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eiz guyz!.. ...i wanna share s0mething...this is an interview made by 0ne 0f my sch00lmate and clubmate in LINK CLUB (Lakas Isipan Ng Kabataan) in 0ur sch00l...this club is aims t0 help students with their pr0blems having 0ur sch00l guidance c0uncil0r as 0ur adviser...
the said interview/sharing then published in the LINKers newspaper...this sharing inspired me 'cause actually i'm alm0st the same with this girl.. ...well, h0pe t0 inspire and enlighten u t00 with this.. .....
TS: Can u tell us s0mething 'b0ut urself?
Yam: I'm Yam (n0t her real name), 16 years 0ld & the last child am0ng 4 siblings.
TS: We are happy that u agree w/ this interview. T0 start w/, we gathered that u are the class valedict0rian. H0w did u d0 it?..
Yam: It was n0t easy & it was a l0ng j0urney specially that I went t0 3 diff sch00ls. When I was in 1st year I aws elected as the class president. At first it was 0k but eventually pr0blems started t0 arise. My resp0nsibilities piled up, the expectati0n 0f my teachers were very high, & s0me classm8s were jeal0us 0f me while 0thers can't understand me. I tried my best t0 pleas them all but n0thing changed. I then felt s0 frustrated, I cried a l0t until it came t0 the p0int that i d0n't wanna g0 t0 sch00l anym0re. That's when my parents decided that I transfer t0 an0ther sch00l.
TS: S0 h0w was y0ur life in this new envir0nment? Was it better?
YAm: N0t really, actualy it g0t w0rse because it g0t w0rse because at that time my family enc0untered a seri0us pr0blem and my parents started fighting. We, their children, are greatly affected by these fights.
TS: H0w did u feel at that time?
Yam: I was in pain. I cann0t c0ncentrate in everything I d0. It was really hard 4 me t0 accept things that are happening ar0und me. Even my studies were affected and I alm0st quit, but my dream 0f finishing my studies prevented me fr0m d0ing s0. It is w/ the same reas0n that I finally decided that I need a new life, new pe0ple ar0und me & a new envir0nment h0ping that things will change. Thus, the next sch00l year I trnsfered again in an0ther sch00l.
TS: Why is that?
Yam: My pr0blems really g0t me int0 the extent that I cann0t eat & sleep. I was tired 0f crying and i had n0 m0re tears. S0 I started hurting myself, n0t t0 end my life, but t0 divert the pain in my heart t0 my flesh since it is easier t0 heal. But that's n0t all, I began enj0ying the c0mpany 0f my friends because i have s0me0ne wh0 listens and empathizes. Alth0ugh, at that time we usually talk 'b0ut 0ur pr0blems while sharing a stick 0f Marlb0r0 (cigarette) and a b0ttle 0f GSM (gin) *laughs*. )ne m0re thing, s0metimes I prefer t0 drink 'cause when I'm drunk I 4get my pr0blems and I can't feel pain anym0re.
TS: U really c0pe differently this time. Were ur studies affected?
Yam: Alm0st. We were alm0st caught 0ne time while having a drinking spree. I was s0 scared then. It was at that m0ment that I realized that my acti0ns were just a few steps fr0m destroying my life! I th0ught hurting myself & having vices was 0k but in the l0ng run I still ended unhappy and still w/ my pr0bs hanging. I wanted t0 change & l00k 4 true happiness.
TS: I'm happy that u had that realizati0n. S0 h0w will u start l00king 4 true happiness? D0 u have any plans?
Yam: Yes. A ew m0nths ag0, I started t0 bring back my faith in the Lord. I try t0 talk t0 Him like a friend & share the st0ry 0f my life alth0ugh I kn0w He kn0ws it better than i d0.When im tr0ubled/feeling d0wn i n0 l0nger l0ck myself al0ne in a r00m 0 av0id hurting myself. I als0 make myself busy thingking 0f my dreams & h0w t0 reach them rather than thingking 0f my regrets, failures and pains. Divert my anger t0 0ther things. At times when my friends call me 4 "jamming" I decine & try t0 d0 s0mething w0rthwhile like writting a p0em 0r playing w/ my d0g.
TS: I'm really amazed 0n h0w u are trying t0 change ur life. I kn0w it is n0t easy but I can see u are realy determined. S0 be4 we end this interview, any final w0rds 4 0ur readers?
Yam: friends, pr0blems will always be there, we cann0t run away fr0m them. I th0ught that giving up 0n my pr0blems w0uldn't n0t me that much but i ended up w/ regrets, m0re pr0blems, & a l0t m0re heartaches. N0w, I f0und 0ut that if I w0uld fight & c0ntinue t0 face pr0blems head 0n, I will end up being a better pers0n. I can 0nly say 0ne thing "FIGHTING IS ALWAYS EASIER THAN GIVING UP"

that was l0ng...but w0rth it!
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http://www.crunchyroll.com/showforumtopic?id=12063

d0nt type like that..it's ann0ying.
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Posted 11/25/07
too lazy to report, why don't people just scan/search forum index -_-''
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You guys beat me to it =P
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