my aunt (still kinda angry at her, yet she kinda got me where I am being gay), and my friends (guys by the way) also did the naughty with me. I thought it was a game so I went with it crazy me.... I was only 6 when that happened so I had my first gay experience at that age My school life was okay nothing happened never dated anyone I never been kissed yet so yeah sad huh I had the courage to tell all my friends that I am gay this year and told my two sisters that I am too love seeing there reaction it was awesome. I like to play with everyone and flirt.. yes I'm a big flirt ahahahah. I fell in love with a guy here in CR not gonna give you his name I still care for him.. my first love hehehehe I still have not decided what to do with my life but I really want to have love in it... I just enjoy having fun and live everyday just to enjoy it. I made wonderful friends here in CR and I hope to make more
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-about me-
I'm Mark, 24, and I'm gay lol.... I'm Filipino, born in the Philippines, lived in Japan and now currently living in Texas, USA. My life I lived happily and yet deep down I was depressed. My childhood was weird let's just say I may have been molested one from my aunt (still kinda angry at her, yet she kinda got me where I am being gay), and my friends (guys by the way) also did the naughty with me. I thought it was a game so I went with it crazy me.... I was only 6 when that happened so I had my first gay experience at that age My school life was okay nothing happened never dated anyone I never been kissed yet so yeah sad huh I had the courage to tell all my friends that I am gay this year and told my two sisters that I am too love seeing there reaction it was awesome. I like to play with everyone and flirt.. yes I'm a big flirt ahahahah. I fell in love with a guy here in CR not gonna give you his name I still care for him.. my first love hehehehe I still have not decided what to do with my life but I really want to have love in it... I just enjoy having fun and live everyday just to enjoy it. I made wonderful friends here in CR and I hope to make more


aww marky mark I learnd some new things about you ^/^
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Hello...My name is Ingrid and i'm 17 years old girl from little country in North Europe..I have been live all my life in Estonia..I born in 9.09.1990 in Estonia capital city Tallinn..when i was little i didn't know about my father and mother relationship..when my mom got pregnant she left my father and moved do live with my uncle..in 3.12.1991 my little bro Harry born..afther that when went do live in Tartu..In there we live about 2 years..afther that i moved back do uncle...when i got 3 years old we moved do live in a little village named Kose..when i got 5 years old i broke almost my head when i fall down in the tree..my head hit something really hard(i dont remember that anymore)i know only that it didn't hurt at all but when i see blood i screamd and fainted..my mom had do make something about my wound becuase doctor didn't come beafor afther 4 hour..the next thing i remember was my first day in kindergarten..i was 6 then and i didn't want do go in there..i had a hard time in there becuase i didn't have any friends at all and everybody hit or pick on me..in one day in sleep time one boy try do suffocate me but thanks do one scramying girl that boy run off..my first day in school was like hell because all boys in my class attacked me becuase they find that i cant fight back at all..i have been always do little and small girl..so i have do almost all school day get beat up and i never said anything do my mom..afhter that when i went in 3 class and 10 years old my mom marryid with a man who i first time in my live meet..at first evrything was ok but when we moved in a nrew house i have do sleep with my mom and step-father at the same room..every night when i tryid do sleep my step father touch me in places that nobody cant touch me and that happen in all the time ..i cant scream becuase i feeld that my voice was gone and i didn't sleep at all becuase i was so terrified that he do that againe..one day my naber girl saw me when i was crying and she was talking do me and try do cheer me up and i then said that my step-father is pervert and she talk about that do my mom and when my mom ask that do him he said that he didn't do anything and then my mom was thinking that i lied do her and afther that i didn't with mom so much..i felt so sad and unhappy that i try do take my life one day afther school i just jump off the bridg but one freind saved me and sayd that live is do good do lose afther that i changes my thinking and talking style so much and i become a bully in school because i got in do fight all the time and somehow i didn't got beat up so much and i like do fight ..and i all the time fight with step-father and one day he almost rape me but somehow i didn't lose my voice and start do scream really loud and my granny sawd what was happening and afther that he left me alone..when i was 12 my mom get really ill and afther that she died when i was only 13 years old..i and my bro almost went do orphanage but uncle take use do live with him..i didn't end with 5 class becuae i didn't go do school so i was in the same class twice ..i have been fight with all the time and i dont have so much friends becuase i looks,act and thinking is do grown up that other ppl in same age and class hates me so i have hard time in school and i think school is like a prison..now i'm 17 years old and i still afraid guys in age 15-56 and thats why i have never been in love and alose i dont have never have bf in my life so thats mean i have never kiss too..my friends think i'm funny but do mysterious also i dont talk so much and i looks not so nice girl ...also i look younger than i am and i hate it..also i know now that my reall father love do much drinks and he hit my mom all the time..i dont know where he is and how he looks like now and do be honest i dont care about that..i think that i have been fighting do much in my life and that still dont end..i hope that one day i can be happy thats only wish that i have
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wow. it's hard to beat that life story (seriously, alex, you should make it into a manga). My name is Meg, I life in the US of A, and I am German/Swedish. I am 18, and just about to go to college. I am an only child with two amazing parents. I have never had a boyfriend. I have never wanted a boyfriend. Aside from Asian culture/movies/everything, my main interest is neuroscience, probably because my mom is schizophrenic. And that's really all there is to know...
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okay heres my story the short version

