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Posted 4/28/08 , edited 4/28/08
How do you know when you have lost the last bit of humanity you have left? I think I have become numb inside. It has always been said you get what you give. I try to beleave that but more and more all i can see people using others for their own gain. People get left at the buttom and forgotten. It has gotten to the point that im starting to not care about anyone or anything. My GF left me today and it hurt for about an hour then i felt nothing. Sometimes I wonder just what my lot in life is, but if i dont live it i will never find out. I feel like giving up on trying to be happy. It seem when things start going right, when i final feel secure, my feet always get ripped out from under me. Everything i grow to love for whatever reason gets taken from me by the world. Is it so wrong to want to be happy? All i wish for is a job i enjoy and someone to spend the rest of my days with. Its like the world has lost all its beauty and all i see is mindless sacks of flesh wandering the world consumed by greed and selfishness. The world i new growing up where anything was possible is now limited by how inhuman you can be. Where did the love go. At some point humanities tears ran dry and the people within became lost. We are truly imperfect creatures. Have I become hallow? It feels that way to me atleast. To all those who choose to read this i apologise if it seems that im just ranting. But this was not brought out by anger. I cant feel anything right now. What do you think? Am i going crazy?
Posted 4/30/08

Jesse2407 wrote:

How do you know when you have lost the last bit of humanity you have left? I think I have become numb inside. It has always been said you get what you give. I try to beleave that but more and more all i can see people using others for their own gain. People get left at the buttom and forgotten. It has gotten to the point that im starting to not care about anyone or anything. My GF left me today and it hurt for about an hour then i felt nothing. Sometimes I wonder just what my lot in life is, but if i dont live it i will never find out. I feel like giving up on trying to be happy. It seem when things start going right, when i final feel secure, my feet always get ripped out from under me. Everything i grow to love for whatever reason gets taken from me by the world. Is it so wrong to want to be happy? All i wish for is a job i enjoy and someone to spend the rest of my days with. Its like the world has lost all its beauty and all i see is mindless sacks of flesh wandering the world consumed by greed and selfishness. The world i new growing up where anything was possible is now limited by how inhuman you can be. Where did the love go. At some point humanities tears ran dry and the people within became lost. We are truly imperfect creatures. Have I become hallow? It feels that way to me atleast. To all those who choose to read this i apologise if it seems that im just ranting. But this was not brought out by anger. I cant feel anything right now. What do you think? Am i going crazy?


owwwwwwwwww dear i'm really sorry to hear that
feeling numb is something normal to me it happens kinda once in 2 days
but don't you ever regret what happened in the past because it gives you
experiences, strenght , and courage to move on ......
just say they didn't deserve me , you're a great person i know that very well
you're always here for the people you love,
even though you said ((im starting to not care about anyone or anything))
i know that is not true , we keep saying love is everything
but sometimes it hurts like hell especialy when you know you can't be with the person you love
when you can't even receive a hug when you most need it , because we are apart
but i will tell you something "cheer up" yeah we don't get what we give
but life may be nice , just let try our best
you'll be fine XD
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