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Posted 4/23/08
I realized that darksiders did not all begin that way at birth. There had to be something that triggered it, something that caused use to become fond of the darkness and its related elements.

I remember being about five years old, or even seven years old, and i admired darkly things. I enjoyed being a vampire for Halloween, but i still had a bit of fear of the dark until about ten years old when I trained my mind to realize that "the darkness is my friend". The fear went away, and i grew even darker as i got older, enjoying monsters and villains more and more until i eventually became one. hehehe. Anyway my life has changed, but i still appreciate the dark and its aspects, but i am not as seduced by it as i used to be.

anyone else have any experiences with being born a darksider, anything that you can remember?
Posted 4/23/08
hmm i remembered when i saw clowns in ma attic!! i mean there were drums n all that n had a face of clowns(back then i dint knew wat drums were)!! i was scared it was all around me!! n then my dad told me bout creepy things n its like if i was brainwashed!! i got used to da dark when i was 12 ohh n ma step-bro ohhh hes da one that change me after all that he got me into spooky n darky things n now i like at!.........u rock FEZ!!!!!! lol
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Posted 4/25/08
I have always been comfortable in the dark...I have embraced the darkness since I was young, despite being told not to get too comfortable there...I fear not those that are in the dark that I know are watching.....you folks know this because you know they exist...yet despite that, some still do not believe. That's ok too...I know of dark guardians, & they are around...some pretend that they do not know...which in my opinion, is in a way, tragic...
Posted 4/25/08

pinoyako1 wrote:

I have always been comfortable in the dark...I have embraced the darkness since I was young, despite being told not to get too comfortable there...I fear not those that are in the dark that I know are watching.....you folks know this because you know they exist...yet despite that, some still do not believe. That's ok too...I know of dark guardians, & they are around...some pretend that they do not know...which in my opinion, is in a way, tragic...


Yeah i remember seeing them... those black and shadowy people that hide in dark places and watch you. I spotted one and told him "I see you." and then it stopped hiding and walked away as if gliding across the floor and it vanished into the darkness of the next room. it looked like a black ghost in the form of a human, but it was short like a child.
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Posted 4/26/08 , edited 4/26/08
lol, i feel like the odd one out. Ummm.... Lets see. I have always been scared of the dark since like 3 years ago. See, i have a really colorful imagination, which can be a real pain. I would see some movie with a vampire, it wouldnt even be scary. But then when i go to bed. I would create my own vampire, the door opens slowly, it comes softly, quietly, and stealthily to my bed with my back turned to it. It eyes would be glowing a dark red, its fangs exposed with saliva dripping off because it hadnt feasted in a while. Then it would strike; push my back down into the bed but pulling my head up to get a better bite. And then i would open my eyes. I would just have to come to terms with it. Can't say i ENJOY the dark, but i dont mind it as much, lol. SO yeah, as i said, feel like the odd one out here
Posted 4/27/08

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lol, i feel like the odd one out. Ummm.... Lets see. I have always been scared of the dark since like 3 years ago. See, i have a really colorful imagination, which can be a real pain. I would see some movie with a vampire, it wouldnt even be scary. But then when i go to bed. I would create my own vampire, the door opens slowly, it comes softly, quietly, and stealthily to my bed with my back turned to it. It eyes would be glowing a dark red, its fangs exposed with saliva dripping off because it hadnt feasted in a while. Then it would strike; push my back down into the bed but pulling my head up to get a better bite. And then i would open my eyes. I would just have to come to terms with it. Can't say i ENJOY the dark, but i dont mind it as much, lol. SO yeah, as i said, feel like the odd one out here


i know what you mean, I've gone through the same thing. but now i know they are just figments of my imagination. But that's also why i like the dark. When I'm in the dark, i feel like i can just escape. Like as if i can just runaway from reality. It's comforting in the dark though. No one can hear you cry, no one can criticize you, you can actually be at peace. I now enjoy the darkness's embrace.