houston texas august 29 1984 I AM BORN!!

we moved around a bit till iwas three then we settled in arkansas i lived there with my family(grandparents,mom,brother,sister)
i figured out i was gay when i was 11 told my mom when i was 13 and she was kool with it she had a lot of gay friends and everything was fine till i was sixteen when i ran away from home i was caught about six months later and taken home i left again a month later after i explained to my mom that i was happier on the road and having fun and she understood we emptyed ouy my savings and i hit the open road once again i live on the streets of diffrent citys till i was about twenty years old at the time i was living in new orleans man that was a wild time i eventually got a job cleaning tables at my then boyfriends(not serious just sleeping together) gay strip club that he owned after a while i got tired of new orleans and town with some friends who were hitchhiking across the country to san francisco california we camped in the arizona desert for a few months with some hippie kids but then headed off for our final destination i ended up likeing san francisco so much that i settled down and made a life for my self currently i am 23 and living with my (VERY SERIOUS) boyfriend of two years and ive never been so happy
Posted 4/11/08
Well...my life story...

I was born and raised in Nepal...
We moved to Australia when i was in grade 6...

Since i couldnt speak english very well or just the plain nervousness..i couldnt really make lots of friends...until Grade 8...
High School is really fun and i made and i keep making really really good friends..

They are the ones who introduced me to Jpop, Jrock, Dramas, Anime and most important of all... Yaoi

The past 3 years...i have been sucked into this whole new world of anime and drama..and just last year, my friend introduced me to Crunchyroll.

I am aiming to study medicine..so i have been studying a LOT these days... and havent had time to watching anything...

