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Posted 1/14/08 , edited 4/18/08
This is the 13th year that I attend on a Christian school.
When I was a little girl I was taught that there is God, someone who made the world and who was righteous and blah blah. I was very young, and at that age you believe everything that grown-ups tell you.
In our country we have a holiday comparable to Christmas. The guy who hands out presents is called Sinterklaas. I always confused Sinterklaas and God for some reason. I didn't know which of the two could read my mind, they were practically the same. Only thing was that I never saw God (though I prayed to him every day), but I had seen Sinterklaas for real. And every year he gave me presents, and I loved him.
Untill the day came that my parents told me that Sinterklaas wasn't real. He was just a random actor in a dress. Of course, I still believed in God at that point. But because my faith in Sinterklaas had been so big, I started to have my doubts. But, well, everyone I knew believed in God, so he probably wasn't a lie.

Then I learned that there were people that worshipped other Gods. Were they going to burn in Hell because they happened to worship the wrong one? It wasn't their fault! What if their parents just raised them with the idea of that other God being real? Poor guys! But hey, why should my religion be the right one. Why can't it be that what they believe actually was the truth?

When I was older I started to think more about it. Religion works in an odd way. The Bible is just a book, God himself did not write it - humans did. Then why couldn't it be possible that they made it up? People were being terrified because they would go to Hell after they died when they didn't praise the almighty lord. And if you were a nice person, you'd to go Heaven and everything would be fine. Sure. I understand that people wanted to believe in it because they desired something as pretty as Heaven, or because they were afraid of Hell.

But then again, there were people, such as a friend of mine, who had seen signs of God telling them things. I thought about it, and it made perfect sense. It's like the Placebo-effect. When you believe in it, you will see it. The human mind is made to see patterns everywhere when you want to.

I started saying bad things about God. Did I feel bad when I did? Would God punish me? - I didn't feel anything at all. It didn't make me feel guilty. Honestly, at first I was scared to say anything bad about religion. Just because I wouldn't want to go to Hell. But God would still know I'm a nice person. If he would send me to Hell just because I didn't believe in him, he'd pretty much suck.
A friend of mine told me I would go to Hell because I didn't believe in God anymore. If it was like that, well, ok. I don't like the way that works. It's not justice.

I started noticing all the things that were evil about the Bible. Like that God killed all firstborn in Egypt. That's just evil. And that homosexuality is a sin. And that a lot of people died of aids because the pope said they couldn't use condoms because that's murder too. And now I hate God. I hate religion.

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i was a christian, but as a child i rarely prayed, i only did when my mom would take me to church, and even when she did, i never paid attention or really prayed, my life was perfectly fine, then when i was like 10 yeas old, i started praying every night, but my life kept the same,, then i stopped praying, and nothing happened, it made me think, does praying matters?, then if it doesnt, whats the point of doing it? then i came to a conclusion, that god didnt existed, and again, nothing happened to my life, so thats how i became an atheist ^_^
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i never beleived in any religion and nothing was ever forced on me, ive always just taken the piss out of religion haha
Posted 1/15/08 , edited 4/18/08
Ever since i was a little girl, i did not believe in him (god). i was truly a practical child, and never believed anything i heard out of pure stubborn-ness. you could say i have never been baptist like my family is. i have never been a major church goer either. in fact, if i ever appeared at church at all it was to eat doughnuts, and/or because i was dragged there for easter. as a preteen/ early teen, i tried to understand more about religon and kindof forced it on myself after hearing something from a preacher saying that you must have "true faith" to get into heaven or you burn. knowing i didnt have any faith at all it i tried praying... knowing nothing would happen, i tried reading the bible more.... only to doze off after the first paragraph, i tried watching hardcore exorsisms to see if it would make me see what god is about, but i just saw a fucking retarded person shaking and getting sprayed with water. i came to the same conclusion i had though all along *god is bullshit*, and out of anger i became cynical, and had a disgust twords anyone who truly followed any god, and never questioned them. i still get a pain in my stomach when i see people pray, it makes me want to vomit. religion was most definately push onto me AND HARD. i have spent my entire life pretending to believe in what i was told, and to this day no one knows i am atheist other than on the internet. if it were to get out, i would be disowned. but i plan on abandoning these people before they can abandon me, and to do so im relocating over seas (for more reasons than i care to speak)
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Posted 1/15/08 , edited 4/18/08
...I'm still laughing my ass off over here!
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Posted 1/17/08 , edited 4/18/08
Hm. I'm an Atheist for plenty of reasons. One, I've never seen him. Two, well, if he's so powerful and peace loving, why is every other war connected to him, or various other Gods? Why are our gods real and the greek gods fake? I basically just said fuck it, it's not real, It's just Santa for Adults.
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Posted 1/17/08 , edited 4/18/08
Well, I am Agnostic. My story begins with me as a child born in the Philippines. I rarely went to church, but on days that I could, I willingly went, by myself or with friends and at times, with family--but I never knew why I went. However, as time timely went on and as I learned of new words that led to new questions, I began to wonder what made my religion the truest of them all. What made it MY religion?

