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Posted 8/25/13
except for animes and mangas ... not really sure lawl
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Posted 8/26/13
Things are looking a bit up, but I'm not really in a happy place at the moment.

I came out to my family as transgender a few years ago after hiding it for the better part of two decades, and managed to get access to therapy and hormones on my own. However, I have a ton of pent up hatred towards myself and my body after all this time. I grew up in a few very religious, conservative regions and I saw a lot of examples of why I should afraid to behave as I would prefer. I never thought it was possible that I would get to this point a few years ago, but it ate at me that my life was wasting away living it in a way I never wanted.

I can't really pass as female from the neck up, or deal with the anxiety of expressing myself as I would prefer in the face of a lot of potential rejection/harassment (or worse) from the general public, so I've kind of stalled out and settled with doing whatever I feel like at home and around people I trust, and toning it down when I need a stress free afternoon out. I don't make much money so things like facial feminization surgery or GCS (SRS, GRS, or whichever term one prefers) are out of my league for the time being.

On the bright side I received a decent raise recently that makes saving slightly more viable. My girlfriend and I had a rough patch over it, but she came back and has been supportive ever since. My mom knows what it means to me and is trying to work out a move to where I now live so I can stay with her and save money for those procedures, but at this point it isn't a sure thing. It is is pretty much my last hope at erasing my masculine visage enough to help ease my anxieties within the next few years. In the mean time I'll be heading back to a psychiatrist to see if they can medicate said anxieties enough to make the panic attacks stop and maybe allow me to ease into a more accurate self-expression rather than one based on fears I can't seem to overcome on my own.

Sorry if this is weird or TMI, just venting. Things could be a lot worse I guess.
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26 / M / United states
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Posted 8/26/13
Pretty unfantastic here, definitely option 4
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16 / F / イブキド
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Posted 8/26/13
Pretty well for me, ive been doing a lot lately and im not as bored as i used to be.
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23 / F
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Posted 8/26/13
my life is pretty awesome! just recently i passed NLE and now i am officially an RN! Yey!
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26 / F / West Virginia
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Posted 8/27/13
meh it's okay. Not awesome but not horrible
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M / Fort Bragg, NC
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Posted 8/27/13
Awesome. Got in the dream college I want, just got out of basic, and life is good.
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17 / M / MA
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Posted 8/27/13
life is good, mae the jv soccer team as a freshman, couldn't ask for more than that
Posted 8/27/13
I experience all of the bottom 4 throughout the day.
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21 / F / England
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Posted 8/27/13
You could be a great writer one day
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Posted 9/2/13
I think most people are critical of their well being, and for good reason: regardless of how you're problems relate to others, they are your problems, and it's normal to be concerned about them. If you didn't want to improve your situation what would you look forward to?

The thing is, it isn't fair to compare problems at all. It's a subjective quality; what it means to the individual is what's important.

But perspective is still very valuable as it can help with self-evaluation. When I see and hear other's circumstances, I understand that I have practically been given many opportunities that others have to struggle for, and may never receive. Even so, I would be lying if I said I'm a happy person. I'm very critical, masochistic, and tend to over-analyze everything until uncertainty becomes the only certainty. I also have issues with interpersonal relationships, as I've never felt particularly intimate with anyone. I feel unattractive and I have a very stoic expression that makes me unapproachable/hard to read. I'm quite lonely, but I've come to appreciate my solitude somewhat. My daily life isn't very stimulating, and when opportunities for expression (of any kind) present themselves I fall short of my own expectations. I have many insecurities, but I don't let them cripple me, and I'm still moving forward with some purpose and hope.

I'm hard on myself, and worse, I don't do enough to actually improve myself. Thus, my life so far is unsatisfactory. But I know that this does not make my life difficult objectively speaking. Like many others, my life is as hard as I make it for myself.

Overall, my life is good--because I know I can make it better. Also, I know I have little-to-nothing to complain about, but I'd still like at least one empathetic relationship.
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Posted 9/2/13
as long as I got a roof over my head and food in my belly and anime on my computer life is good
Posted 9/2/13
It's good but it could be better if I were to have a different mindset I'm pessimistic (but I try to be positive) and anti-social and that's a bad thing for this society.
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Posted 9/7/13 , edited 9/7/13
Slightly depressing. I've been pulled into the middle of my feuding divorced parent's fight. I feel like I caused said fight. Nuff said.
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19 / M / Canada
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Posted 9/7/13
It was great for awhile and i was finally starting to have a more positive mindset but now it's all going downhill and i'm becoming an antisocial little dip again.
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