lol..yeah..my life is not really interesting is it?
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about me... thats always so hard.....
well humm... im 19 >.<... male....filipino..being in a filipino my family is super huge... there were so many reletives ... lives in california.... in college (RGFGRRGGG it sux lol).... happily taken...gay.... & my parents are kool with it... as long as i dont do anything in front of them LOL!!! born here .... lemmy see ... Lived in San Diego most of my life... been to the Philippines to see all my ocusins... DEANG there are hundreds of em! I remembering being really active... i was in boy scouts, swimming, karate..elementary school was long and boring... I figured out i was gay when I was 9....i guess i figured out when me and my baby sitter would do stuff...i miss him he moved 2 years later then middle school happened and then I became wild did a lot of shameful things... and when people found out i was gay I got asked out a lot by a lot of my gay college friends hahaha I was like thes guys are just teasing....those were fun times ^.^ I had more older firends when i was in middle school i guess becuase I would always hang out with my cousins and they were in college at the time ....i was wild and free and loved hanging out going out with every guy who wanted to have fun >.< I had so many boy friends & i got my heart broken so many times .....kinda regret that now.. ..... i never really had really long relationships only 2-3 months tops and it was someone new..until.....in 9th grade....my now ex who was 21 at the time told me to get tested casue he got the..... I was really scared... i was like im only frekin 14 wtf am i gonna do... so i got tested... and i was clean.... i was so frekin scared I was like no more guys for me .... i tried going out with girls ..but i just couldnt i dont know why.. i went though 12 girlfriends in 10th grade and i coudnt be with any of them i mean it was fun being with them but i wasnt really attracted to them in that special way ....some were just as gross as some of the guys i went out before....... they only wanted me to buy then things for then and to do stuff with them i was so depressed... until......Nov. 17 Junior year my brother took me out to a movie & dinner ....casue i was depressed over my last break up and I saw HIM! my prince charming ...& My brother new him too!!!! He introduced me to the hottest guy ive ever seen! he was my brothers friend in college .....his nane was Arnel ... DARN~~ what a sexy name ... i was like no.. i cant fall for this dude... i give up on guys.. so i made up a list of excuses in my head... i was like this guy is 27 im 15 (well i was turning 16 in 13 days casuse nov. 30 is my b-day)... hes probably got a girlfriend...etc... as it turns out he had nothing to do so my brother asked if he wanted to join us in watchign a movie.. and i was like Frekin-A!!! so i was sitting right next to him ... with a pointy thing sticking up the entire movie... i was like... im super gross.... wtf....WTF!!!!!...thank some higher power no on noticed it!!! afterwards we went to his house!! i was like NOOOOO in my head!!!!!! I was strange casue we started playing ddr and then after a while started drinking and talking about stuff then i found out he was single... and i was happy and sad at teh same time... I didnt know if he was gay too ... and i was scared to ask... so the night ended and we went home but b4 that he gave me a hug.... and i was like OMFG.....i was like my brother is in the car.....in the car ride i was like he was just drunk or something...so i promised myself i wouldnt fall for him... but the entire night i was just thinking of him....the next day i told my fag hag stephanie what happened.... i dint tell her who ti was though.... so I asked her to help me do soemthing about this.... and she said that i needed to be with a guy and i knew she was right.... and she said that she had someone in mind and that she would set a blind date for me.... i was like WTF!! STEPY I HATE BLIND DATES!! but in the end i still went with it ....stephy knows me too well.... plus she bribed me to go...... the date was a week later Nov, 25 she said to go to PF Cheng's and he would be wearing a red rose.. i was like step.... WTF@.@..how gay is that stephanie... how ... ARRGGG but she forced me to do it..... so... i went in and i immedeatly saw an old man in his 50's with a rose I WAS LIKE FREKKIN STEPHANIE I SAID I LIKE OLD GUYS BUT NOT THAT FREKKIN OLD!!! I ran into the bath room i was like did he see me.... omg... STEPHNIE im going to kill you!!!! I was gonna make a run for it... but when i went out there was a old lady sitting at his table so i was like OOOOHHHH!! AHAHAH!!! so i went in and sat down... at a table iwas so relieved... i was so pissed off.... and then suddenly i turn my head and Arnel was there O.o!!! i was like wtf was he doing here...with a rose on his shirt.... i turned around right away....i was hoping that he didnt see me... but he saw me right away i was the only one by myself... he walked up to me and he recognized me right away .. he was like Alex... hey how are you...and he asked if i was waiting for someone... i was like... yah ,i was on a blind date...and then he was staring stait at me... and said.... did steph,,, AND I WAS LIKE OMFG!!!!!!!! WHAT THE F!!!! I was lost for words...i immediatly said that im gay.... AND THEN HE SAID HE WAS TOO!!! The whole night was really relaxing..... in the end we went back to his place and talked and talked...I was a little scared i was like he's not that way ..... i mean he's 12 years older than me... and then he asked me if i wanted to spend the night... and i was like this guy is just like any other guy gross.... .... i was so bummed... but then he got out a mat and started sleeing on the floor ...and i would get the bed.... I was like AWWWW did see that one coming... the next day he asked me if i would like to go out again.... to make a long story short after 2 weeks we were a happy couple.... my man straitend me up in high school... you see I"m really addicted at things ... sometimes i get too adicted.... my baby saved me ... i dunno why he's with me he's too perfect....he dosent care that i'm 12 years younger than him and i dont care that he's 12 years older than me either... all I know is that everytime were with each other we make each other happy.. actually people think im older than him... >.<!!!! IM LIKE ARRRGGG@@!!!! IM THE YOUNGER ONE!!!!! currently were living with each other... and im very happy ^.^ minus the school of course SCHOOL SUX!!! well i hope you enjoyed my life in a nutshell of my life so far.,.. if you got any questions feel free to message me!
-Alex


OMG Alex I love it.... I'm so jealous yet I'm so happy for you
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im 18.
full tongan.
one of six kids.
both my parents passed away.