Time went on once more and I found myself living in America, Guam for most of the time so far. I still went to church, but on very rare occassions, and at times, I was even forced to, for family values or for God? I do not know. As I lived the school-life, I learnt of more history, and even more religions. I learnt of scholars and philosophers, of thinkers and of great men(and women), but my religion suggested that these people have no place in the Great Realm, were it because of their different beliefs and religion? In America, I found new questions to ask myself.

As days and months passed, I learned of my family history and what the word "bastard" had meant. I learned I was a bastard son in the truest form, meaning my biological parents never married, and because of this, I have no place in Heaven... or atleast not until Christ came along thousands of years ago. Still, even after God had proclaimed that we were free of sin and we have nothing more to do than to believe in the lord we call Christ, the Catholic church still labeled me as a sinner, yet... I could choose to be a Lutheran instead, another religion under a diety known only as God(correct me if I'm wrong, but doesn't that make him egotistical? We can know that he is of a higher power, yet... he imposes upon as that we must refer to such a being as the mightiest of all titles, God?)

ok umm.. i'm getting really lazy and don't feel like doing paragraphs and trying to sound so eloquent anymore lol
anyway, basically, i just kept asking questions and asking more questions. but all i've ever got in replies were "we shouldn't ask so much for God is divine", "there's no use to questions or answers, all that we need to know is that God exists", or something of those nature..

also, before i learned of the word Agnostic, i would tell people who asked about my religion(friends mostly) that my religion was the combination of all religion i had known or had some respect for with a tiny bit of atheist-ism.. so yeah, i've been agnostic even though i never realized it =P

also.. the only reason why God forgave us of our sins is because he sins too.. you can't tell me that Jesus Christ was not a bastard, or that God didn't rape another man's wife...

i started slow, at first i questioned just everything around me, then i questioned religion and its ways, then i compared religions, then i found similarities. then i learned of OLDER RELIGIONS, even older than Catholicism(Catholicism---Scientology of the ancient world? i think so....*nods head*) but anyway. i'm now at the point of questioning the characters themselves.. Jesus, Jehova, the saints, the Gods.. etc etc

also, why am i not atheist? idk. i guess it's just that somewhere in my heart and mind, i have this urge to live for as long as i can. don't get me wrong.. when i was younger i had suicidal tendencies(only i was able to convince myself to not go with it) and i had/have no fear of death. but still, who knows.. maybe it's just the years and thousands of years of religion etched into my body.. you know, that "hope" that something is waiting for us in the after-life
Posted 1/19/08 , edited 4/18/08

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...I'm still laughing my ass off over here!


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If you can't argue effectively, that means that you've lost, my friend!=p
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SeraphAlford wrote:

...I'm still laughing my ass off over here!


coughxoughcoughcoughcoughcoughBAKAcoughcoughcoughcoughRETARDcoughcoughcough.


If you can't argue effectively, that means that you've lost, my friend!=p


I’m not arguing about anything, my friend. I just thought it was amusing that I got invited to this group.

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Posted 1/22/08 , edited 4/18/08
I've always been that way. I even went to church quite a bit with friends. It just never really clicked with me.
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Posted 1/23/08 , edited 4/18/08
Everyone who has ever hurt me or left me behind or betrayed me has been highly religious and Christian so I just decided to say fuck it to hell.
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Posted 1/27/08 , edited 4/18/08
I was never Christian or anything but Buddhist. I wasn't really into that religion but yet, celebrated the holidays with my family and had those little statue thingys to pray to. My family has a religion, but overall, is not that religious. Even when I stated to my mom and dad I officially did not believe god existed they weren't that concerned to the state they were yelling frantically at me or anything of that sort.