Nor do i fear dark guardians, what is there to fear? I actually find them, also, comforting. Once, when I was little, it was night and i was up, scared to close my eyes and be enclosed in the darkness. but i saw a dark, misty figure by my bed, and i wanted to scream out, but i was to scared. Then the figure starting humming and i ended up being lulled to sleep. I slept the rest of the night peacefully, feeling as if something was watching over me. But, i also find it tragic that they are around, not being able to be at peace. Always there but also, never there.
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Posted 4/28/08

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Ichigo-bankai wrote:

lol, i feel like the odd one out. Ummm.... Lets see. I have always been scared of the dark since like 3 years ago. See, i have a really colorful imagination, which can be a real pain. I would see some movie with a vampire, it wouldnt even be scary. But then when i go to bed. I would create my own vampire, the door opens slowly, it comes softly, quietly, and stealthily to my bed with my back turned to it. It eyes would be glowing a dark red, its fangs exposed with saliva dripping off because it hadnt feasted in a while. Then it would strike; push my back down into the bed but pulling my head up to get a better bite. And then i would open my eyes. I would just have to come to terms with it. Can't say i ENJOY the dark, but i dont mind it as much, lol. SO yeah, as i said, feel like the odd one out here


i know what you mean, I've gone through the same thing. but now i know they are just figments of my imagination. But that's also why i like the dark. When I'm in the dark, i feel like i can just escape. Like as if i can just runaway from reality. It's comforting in the dark though. No one can hear you cry, no one can criticize you, you can actually be at peace. I now enjoy the darkness's embrace.

Nor do i fear dark guardians, what is there to fear? I actually find them, also, comforting. Once, when I was little, it was night and i was up, scared to close my eyes and be enclosed in the darkness. but i saw a dark, misty figure by my bed, and i wanted to scream out, but i was to scared. Then the figure starting humming and i ended up being lulled to sleep. I slept the rest of the night peacefully, feeling as if something was watching over me. But, i also find it tragic that they are around, not being able to be at peace. Always there but also, never there.


Since I was born overseas, there semed to be a extraordinary amount of unexplained things going on at our home. An example of this would be, one day I was stricken rather badly by a case of the flu (so the doctor said) & was lying in bed with a high fever. Since I was not to be disturbed, no one approached the room, but since the weather was extremely hot & humid, my swinging door was left unlocked. Dinner time came & went, I got up & decided to get something to eat. I inquired as to why no one approached me to tell me that it was time to eat earlier. I was then told that they didn't want to intrude on me & my "guest" because though they knew I was sick, I was still able to entertain a visitor. I said I didn't have any visitors & asked them who they were referring to. Well, all I was told was that there was a figure of someone that would have looked like they were standing over me (my door has a glass screen about eye level). They never saw the face because the figure was cloaked w/ a hood over it's head. Well, let's just say that I was fine after my "visitor" came by....

Posted 4/28/08

pinoyako1 wrote:


Music_is_everything wrote:


Ichigo-bankai wrote:

lol, i feel like the odd one out. Ummm.... Lets see. I have always been scared of the dark since like 3 years ago. See, i have a really colorful imagination, which can be a real pain. I would see some movie with a vampire, it wouldnt even be scary. But then when i go to bed. I would create my own vampire, the door opens slowly, it comes softly, quietly, and stealthily to my bed with my back turned to it. It eyes would be glowing a dark red, its fangs exposed with saliva dripping off because it hadnt feasted in a while. Then it would strike; push my back down into the bed but pulling my head up to get a better bite. And then i would open my eyes. I would just have to come to terms with it. Can't say i ENJOY the dark, but i dont mind it as much, lol. SO yeah, as i said, feel like the odd one out here


i know what you mean, I've gone through the same thing. but now i know they are just figments of my imagination. But that's also why i like the dark. When I'm in the dark, i feel like i can just escape. Like as if i can just runaway from reality. It's comforting in the dark though. No one can hear you cry, no one can criticize you, you can actually be at peace. I now enjoy the darkness's embrace.