in tonga a long time ago social standing was very important. growing up i heard many times the sad love story of my parents. my mom was a beautiful farm girl who fell in love with the police chief's first born son. my dad's parents were dead set against my mom. they found out my mom was pregnant with my big sister so in secret they eloped. but because his dad was the police chief the marriage was annulled. he had his own son beaten and thrown on a boat going to the U.S. thus they were separated. and because my mom was poor back then there was no communication possible. my mom tolled for a long time to raise money. she worked, sweated and bled. after giving birth to my big sister she left to Hawaii because she heard that was where he was. leaving my big sister with my grandparents to be raised she left.

im not sure what happened after that there are so many versions. but what i do know is that they had to have met again because i was born. like i said there are so many stories of why they didnt end up together but i know that for a long time my mom's heart was broken. so broken that she couldnt take care of me so she sent me as well back to tonga to be raised by my grandparents. i was never hurt or angry. when i was led away from my mom i can still remember her face. pale.hopeless. broken. i never saw her cry. thinking back on it my mom was dead but still breathing...if that makes sense.

its funny but when i was younger people use to say that my big sister looked exactly like my dad. people would say how unlucky my mom was or how different her life could have been. they would say things like why was neither one of us, my sister and i beautiful like my mother. they would say the only thing that was passed down to us from her was my white skin. my mom was very light-skinned unlike many full blooded tongans of her time and despite the hot sun burning down.

i grew up listening to things such as this for a long time. a very long time. my sister grew up hard and tough because of this. my sister's skin is dark and her facial features are very similar to that of our birth father's family so always being compared to the family that was cruel to us made her strong on the inside. when i finally hit puberty my white skin that was always being compared to my mother stayed constant and in their words i "bloomed". it seems the older i got the more i resembled her. my mom that is. being reminded of this by people ive never met, old friends of my parents, old enemies, and even my grandparents makes me feel like my chest is being pinched.

there were days when my grandma was alive where she would sit me down and just touch my face saying how pretty i was. how i looked exactly like my mother. her oldest daughter. her beautiful sad daughter. and how she failed her as a mother. it made me wonder who she saw when she looked at me. i use to think why i made so much people sad when all i wanted to do was make them happy.

my papa who's been my father for as long as i can remember, the one man i trust and care for more then any other man on this earth would sometimes look at me quietly.longingly. he just looks at me with such a sorrowful expression without saying a word. sometimes i catch him and his eyes are watered and other times he hugs me for no reason. he spoils me so much. even now. because i have my papa ive never been left wanting. ive always had what i wanted. always got what i needed. he takes such good care of me.

my big sister and i despite how we were, always together are not close now. i think its because we remind each other of too many painful memories.

my four younger siblings that my mom gave birth to later on in her life live in the mainland, the states. i talk to them once in a while. i think they are coming down here to hawaii to visit next month. ive met their father i believe a few times. the few times my mom came to visit us when she was alive that is. i think my sister grew resentful and i cant say that sometimes i didnt fell the same way that our mother couldnt stand to stay in the same room as us for too long. i think my sister even had it worst. because at least, at the very least i got hugs when she said good bye while all she could do was pat my big sister's head without looking at her.

i think my life started with someone else's ending. i dont like it. i dont like being compared to my mother. i dont like remembering. i dont like my papa's sad face and his silent tears. i dont like many things. but what i dont like the most, what i just hate is the fact that my life seems to be forever overshadowed by a woman who holds the unearned title of mother.

no matter how my life goes its funny, a cynical kind of humor how everything circles around the origins of my birth. something i had no choice to or control in is the very thing that is the center of my world. sucks @ss. but whatevers thats life i suppose.

i love yaoi. espically the mangas and live movies. love,love, love the live movies for example ai no kotodama, bangkok love story, no regret, and many others. the animes are all right. ive always enjoyed anything and everything different. i dislike crowds, and big open spaces. im considered a bit high mantience, vain, big headed, and cold. but to me i believe a lady should take pride in her appearance, i am confident in who i am, i know what i like, and if i strick people as being cold at first, i dont mean to be but im not always happy and refuse to pretend to be. my emotions show clearly on my face. i am proud of my heritage and i love my family. i am selfish and see nothing really wrong with that. more then being happy i am content. and i treasure the peace i have in my life right now.

theres three things i want out of life. i want to know what its like to love so madly, to have your heart tremble so much that you can give up everything for it, i want to see amazing things while traveling the world, and i want to move forward unafraid and strong.

