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Am I dead? I don't feel alive, nor as if I have ever lived. Does that make me dead? If I haven't lived I might as well be dead, correct? I work day in and day out, I sit in front of a screen all day, and I just sit there not doing anything. Does that make me dead? Am I dead because I'm to afraid to live - the point before life begins. If life doesn't exist in me, what am I? I'm neither living nor dead. What exactly am I? Do I even deserve to live now if I haven't lived before? I feel dead and I haven't lived, yet I'm not dead. What am I? Do I have what it takes to live, or am I just stuck in a monotonous never ending cycle that'll continue forever? If to live I need to change, how do I change? What should I change into? If I change, then am I not being me? Would I be someone else? What if I can't change, does that mean I can't live? What am I? I don't know what I am. I can't classify myself, I don't belong anywhere. The only thing that describes me is "death". So I guess I'm dead. I'm not living.
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Yup. You're totally dead. Somatic activity doesn't count for crap, and neither do the neurons that made writing this possible. There's not one thing in the universe that can change that because it's dead too; never alive to begin with really. Your life and every other life is just a rogue conglomerate of empty space and matter that produces a series of chemical reactions that helped produce the term we use to fathom our existence.

On another note, of course you're not dead you dolt! If you've got air swelling your lungs and not your body cavity you're about as alive as you can possibly get with the added bonus of self-awareness. You do make a good point about the whole not doing much other than frying your eyeballs with blue-shifted light, but just think about the sloth. It literally does shit, and it's not extinct. I mean seriously, the sloth only puts measurable effort towards something when it has to lay down some leafy sloth bricks on the forest floor. The fact that you have some idea about our relatively meaningless existence on this rock proves that you're a might more worth-while than most other meat bags. This also means you can be whoever you feel like being and still be you considering that your mental choices are literally everything that you are and ever will be from this point on, so if you want to change, damn the consequences of you not being the you you are now and be the you that you want to be. You'll be exactly you no matter the change, so by all means, give it a go! If that doesn't work, change again. Keep going until you've found a form you feel like you can perpetuate outward and say "Look at me universe, you great cosmic cunt wagon! I am the pinnacle of everything you've ever been and ever will be, and there's not a damn thing you can do about it because you're thirteen point something billion light years of shiny dead, and I'm about two meters of evolutionary success! suck on that!"
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^ I bothered to read it all. Beautiful.
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Sornette wrote:

^ I bothered to read it all. Beautiful.


Holy crap, I really might be awesome. Okay, redacted on my forum topic!
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Lethargic_leopard_Seal wrote:

Holy crap, I really might be awesome. Okay, redacted on my forum topic!


No you're crap. Go to sleep.
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Lethargic_leopard_Seal wrote:

Holy crap, I really might be awesome. Okay, redacted on my forum topic!


No you're crap. Go to sleep.


Goddammit Sornette
Posted 2/24/14

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Goddammit Sornette


You remind me of that comedian, Jackie Vernon

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENXx4pATYn4
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^ I bothered to read it all. Beautiful.


him or me? XD was reading your other comment and now I'm confused.
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Sornette wrote:

^ I bothered to read it all. Beautiful.


him or me? XD was reading your other comment and now I'm confused.


Me. Me. Totally me. Don't be alarmed by the fact that I have no idea how to run my own life. Just be totally cool with the idea that I'm essentially giving you instructions on how to run yours.
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I think i should have ended it with "so i guess im death"

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Yup im going to change it. I like that better
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Lethargic_leopard_Seal wrote:

Goddammit Sornette


You remind me of that comedian, Jackie Vernon

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENXx4pATYn4


I probably am. I've got a suit, my comedy sometimes involves pictures (as seen in that Hatsune Miku bit I did), and my octave is pretty damn low. I bet I just have Benjamen Button syndrome, and I'm nearing the end of my life, which consequently means I have Alzheimer's, so up to this point, I thought I was aging in the right direction. In that case, Seinfeld be damned! I'm the best point out the obvious comic on the face of this planet!
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schnipdip wrote:


Sornette wrote:

^ I bothered to read it all. Beautiful.


him or me? XD was reading your other comment and now I'm confused.


For me, your writing is more memorable because I feel like you're exploring a single word like failure or emptiness with questions surrounding your personality..if that makes sense.

I did mean him, I feel sarcasm, neither angering or distressing you, it's what I like to read. He seems to have a good personality.
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schnipdip wrote:


Sornette wrote:

^ I bothered to read it all. Beautiful.


him or me? XD was reading your other comment and now I'm confused.


For me, your writing is more memorable because I feel like you're exploring a single word like failure or emptiness with questions with personlity..if that makes sense.

I did mean him, I feel sarcasm, neither angering or distressing you, it's what I like to read. He seems to have a good personality.


YAY! I think that's what makes a good writing, is one that's memorable. I changed a word in the last line, I don't know if it sounds better, but it seems to make more sense
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I think i should have ended it with "so i guess im death"

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Yup im going to change it. I like that better


I can't. I. We've discussed this! I just... Oh God, I'm having an aneurism. Half of my frontal lobe is tingling right now! You're alive, dammit! I just motivated your ass three ways to Sunday!
Posted 2/24/14 , edited 2/24/14
Haha I thought he was going to commit suicide.


Lethargic_leopard_Seal wrote:

I probably am. I've got a suit, my comedy sometimes involves pictures (as seen in that Hatsune Miku bit I did), and my octave is pretty damn low. I bet I just have Benjamen Button syndrome, and I'm nearing the end of my life, which consequently means I have Alzheimer's, so up to this point, I thought I was aging in the right direction. In that case, Seinfeld be damned! I'm the best point out the obvious comic on the face of this planet!


Okay, I'm sorry. You are unique.
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