If I loved you

If I loved you…, I would most probably, keep this feeling locked up within my heart…. Out of fear, that you might misunderstand, what I was trying to say and run away… The fact that my heart skips a beat, whenever you called me by my name...., even though, most of the time, it was just to wake me up; from the usual day dreaming that I’ve been having a lot lately.

Thinking about you, makes my heart beats faster. While the feelings I was trying to contain within becomes, even more unbearable…. The part of my chest where my heart is…. Begins to hurt…. while, little droplets of tears started rushing down my cheeks…. All I can think of was you…

I love you.

Those three little words, was always at the tip of my tongue, enclosed by the lips that was dying to taste… your sweet kisses.

Oh…., God!

If my chest was a canon, I would probably shoot my heart through it…. Just to ease…, this indescribable pain and unbearable sorrow…. And yet…, for all the madness in the world, I will still Love you.

If I loved you

How sweet!

@ LoveNews: Thank you for dropping by and actually leaving a trace for me to follow-up and thank you properly. *Smiles*

No problem!
I want to also say that after reading this twice, I like how you are very fluid with the versatility of the emotions. I enjoy reading how you want to give an interpretation to such expressions. You exemplified many figurative language like "if my chest were a canon"; wonderful metaphor to establish any account of major feelings because it really indicates how much you want to empower those three words. Another account amongst this is, the 'sweet kisses'. It's amazing for you to already know how the kisses of ones lips feel although you have never really tasted it before. But that is great that you use sweet due to the fact that it is a given that you do love and you wouldn't mind striving for the first aura you will receive. I think from reading this, I feel like I can imply more of your rhetorical devices into my own knowledge for stories and journals. Moreover, THANK YOU for sharing your phenomenal lines. Keep it up and I hope to see more of your work in this forum!

Dearest LoveNews,

I'm glad, you've enjoyed it... I've written this little love letter, during my desperate moments. The "If" is not a grammatical error, but rather, another passage that will lead you to the messages written with invisible ink in-between the lines. If you could picture it in your mind, you would be able to dive into my heart.... This is who I am, "A Hopeless Romantic".

I just hope you don't mind having a nutcase like me for a friend. *Smiles*

Thank you very kindly for reading it twice... *Smiles*

^^ i like it too~

Hi there, CandyPopShop,

It's very kind of you to drop by.... Thank you for leaving a trace for me to follow. *Smiles*

Having a nut as a friend would rather be interesting now. Being around too many kind people sometimes is overwhelming, but to have a nut friend, that would be just amazing to experience with.

Dearest LoveNews,

Thank you, once again... I'm beginning to feel a little bit more at home in this site. *Smiles*

I like writting stories, in between my studies... as a breather, or rather, a break from the mondaine chores of boring disciplines. However, lately... I found myself, preoccupied with story themes evolving around "Pure Love Relationship Romance" (i.e., Yaoi) *Blushing*

I'm a little hesistant to post it here. Do you think, I should try it... anyway?

No problem!!! I am glad that you are feeling a bit more welcomed here as of being in home now ( I never knew that you felt like that before. Ahaha~). Yeah, I hate doing chores too. My mom bosses me around everyday and expects a lot from me, even in school, but I am silently rebelling her rules for being a straight A student. Ahahahaha...shh, she doesn't know that I am doing that... It is great that you love to write. I wish I could write as good as you! I really mean it-my words are always flat and they can never send any impression to what I want, but you can. I am jealous.
Should you write those stories in here and provide them for people to read? I say, "Yes, go for it!" because I like to read those once in a while for a change. I mean, I read the same things almost every time I read a manga or just those cliched Asian and American books like Twilight-even watching television is getting too fragile. But yes, you should and you can. There are no issues in not being able to release your own ideas as an entertainment to the people in here whom are willing to read. I say you should. Consider the great outcomes of your flexibility being written in many genres. That's cool, I can't do that. However, if you are still hesitant in displaying your new interest in here, I say you should calm down first and then whenever you feel you must, you may glide with it. I just don't want you to shake while typing it and blush even more. Whenever you are settled for your boat to sail, you can post it. It's not wrong to do so, it's a privilege given to you that you can write what you want. You can DO IT, don't take it for granted. I will be waiting for your new ideas to be contributed in here.

Dearest LoveNews,

Thank you for the encouragement. I really appreciate it. *Smiles* Just like you; I never had much time to watch television now a-days. A lot of depressing news about Libya, and the still on going revolution in Egypt.

Dreams of obtaining happiness is not always as easy as it sounds.

My head is full of curious thoughts about you... but, it's impolite to ask a lady... just for curiosities sake. (I'm not the type of gentleman to do so.) I trust, we would be able to know more about each other as our friendship grows day by day. *Smiles*

LOL Really, umm...if you do get to know me, ahahaha- you might laugh. I act like an immature kid. LOL Totally! We can be like best CR buddies in here, too! LOL It would be a pleasure to get to know you too! It's fun t know new people better! Yeah~ Oh, you can ask me anything even if you are not the gentleman to do so. Honestly, my family tells me that I am more of like a guy to them when they chat with me, even my girl and guy friends which makes me look so unladylike; depressing, right? Even so, I am use to it. Hence, I can't ignore almost anything- I am very precise in answering people.
Oh crisis, I didn't even know about those stuff happening until today when I heard my daddy talking about it to himself (pardon his loneliness LOL). Though, what is going on exactly?

Dearest Love News,

Now-a-days being a boyish young lady is kind-of normal... Don't you agree? *Smiles*

I believe that asking a young lady straight up, is unwise... not only because, I would end up putting her into a compromised position, But also... it would be sad, if she happened to misunderstand me and run away. Besides, this is not a police station. *Smiles*

Haha, you're funny. Over here in the U.S, majority of the chicks are like O.o almost too girly to realize. Anyhow, just ask me whatever. I really won't mind! I won't probably misunderstand you too because I really reread things over to not misinterpret.

Dearest Jenny,

That was very kind of you... Just the words of inspiration, I needed to hear.... Thank you, I really appreciate it. *Smiles*