......i really didnt mean to write so much...LOL...... how did it become like this??
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Konnichi-wa!!!
My name is Ronny, but on this site i am know a Ronii (my Japanese name) the very open minded boy who is into just about everything, especially the Asian culture. I joined crunchyroll just to watch video, and in the beginning I did not know that this was social place, so I did not really talk to anyone. I add people that I have something in common with, though there are those time when I just add someone just to be adding them.

I am a mixed child, on my Mother side I am black and Indian, Inca to be precise, but on my father side I am Mexican, Chinese, and Aztec.

I was born in Oklahoma, one the air force base, my father is in the military, so not to long after my birth we moved to New Mexico. We stayed there for about two years before my father was stationed in South Korea, yet while he was there my mother I and my sister stayed in Europe. After a year in Europe we moved back to the US, we stayed in Mass, before moving to Virginia, California, and then to Texas….. This is where I currently reside.

I grew up exposed to a lot of thing, gangs, homosexuality, lesbianism, the works, so I have always been very open minded, and since my mother is constantly sick I grew up at a very young age. Though a lot of people said I was feminine, or mistook me for a girl because of my look, I never really let that bother me, I didn’t even bother me when people called me gay. Being that my mother is super open minded, she never really minded either, that was as long as I kept my grade up she did not mind me doing anything.

My entire life I have sated females, but I also hung out with females, so u became very feminine, though I am 17 I still have a very high pitched voice, so even know I am still mistaken as a girl, and I have been hit on by multiple guys and girls, not that I was offended or anything I just never really tried dating a guy, though when I am with my girlfriend, or some of my female friends, and even my gay friend I will tell you if I were to date a guy, what type of guy I would want, but I have never really taken my thoughts into action. Even though some guys, some very sexy, if I do say so myself guys flirt with me, sometimes I find myself flirting back, but that is to be expected, and maybe in the near future I may find myself dating a guy, but no one really knows, but I will admit that I will only take my male-on-male relationships as far as I take my relationships with females and that is kissing.


wow what an interesting life you are quite and special human being with all those mixed. Your life seems to have been pretty hard by moving to one place to another. but still with all those problem you have over pass them. i think that now i can see the human and not another estranger. I'm glad that you shared your life and im so proud of you for speaking up. I wish you, the best, and as i have been telling everyone. YOU CAN COUNT WITH ME. i will try to help you in anything. Have a nice day.
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Mmm... short autobiography. Well... that's pretty impossible, but what the heck!
I am Sergio. I was born and raised in Mexico and came (was brought) to the US at age 11. I've had the life of a loner since I can remeber: from kindergarten being the obedient uncool kid to college being the one who doesn't have friends, lovers or money =/
However, I am of the opinion that I have no right to complain... and somehow... I continue to be alive and to keep living even when life has disappointed me in so many respects.
I just re-read what I wrote and I sound like the most bitter person in the world and I truly am not. Here goes the actual events. In middle school I did not speak a word of English in 6th grade and did relatively ok in school. However, in my loneliness I decided to explore a place where the people who didn't like me would never be: THE LIBRARY! There I discovered amazing people and universes beyond my belief (not to mention the English language) and it wasn't in person (un)fortunately. Obviously my social skills did not rise much, but my academic skills did and I quickly became the smartest ESL kid. My teachers were proud and after 2 years of being in the country transfered me to honors classes in 8th grade... from which I graduated Valedictorian. It sounds like I'm listing my accomplishments... but in reality I'm depicting the emptiness I faced in a world that didn't want me... who really wants an ugly, sexually ambiguous, shy, taciturn, weak, Mexican kid for anything? Academics is not my pride... it's my refuge. However, I tried to change that around in High School and decided that I would become both a social creature and a brilliant student (to which some extent I achieved).
High school brought with it several things including my first openly self-admited crush on another guy, more academic challenges, and friends that would truly value me for the first time. High School was an era purged of the extremely immature feelings found in middle school, and thus it was somewhat more hospitable to me. I did succeed extremely well academically, though. However, when graduating from high school I was slowly becoming aware of my limitations. I am what is called an "illegal alien", meaning that I was stupid enough to choose to be born in Mexico rather than the US... and that I forced my parents to bring me to the US as an 11-year-old, and that I am a disgusting criminal who is up to no good... who just wants to ruin this country for the virtuous people who CHOSE to be born here... who truly do deserve an American dream (I'm being ironic, btw). This undocumented status has kept me limited. I have not been given financial aid to attend college easily... thus I have to pay for all of it (when in reality most 4.5's have a guaranteed payment almost). Coming from a poor family this is not an easy task, so now my college life is very limited to work, study, sleep, eating (sometimes), and family. The family part is ok, although they had a hard time with the whole gay issue. But in school I was doing not too bad, getting used to the idea that I was like Kikyo... meant to be something and that something only, I stuck to the professional, leaving romance, friends, and sometimes even family behind to achieve my goals. However, like in every anime, an InuYasha shows up... and just like in the anime, destiny plays around with me and him and we end up destroying each other with guilt, pain, and a premature separation that led nowhere but to a heart shattered into a million pieces, torn angel wings, and a wounded hope of finding sense in a world which is cruel and random and in which nothingness is more powerful than love, promises, justice, or goodness.
I still retain some sort of faith in that there is a real justice, and that we must figh for it... that there is still love, but that it is so unlikely and so rare (and thus more valuable)... that there is still the chance that WE can create our own hope in a world that offers none... that there is still a reason to be alive... that the pleasure from either the one true love or just a simple sunset can keep me with a desire to remain alive... and to keep seeking for something better tomorrow.
Hope I'm not too melodramatic for you guys... I'm a simple guy at heart... but I'm truly in an existesialist crisis... and I believed it to be hypocritical not to show that here. Well... looking forward to meeting you all if you're ever interested. Trust me... I'm harmless and can be a good friend... just don't mess with me the wrong way ^_^. Peace!