Nor do i fear dark guardians, what is there to fear? I actually find them, also, comforting. Once, when I was little, it was night and i was up, scared to close my eyes and be enclosed in the darkness. but i saw a dark, misty figure by my bed, and i wanted to scream out, but i was to scared. Then the figure starting humming and i ended up being lulled to sleep. I slept the rest of the night peacefully, feeling as if something was watching over me. But, i also find it tragic that they are around, not being able to be at peace. Always there but also, never there.


Since I was born overseas, there semed to be a extraordinary amount of unexplained things going on at our home. An example of this would be, one day I was stricken rather badly by a case of the flu (so the doctor said) & was lying in bed with a high fever. Since I was not to be disturbed, no one approached the room, but since the weather was extremely hot & humid, my swinging door was left unlocked. Dinner time came & went, I got up & decided to get something to eat. I inquired as to why no one approached me to tell me that it was time to eat earlier. I was then told that they didn't want to intrude on me & my "guest" because though they knew I was sick, I was still able to entertain a visitor. I said I didn't have any visitors & asked them who they were referring to. Well, all I was told was that there was a figure of someone that would have looked like they were standing over me (my door has a glass screen about eye level). They never saw the face because the figure was cloaked w/ a hood over it's head. Well, let's just say that I was fine after my "visitor" came by....



it could have been an angel. it sounds nothing like my case.
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Hmm I was a crazy child( around 4 or 5 ), when i was little my parents gave me a Pink room because they wanted me be girly lol...anyways at Night the room would be pitch black, and i always loved how it was pitch black. i would seat on my bed and stare where the little light from my window seep in. and i would create these wild characters. i had a Killer tornado ( xD) and there was a stalker/ serial killer by my closet who would come near me with a knife...and i had the whole murder planned out in my head and how the cops would come and find my families body. and i loved watching scary movies..loved how vampires had such amazing powers, and i was also a little romantic ...O.o but my romance was twisted i found that the girl sacrificing self was better then happily ever after lol ....no i'm not making this up.....this how i was when i was little....i didn't have friends because of my imagination or morbid ideas
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for me the darkness has not only been power, but also wisdom. it represents a force uncontainable in nature, but also calming to many. I remember when i begain to inquery into the Dark Arts (Dark Neo Paganism). I was always intrested in the whole dark concept. But not evil, darkness is not necisarily evil, just feared. I always loved to sit in the dark and meditate, but i remember clearly meeting now one of my closest friends and he showed me the Necromicon, the book of the dead. This spiraled into what i now am, a master of knowledge of the dark arts.
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i was not born loving the dark, but the only time i was afraid of it was when i was alone in it. Even the shadows didn't scare me, it was the pure aloneness itself, the feeling that no one would be there to help me. I've had none of those experiences, but i have discovered the wonders of the dark, and have come to love its comforting solitude. I have a pretty twisted personality but am shy at the same time so i can only enjoy myself to the fullest at night.
Posted 9/10/08
I remember having a reaccuring dream as a child where I would be walking down a dark alley with tall stone walls on either side of me.Atop the walls on both sides were gargoyles.Everytime I walked past one I would hear wings and it would disapear.Usually the dream would end with me running in fear to a dead end and crying as they all cornered me.One night I just got tired of it so when the dream began I just ran to the end of the alley turned around and waited for them to take me.But instead of the dream ending.Everything was dark for a moment then I opened my eyes and I had changed.I had become one of them and when I stood up they nieled before me.That was the last time I had the dream and after that I made myself sit alone in the dark until my fear bacame love.I have always been a darksider I think.Once I embraced it I wanted nothing more than to wallow in it.I have always loved Vampires, Demons, Lychans and all other manners of dark things.I was constantly picked on and called wird as a kid because all I wanted to do was read was scary stories and play in the dark.I put a blanket over a table in my room and began sleeping under it so the light wouldn't touch me.Then I put my twin sized mattress in the closet and began sleeping there.I have been an insomniac since I was 12 or 13 I get my best sleep during the day.I believe that you don't choose the darkness it chooses you.When you let go of your fear it can be beautiful.
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