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Posted 8/25/13 , edited 8/25/13
Thoughts are in my mind right now. Thoughts about writing this comment in particular.


-Deadpool- wrote:

Crunchyroll was kinda better 5 years ago


No its always been this bad. Don't you love it though?
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How boring this is
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Posted 8/25/13
I need more time.
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Posted 8/26/13
My cat keeps staring at me. I wonder if he realized I am not his real master..
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Posted 8/28/13
I use to try to get my friends to come over every weekend, but as we start to get older things like jobs and girls and what not have changed the game. It went from being fun to see them and plan out things to being a struggle to even work out a time to chill weeks in advance. I've honestly started to just give up. I'm the friend who ended up the odd one out ya know? I was never good with their friends or at making my own, and women tend to not pay me any thought. After middle school we ended up going to different schools and even though it seemed like a huge gap between us we still managed to stick together and hang out...for a while. I don't know if this is part of growing up or I'm just clingy to the only people i ever considered friends, or maybe i never even tried hard enough, but i never thought things would turn out like this. I used to be the overconfident big guy of the group when we were little, always acting big and being careless of others. They would always hang out with me back then, every day. We would walk during recess in grade school and just talk, we would actually end up on the other side of the school without noticing it because we were so focused on what we were talking about! Around six grade is where it started going south i guess, not instantly though, but slowly. I was coping with my parents divorce by acting out and what not and my friends had started smoking weed around the same time. By middle school they had started acting different and i started being self conscious due to my eating habits which resulted from my parents divorce as a coping mechanism. With my friends hanging out with their "smoking buddies" from what I could only guess them to be now, i started hanging out by myself, in the library or in some secluded place. I didn't understand what the hell was going on back then, all i knew was i was scared and alone and my friends had picked other people over me. When they did hang out with me i was happy, but by the eighth grade they only seemed to do it out of obligation due to our long history. Also by the eighth grade i had been spending my summers at my dads for a few years, mostly behind a computer screen the entire time, so my social skills had slowly dwindled. So by 9th grade i was alone, going into high school by myself(they went to a different one), and had such little people skills that, by the third month i had barely talked to anyone. I did still hang out with my friends after school, rarely though. At my new school i made friends among some odd folks including otakus, a large girl with anger and daddy issues,and two guys who later turned out to be gay(unbeknownst to me). They were odd but they were friends and i was content for a while. Eventually though i screwed up somewhere due to my parents battles that used me as a catalyst, so i lost them as well. the year that followed that i had dated one of the girls i hung out with(not the big one) and then halfway through the year broke up with. I was so starved for communication by the third year of high school i would text her without her knowing it was me (or so i thought) just so i could talk to somebody,er well text. Soon she revealed she knew it was me and i could tell she still had feelings for me. Unfortunately by this point i had gotten so fed up with my situation that i couldn't even bring myself to like a girl who was more or less the only person who really had any idea of who i was. So i just told her some random garbage about not liking her and using her to get some info on someone else so she would move on from me and date someone better. As for my original friends, we talk, and every once in a while they come over, but the gap had only widened between us. I find myself quite alone in the end as this final year begins. Every summer I've spent alone, school has become a bitter reminder of what i lost, and my family is so consumed with itself i cant even truly bring myself to care anymore. To be honest i think i would rather be truly alone from the start then had to go through the pain of losing everything. Its not like i tried to distance myself from everyone, its not like i didn't try to be with them, I did, but i never saw them hold out a single hand to me, not a single word spoken that showed i was their friend. no one calls me and say "hey i got some free time wanna chill?" no one comes to my house just for the sake of saying hi. Still i suppose if i try harder and throw away any resentment i have that maybe i could still have friends. Maybe this life still has more to offer, after all I'm only 17, i still have time. But i hate to leave my childhood saying "thank god that's finally over" ya know? I wish i could at least manage to make all these bad things lead up to something good at the end. My life isn't terrible, my family is caring in ways and my friends do still consider me a friend, but why do i always feel like I'm getting the short end of the stick? In the end i know its probably my own fault. I got scared, or i failed to handle the situation properly, but after so long you just start losing momentum. Sorry for the long rant.
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20 / M / Bristol
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Posted 8/28/13
whether i'll pass my driving test tomorrow or not! :O
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17 / M / Heavens overlooki...
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Whether or not to randomly shout out pancakes right now.
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25 / F / anime world
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Posted 8/28/13
enjoy every moment with friends :-)
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Food
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22 / F / Bulacan
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Posted 8/28/13
whether I'll survive the deadline on sept 9
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22 / M / Canada
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Posted 8/28/13
EATING EATING EATING I LOVE FOOD SO MUCH!
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That's the way the cookie crumbles. Time to move on now...
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17 / M / That place wot 'a...
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A monkey with two cymbals.
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F / Urban South
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Posted 8/29/13
Beer beer beer beer beer beer beer beer beer beer...Ah, finally, a beer!
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21 / M / The Dark Continent
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Posted 8/29/13
''I'm supposed to meet up with someone but I'm feeling too lazy to go out.''
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