Ok, so heres my little story:

I think I was in 2nd or 3rd grade, my class was discussing how to keep up with homework assignments. (Due to the fact that people were handing in things late.)

Teacher: So, any suggestions?
Student: Pray to god.
Teacher was of course, speechless. What teacher would know what to say to a 2nd/3rd grader at that time?
I said: "Its going to really help?"
Student: "Yup, you'll even get higher marks!"

I didn't really believe that, but at lunch time my friend told me she would pray to god. I shrugged and encouraged her, I mean, she really did need that little bit of help from "god." She got 0's often... After a couple of days, she continued getting zeroes.
After that, I heard her saying to her mom: "Its not working! I've been praying forever and god is helping me! I HATE god!"
Her mom: "Don't you dare say that ever again!"
Her: "But god isn't helping me!"
Her mom shrugged, "God is god. Then its because he thought you weren't good enough."

She wasn't a very good mom. -.-

The next day, she came crying to school. She had been spanked by her mother when they reached home because she had "insulted" god. I was speechless, what kind of god would let one of his "believers" hurt someone else for merely insulting him? Not to mention, so called god didn't help her out at all. Then, I came to my conclusion. It was all because: God didn't exist in the first place. <-- *cough* I was pretty black and white about this since I was younger but I eventually thought more into it and realized more things...
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Posted 2/2/08 , edited 4/18/08
god never helped me and i read the davinci code
Posted 2/6/08 , edited 4/18/08
Well I was about 4 when I first had doubts about religion. The second they started asking me to sing hymns and pray to something that I had never ever seen when I did not want to I started to hate him. Wasn't sure if he was real or not at this point. When I got older and I started to learn more and more about the world and also about just how many religions are out there and how they all contradict each other and hence just how many people who worship must be totally wrong I started to realise that by simple logic God almost certainly didn't exist or humans had got what he was wrong. As I got older and I thought about it more deeply and I could see why someone would want to start a religion even if it wasn't true, and I could see why people would willingly delude themselves and follow these religions, and so I saw quite clearly that in all probability all religions were started for these reasons, and that none of them were true. Also why the hell hasn't Gos come forward and said hi? He has no reason not to. Why does he allow evil to exist? Why do people fight in his name when in theory he promotes peace? Basically because he isn't there. Science also provides far more credible reasons for how the universe works. Essentially there is just no way in hell that there is a God up there.
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My story starts off simular to most of yours, but with one big difference. I wasn't ever really a huge believer, even as a child my parents never took me to church, they wanted me to come up with my own ideas. Which i pretty much thank them for everyday. But my problem was with the words themselves.

Around age twelve or so, i was intensly fasinated with language. Didn't really matter what kind, i just like the different useage and context of a single word in another langauge. I started with German, Irish, Japanese (since i wanted to see what a language without a Latin background worked. The funny part is i was teaching myself Japanese before i even knew what anime was. I didn't even hear the word anime until i was 15) and Russian. Later on, a friend of mine who was deeply religions, but had common sense enough not to push me into it asked if i wanted attend church with her one sunday. I figured I didn't really have anything else to do, since i only planned to play video games anyway.

But i went and had some fun. When i learned that the original bible was written in Aramaic i started to study about that. The first problem i came across was the word Love. Aramaic had six different useage for this word, english has one. Of course we can spin it around to make it comprehensible in our language. But there was a word for brotherly love, eternal love, fatherly love and etc etc. But in the bible they just say "love god". And if you ever tried to translate something it's comes down to choice. Which is why when someone translate you hear people always say "it roughly translate too". Since i can't read Aramaic i started to wonder if they (whoever first translated the story) may of choose the wrong word for love. Maybe, it was show God a brotherly love and not a eternal love.

We all watch anime. Ever saw two different translations to the same episode of some show? The story doesn't lose it's meaning, but something could be off in that episode, like a joke may not make much sense in one translation.

So i figured the language is screwed up and holy shit (^_-) let me tell you, it is. It totally is. The worst part is: the bible is translated in Old English! And half the time with that needs someone telling you what it says.


Also, another reason i don't believe in the bible is because of the Book of Job. If you want, read it again and keep this in mind.

God destoryed Job's life on a bar bet with Satan. A BAR BET. Even though Job had faith in God, God had no faith in Job. If God is all powerful, he doesn't need to prove himself to Satan. It's as simple as that.
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