HELLO good friend.
Im so glad that you came to the forum and shared a lot of important points. I learned more about you not only the things i knew but also how you felt on middle school and im so proud of you for overcoming all those problems. and thanks for bringing the issue of immigration and all of the hard work that immigrants students have to go through in order to get their dreams to become true. You have a lot of things that are so good. and i believe that you will find that you are a precious diamond, Thanks for remind us that we are humans and that we most have feelings and not become rocks, and thanks you so much for helping me in so much ways, and im sorry for all those moments that i have not return the favor as much as i should have. Take care a lot and count with me friend. have a nice day
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EmoNeko_Saiko wrote:

Ermmm... Hi?
My life is boring so i wont bore you will all the details ^^
My name is Saiko i dont go by my first name cuz i hate it so much but yeah.
I was born in US and I still live in the US.
My life is normal as you can say, Im told to be Gemo(Goth/Emo) so I treated like Dirty but oh well thats what I get for Trying to be diffrent I guess ^//^. Im the second most feard person in my school.(1st is the principle of course xD) Just because I look mean. I only have a small group of friends that I cherish dearly because they excepted me for who i am so I stick up for them in return ^^.
Now for my family, I am a Twin, i have 3 sisters counting me and i am the second youngest Im one minuet older then my twin. and I have 3 brothers who are all older then me.
One day during my freshman year in Highschool me and my twin were in a oil fire and now i have 1,2,3 Degree burns all up my right arm, my twin got it easy she has 1st degree on the top of her hand I have 3rd on top of mine. and she has alittle pat of 2 degree on her leg. We still have the scars from it, I am now a Junior. if u want to see pics i can try and get u a pic xD but yeah if u want to know how it heppen message me.
What can I say about my parents.. That I hate them with a passion on some days but can deal with them on others I guess. I dont talk to them that much.
I am the outcast of the family but my mom says she was like me when she was little but i think shes lying.
Im obssessed with vampires and anime and music and I love to draw and paint. I like to hit people for the fun of it but not super hard unless they hit me hard xD. I alos have a weird thing for biting and handcuffs O.o and chains but yeah.
well i dont know what else to say so yeah want to know more i guess just message me.


WOW you are a bad girl ^_^ lol. i really appreciate that you came and wrote something about you. im so sorry for the accident . And i think that people need to start looking at us for what we are and not for how we look. thank you so much again and thanks for letting us know more about you, count with me, i will try to help anything that i can. have a nice day
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