Post Reply My Memories-- A Fleeting Illusion At Most
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So. This is something that happened to my recently while playing the mmorpg, Mabinogi. I think, from an outside pov, this would seem like quite a sad story with a slightly happy ending. What do you guys think? Feel free to use for plot bunnies-- I'm just here to blab. Sorry for making you listen to me.

My Memories-- Fleeting Illusions At Most

Well... I have a lot of friends in Mabi. My friend's list exceeds 100, so I'm trying to trim it down a bit to the people I actually remember. My memory is a peice of crap-- I could be setting off to one place with a really important goal in mind and stop half-way though wondering why I was heading there in the first place. Apparently, I built no tracks for my train of thought to run on.

I figured that if I remembered someone's name, they must be important to me. Faces don't matter-- appearences always change in Mabi. But the difficult thing was that some people on my list were actually the same players but with different characters. A guy named Trazox msg'd me one day drawling on about how bored he was. At that time, I had no idea who he was. I thought he was the guy who kept PKing me for no reason, so I gave him a curt, cynical reply. Why would I care if he was bored?

He seemed confused and asked if something was wrong. He said that the Shouza he knew was always smiling and in a good mood. That was part of the mask my character wears. I'm always happy. I have an eternal smile plastered on my face and eyes that are always read as kind. My friends said I was always the type to fall for the defensless noobs. I would aways extend a hand if they were in trouble, even if I was doing something myself. And with that hand came a smiling face that never rejected anyone.

It didn't make any sense to me about why he would say that. "The Shouza he knew?" I met the PK yesterday-- how could you judge a person's usual mood if you just met them a day ago?

I decided to venture a guess that he wasn't the PK and started lightening my tone. I couldn't remember him, but he obviously remembered me. So I asked him who he was and he seemed shocked that I would ask him such a thing. He went on a rant about how I was his best friend since he started playing Mabinogi. He went on telling me about all the times we supposedly spent together-- many I remembered, but the other person's name seemed to evade me.

He finally realised that I really forgot and said that it was alright, commenting on my peice-of-crap memory. I only told my closest friends about my impared memory, since it embaressed me to forget people so quickly. Now I knew that he was an important person, but the name didn't seem right to me. It bugged me a lot. I felt really bad inside for forgetting an important person, and felt that he was hurt by this, too.

He asked me to go camping with him and a friend. I didn't really care much for the camping part. I just used it as an excuse to see his character again. Maybe his appearance would jog my incredibly short-termed memory. It usually didn't, but at this point, I was desperate to remember him. Not for his sake, but for mine. I wasn't about to let my memory get away with letting me forget friends.

While on my way to the camping site, we chatted via pm. He was still trying to jog my memory, and was now recalling the time were I wrote, "I killed my Beloved Shire" on my Status. He said he joked about it, saying I shouldn't have had it Reborn into a faster horse, which was a one-seater. I remembered curtly replying to buy a horse of his own and to stop being such a leech. But once again, the name and face evaded me.

I never liked to be mean, in real life or game. If I was even calling someone a name(playfully), that must've meant we were close enough as to where I knew for a fact that it wouldn't offend him. If I joked with you, well... you were in my good book. So... I summed up that he was a good friend, and an even better one for being so patient with me and trying to help me remember. Now I really felt bad. How come I forgot him? I never forgot anyone else I joked with, like Mero and Saf.

When I got to the camping site, I saw that he was an Elf. Problem. I was a Giant Ally. I thought it strange that he was an Elf-- the person in my memory was Human. He mentioned that this wasn't his main character and that sent a surge of relief through me. I hardly remembered secondary characters. I laughed and asked why he hadn't mentioned it sooner. He said I still should have remembered his elf since I helped him through Karu Dungeon. Now, that I remembered. But then again, I helped lots of Elves through Karu for their Falcon Quest. I still couldn't definatley remember him.

Then he dropped one last hint that hit home. He said that we just recently met in Dunbarton. Recently as in we met, then he switched characters to ask me to go camping. What was that-- 10 minutes ago? I felt like crap again. This was a new low for me. I forgot the person I met 10 minutes ago. I wanted to do a headwall, but decided my brain needed to be intact to remember what I did 10 minutes ago in town. Then I remembered his name. And with it, the empty spaces in my memories were filled in. I even remembered how we met damn near a year ago-- I helped him as a noob.

They all came back like a landslide. I laughed a lot and called myself an idiot. I thought he'd think differently of me because of that event, but he didn't. While I went to go chop wood for the fire, he came along to 'guard' me from the 'nasty Giants'. It should have been the other way around-- he was the Elf in Giant Town, and I was technically obliged to kill him in the name of the Elf vs Giant war. I joked about it, saying, "Wow, paradox-- An Elf protecting a Giant friend. Castenea and Krug would throw fits."

He simply replied, "Why does it have to be like that? Let's just call it... a friend protecting a friend. Doesn't that sound better?"

But I guess, despite our good moods from then on, it still wasn't enough to get past the Snow Crysta Par Dungeon. The Wendigo kicked our asses with one hit. Oh well. Just another thing to joke about as time goes on. The Elf Leader, Castenea, often says, "Memory fades in time." I guess mine fades a little faster than most, hmm? But as long as they can come back, I couldn't care less.

xxx

.... wow, that was long. I'll shut up now. But... glad to see this forum is still alive. Well... at least one person is making the effort. Kudos to you, fellow artist~
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.......does that mean you do luv me after all ? JK. JK.

It's sweet Ten-C but the way you wrote it is really really depressing and straight forward. My suggestion? You should write more short stories and one shots. It seems to fit you better then long shots.
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Posted 6/23/09
... I whut now? :blink:

Hmm. I SHOULD try one-shots.... but I have the irresistable urge to go on and on and on explaining things. It snowballs, you know? >.>
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Yes you do. Yes you do. Don't deny it ^_^

And I know what you're talking about......that's why I don't read many of your stories....too much info. I mean, half of it we can figure out through what's happening in the story so in the end, it just get's annoying reading all of the explanations and stuff.
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Posted 6/23/09
=.= I give up. You're just an impossible person. WHY?! @_@

And yeah. I know it gets annoying, but it's a nasty habit. I NEED TO KILL IT. Someone give me an axe. .-.
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Of course, you've never won an argument as of yet ^_^

Want a cannon instead? Cuz I don't got an axe
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ARGH. Why do I deal with you?! You never say anything nice about my crap. T.T -huddles in corner-

o.o Cannons are too messy. and unreliable. I could be catepulted half way across a football feild with every bone in my body broken, but not dead. Like executions in the good old days with the guy and the axe. Sometimes it didn't finish the job. >.<
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Posted 6/23/09
TT_TT you hurt my feelings. I'm not MADE to be nice. I'm suppose to be the person who kills all your self esteem.....like that one poor kid who never wrote again. Ah, the good old days.
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Well, i didn't think your story was that bad, godime. Actually, i liked it. I have a hard time remembering peoples names so i could kind of sympathize ...
And i like the ranting on in detail, i think it gives the story personality.
I guess it just depends on peoples personalities, hey?? XD You keep practising, and don't give up!
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that's so sweet of you to compliment her! ^_^!!! no, that was NOT sarcasm dime-chan...although she did have a point. Personality. What you write is exactly what you say aloud, Godime, I could tell immediately who wrote it if it was you >_>;;......makes it awkward cuz it amplifies the fact that you wrote it....just a me thing I guess.
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Not helping, you damned Satan Spawn. =,=

tyvm, Kujin~ Unlike SOME PEOPLE, you believe in COMPLIMENTS. THANK YOU. You'll never hear me say that to you, Satan Spawn. D:<
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