I was so exited when I woke up this morning. It was my 16th Birthday and Jake, my boyfriend, told me that he had something special planned for me but wouldn't tell me what it was. I couldn't wait to get to school to talk to him.I jump out of bed and stumbled to the bathroom to take a shower. 20 minutes later i'm standing in front of my closet, towel rapped around me, searching and searching for the perfect outfit to wear. I finally chose a light blue t-shirt and black skinny jeans with a matching blue sweatshirt. I wore the same outfit when I got my first kiss from Jake.
I still remember it to this day. We were walking in the park Saturday ,September 15. The leaves blowing around us, we stopped at a bench and he sat down pulling me close to him. I could feel his warm breath on my cheek. He turns me toward him "Allison, I love you so much, and I never want to lose you." Then, slowly, we lean in, until our lips touch, It was like there were fireworks inside of me as we kissed, or that's what it felt like to me. Then we pulled away and he wrapped me in his arms.
So as I get ready for school, putting on my make-up, making sure I don't mess up even just a little, my cellphone rings, jolting me out of the fantasy I was in. I hurry to my bed where I threw my stuff and look who it is. Jake. I quickly answer it. "Hey, what's up?".... "Oh nothing, Happy Birthday sweetheart." …. "Aw thanks".. " no problem, so are you excited to know what your surprise is?".. "Definitely, can't you just tell me what it is right now?? Please!.." … "I can't baby, not yet, but listen honey, I have to go.... I'll see you at school kay?" .. (sigh) " okay, bye Jake, I love you.." "Bye hon, love you too."
I hang up glancing at the phone as I drop it on my bed, then head out to the kitchen to chat with my mom before I head to school. "Mornin' mom"
"Hey sweetie, Happy Birthday! How is my almost 16 year old?"
"Tthanks, I'm doing good actually, pretty excited to see Jake, he has something really special planned." , "Bet you can't wait huh?"
"Nope, but I have to, haha"
"Well have fun! Oh, can you go see if your sister is up and ready yet?"
"Yup". I run upstairs and knock on my sisters door... "Who is it?"
"Me, who else?"
"I'm trying to sleep!"
"Come on Alisa, get out of bed, bus in 20 minutes."
With that, I turn around and run back down stairs. "Hey mom, can I go with Bailey to school? She said yesterday that she'd pick me up."
"Thank you! Oh gosh, she's here cya! Oh, and Alisa just got up so she might be late."
I grabbed my stuff and head out the door, I got into Bailey's car and we head of. We got to school in about 15 minutes, and went to find Jake and Cade (bailey's boyfriend.)
Jade meets me with a hug and a kiss which gets broken off by the clearing of Bailey's throat. I look at her not embarrassed at all, and grin. "What? It was just a kiss"
"Yeah, just a kiss all right, that's not what it was gonna turn out to be though." she's just jealous cause Cade and her haven't even kissed yet.
we laugh and start walking down the hall to our lockers, with the boys heading off to find their friends.
When I get to my locker and open it, I found this sweet card that said "Allison, happy birthday, you are beautiful, I love you" and a rose laying on it, on the card were the initials J.B . I show Bailey and she gets all giggly about it saying that Jake really must be really sweet and loving. I didn't see how he had time to put it in my locker since he had got here the same time we did but I didn't say anything, since his initials were J.B, deciding I'd ask him about it later.
The day went by pretty fast, nothing was mentioned about the card and rose so I didn't mention it yet either. Finally when school got out, Jake asked me to go to his house with him, so I called my mom and asked, she said yes, no surprise there, ever since she and dad got divorced I get to do a lot more things than I did before.
So we head out to Jake's, his mom isn't home when we get there but we let ourselves in, we left our stuff out in the car, so we didn't have to carry anything. Jake threw the keys on the sideboard and pulled me into another kiss. This one lasted much longer then any have before but I wasn't worried. We finally tore apart and he whispered in my ear "you ready for that special surprise?"
"I have been waiting ever since you told me about it, what is it?"
He leads me to his room and then shuts the door behind us. "My mom wont be home till 10 so were good."
"Huh? Good for what?"
He sits on his bed and pulls me toward him, pulling a box out of his pocket. He opens it and takes out this gorgeous gold diamond necklace. He puts it around my neck and clips it. "This is a token of my love for you, forever."
My eyes are watering and I can't hold the tears in anymore. They pour down my face, "Beautiful" I breathe."Thank you so much Jake, It's wonderful"
"Your welcome baby now here's the rest"
he takes me in his arms and lays me back on his bed. He starts kissing me again, more urgently. Then he starts trying to get my shirt off. I try and pull away but I'm not strong enough. He gets it off, then he goes for the pants. I tell him to stop but he just laughs "you know this is what you want"
He tears at my pants and yanks then off, I try and kick him but He holds me down. He rips off the only clothing left, I'm laying there naked, crying, begging him to let me go.
"I don't think so honey, not till I get what I want"
He takes off his clothes while holding me down then gets on top of me, kissing me over and over, I try and move away but he grabs me and shoves me back down leaving marks in my arms. I try again but he slams me against the bed, everything goes black.
When I regain consciousness, I feel really dizzy, I don't know where I am at first, and I hurt all over. Then everything starts coming back to me. Jake, necklace, bed, hurt.
I groan and slowly sit up, I'm alone in his room, my clothes are thrown all over the room. I get off the bed and painfully put my clothes back on. I ignore the mess on his bed. Then I go to the door and try to open it, It's locked. Jake locked me in his room! I was already mad enough, he really wasn't helping himself, I couldn't believe what he just did to me.
I go to the window, unlock it, and climb out onto the roof. There's a tree a few feet away that I can climb down. I used to use that same tree when we were younger and hung out. So even though it takes me forever and it hurts to move, I manage to get down the tree and to the car, I grab my stuff and head for the town bus to catch a ride back home.
I understand with love comes pain, but why did I have to love so much?