Just Kill Me:
Please I beg you
Kill me now
Show me a world without pain
If I must die
Then let me lay
In the bad to which
My soul will stay
Cry out to me not
For this is what I had wished upon
On a night when my cry's,
A night....a night when my cry's
Had finally died
And my eyes gone dark from the inside
And night when my heart had shut down
When you refused my cry's
If you must
NO can you please
Just kill me know
Before I live my life
With dark eyes
And a dead heart
For in reality
I have already died
I'll just take another path
One that's simple
One I can take alone
I'm okay with that
I dont need friends
Why have them if they just leave you
Or worse they hurt you
I dont need love
If all that comes of it is just....
So let me walk my lonely path
Don't follow me
Don't try and change my path
Because at the end of my road
Is the same as yours
A sweet sleep
So please dont even try and stop me
Because if I want to walk down my lonely road
I dont want to be reminded of you
And how I made this choice
The poison is spreading
Started at my lips
And spread into my thoughts
Now all I see are your eyes
All I feel is your touch
And I hear
Your heart beat
You intoxicated me
You numbed me down
You brought me into submission
Then.....the you turned and left me
You walked away
You chose another
After I worked hard to be by your side
You chose her
Now I'm left with the memory
Of your smile
Of you kiss
Of your heart beat
Only these memories left
I am but a shell
You took my heart at first
But then my dear
You took every feeling
Pain and pleasure
Love and hate
Happiness and sadness
Now I walk the earth searching to find you once more
And take in yet another dose of poison.
Love them too <3 abandoned made my eyes watery cuz thats just how im feeling now. and bitter taste of love is how i felt about my ex. *sigh*
aww Beel im so sorry *hugs* i didnt think my poem was that poweful so sorry >.<
its just life for me :/ hope i dont sound like a complainer XD
My apartment needs more squiggles
My addiction. I'm addicted. Floating in the sky. My body is lifted. The pain is gone it just went by. Why do I keep taking them I don't no. My body keeps begging for more and more. lord please help me. I cant get off them. I cant shake them. Taking more and more I'm afraid to die. But the addiction is strong why would I make up a lie. Jump off the cliff I know I can fly. I see my whole world go by. Its getting to hot I'm burning. I'm sweating sweat dripping down my forehead I'm groaning. In the sky gliding. No wings on my back but I'm still flying. Just minding my own. Everybody in this world is my clone. They see me suffering they feel my pain. Laying on the floor. No one comes to my aid. Lay down to sleep. But this sleep is forever. Took so many pills I know that wasn't clever. But I'm not going down no never. Woke up less than a hour with a cold sweat. But I'm not done ..not yet. Taking more wondering will I die. I would love to kiss my whole family..give them my last good bye. Even tho I'm not strong enough this world is all mine. All u see is straight lines in my wrist. Laying down in bed balling my fist. I got a lot of thing to accomplish heres my list. I'm going to full fill my dreams and my wish. I still think I own this world. Lord listen to me I just got a few words. Make me happy fix my addiction. I need to come up with a better solution. Something is better than nothing. I think the flesh inside my body is rotting. I'm getting eaten alive. I'm like a survivor in a island with no supply. Why am I crazy? sitting here wondering why? Despite that I need help. No one was there for me no one knew how I felt. ...but wait I woke up and realize this was all a dream not real this is what my addiction had made me feel. My brain was spinning like a out of control wheel. I'm done with this addiction done deal. My mind was playing tricks on me. I guess this is what I am ..i always will be. Lord ill see u one day. Everybody make room make way I'm coming home today only if my heart doesn't slowly fade....
I'm dreaming hoping to be something in life.
I'm working so hard willing to pay the price.
Tired of this lifestyle and and stupid ways.
Tired of saying the same damn same thing. Over and over again.
I want to leave earth give me some space so move over.
Steps getting higher and higher never lower.
My life is crazy its like spinning a quarter.
But I don't get paid back. I'm never perfect so cut me so slack.
Problems will never leave my sight.
Always there but I tried to get rid of them with all my might.
Even tho I'm not perfect I kind of seem to get things right.
So I spend my time with a pen in my hand and this is what I write.
People don't like what I do and the way I act.
But this is me you talking about so get the facts.
My life has always been hard a damn struggle.
But I always seem to get up and have some extra muscle.
I'll never give up on life god will be there.
Everybody has they life good but that ain't fair.
I have a paper heart it hurts it feels like I have a little tear.
I guess god made my life like this to make me stronger.
For a fact I'll get up and my life will be longer.
Always have energy for anything that's possible.
Keep my head up and become more responsible.
Never say nothing in this world is impossible.
One day I'll be with my holy father.
I'm getting better each day and a little more smarter.
They say if you kill yourself its a sin.
So I choose not to do it I rather be in heaven I choose to win.
God is giving me life giving me hope.
Choose not to be evil like the rest of these folks.
So father when I'm gone I hope you read this.
Because its my family and my real friends that ill truly miss..
What's The Sense of Wishing Something,When I Always Wish it Away...
Come Back Son
I Worte This Poem abouut my son he was born early
Where have you gone baby,
Where should I find you, my son.
Mumma's calling you honey
Please return home.
Mumma wants to see again
She want to see you smile,
She want to see you play,
No worries baby she will be with you all day.
Mumma wants to be there for you
She wants to see you grow.
The pain is killing mumma
Now that you are not there with us anymore.
For once just come back son,
She loves you baby, you can't ignore
Its all mumma's fault
She shouldn't have let you out of that door.
I Love You Deatra <3