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First time leaving the house in months after leaving job at Gamestop
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It is scary to be honest i have alot of responsibilities that i have to take care of and i don't becouse of fear and laziness.
I was hoping after months i would be forced to get out and work but nothing she is to nice and a pushover,If i dont do this I will never do it until it is to late.This has effected my whole life,wife, kids and friends,I have no friends becouse i would stop hanging out to sit and play games all day.I am doing this becouse i really have no one to talk to and being judged and made fun off is fine this is the only way i can vent now.
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I have been in the same kind of funk right now ever since I dropped from college to have surgery on my ankle I never really got myself back into the swing of things. I trained my #% off to get into NFL shape for a few years only to injure my achilles tendon last May. I wasn't healed in time for the regional combines. For years all I have done is train, play video games, and watch anime with nothing to show for it... (though I have honed some of my programming and modeling skills)

Now I am working with and for my grandpa to learn plumbing. A master plumber is required to run the business so I suppose I am going to have to learn that job and get certified. I have pretty much been disconnected from all of my old friends and I am not meeting anyone new because all I do is new construction for work. I don't even know what to do as far as a social life goes anymore, I am just a workhorse...

Bars in this area are just smoke chambers with music so loud you can't hear anyone speak... oh and I don't drink due to a duodenal ulcer. This just sucks all around really. /endrant
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So you are leaving the house after some time? Hope it goes well, just don't die or something.
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GreatLordBalzak wrote:

I have been in the same kind of funk right now ever since I dropped from college to have surgery on my ankle I never really got myself back into the swing of things. I trained my #% off to get into NFL shape for a few years only to injure my achilles tendon last May. I wasn't healed in time for the regional combines. For years all I have done is train, play video games, and watch anime with nothing to show for it... (though I have honed some of my programming and modeling skills)

Now I am working with and for my grandpa to learn plumbing. A master plumber is required to run the business so I suppose I am going to have to learn that job and get certified. I have pretty much been disconnected from all of my old friends and I am not meeting anyone new because all I do is new construction for work. I don't even know what to do as far as a social life goes anymore, I am just a workhorse...

Bars in this area are just smoke chambers with music so loud you can't hear anyone speak... oh and I don't drink due to a duodenal ulcer. This just sucks all around really. /endrant


I am not a drinker so i never enjoyed going to bars it was just loud i felt,it is good you are going to get certified for plumbing,I find it hard to get out of the funk as well it seems to get worse daily,i have to force myself to do this and it is scary to think about my wife is supportive but i feel like it is dumb to have anxiety this bad i was not always this way.
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indoors is a sanctuary. i shall never leave.
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but seriously, dont be scared or anything. it'll be nerve wracking since it's obviously been a long time but just do whatever makes you feel comfortable and happy, even if you have to endure a bit of shittiness, it'll be worth it.
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Posted 4/13/14

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GreatLordBalzak wrote:

I have been in the same kind of funk right now ever since I dropped from college to have surgery on my ankle I never really got myself back into the swing of things. I trained my #% off to get into NFL shape for a few years only to injure my achilles tendon last May. I wasn't healed in time for the regional combines. For years all I have done is train, play video games, and watch anime with nothing to show for it... (though I have honed some of my programming and modeling skills)

Now I am working with and for my grandpa to learn plumbing. A master plumber is required to run the business so I suppose I am going to have to learn that job and get certified. I have pretty much been disconnected from all of my old friends and I am not meeting anyone new because all I do is new construction for work. I don't even know what to do as far as a social life goes anymore, I am just a workhorse...

Bars in this area are just smoke chambers with music so loud you can't hear anyone speak... oh and I don't drink due to a duodenal ulcer. This just sucks all around really. /endrant


I am not a drinker so i never enjoyed going to bars it was just loud i felt,it is good you are going to get certified for plumbing,I find it hard to get out of the funk as well it seems to get worse daily,i have to force myself to do this and it is scary to think about my wife is supportive but i feel like it is dumb to have anxiety this bad i was not always this way.


It is rather annoying at times... I don't really have any issues when I have a clear purpose to interact with someone, some kind of common ground or maybe work related purposes, but sometimes in public that anxiety just hits me out of nowhere. When it hits I just can't even really look at people, I look past them.

I am a very logic based thinker and I suppose when something falls outside of that logic I just freeze up. I need a life damn it lol
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Bushidou777 wrote:


GreatLordBalzak wrote:

I have been in the same kind of funk right now ever since I dropped from college to have surgery on my ankle I never really got myself back into the swing of things. I trained my #% off to get into NFL shape for a few years only to injure my achilles tendon last May. I wasn't healed in time for the regional combines. For years all I have done is train, play video games, and watch anime with nothing to show for it... (though I have honed some of my programming and modeling skills)

Now I am working with and for my grandpa to learn plumbing. A master plumber is required to run the business so I suppose I am going to have to learn that job and get certified. I have pretty much been disconnected from all of my old friends and I am not meeting anyone new because all I do is new construction for work. I don't even know what to do as far as a social life goes anymore, I am just a workhorse...

Bars in this area are just smoke chambers with music so loud you can't hear anyone speak... oh and I don't drink due to a duodenal ulcer. This just sucks all around really. /endrant


I am not a drinker so i never enjoyed going to bars it was just loud i felt,it is good you are going to get certified for plumbing,I find it hard to get out of the funk as well it seems to get worse daily,i have to force myself to do this and it is scary to think about my wife is supportive but i feel like it is dumb to have anxiety this bad i was not always this way.


Maybe it would be a good idea to see some kinda professional about your anxiety. It seems pretty crippling, from my observation of what you wrote. I had/have horrible anxiety and OCD, which causes me even more fear. I started seeing a professional a couple years ago and subsequently got on a medication regiment that has really helped. Hope it would do the same for you.

Otherwise, I gotta say that I'm with you guys as far as having little to no social life right now. I guess it's just part of the 20-something disconnect due to paradigm shifts in life.
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I honestly think it has gotten to that point it is crippling, professional help is the best option it is just force myself to do it.Everything is force with me and it should not be that way.,
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GreatLordBalzak wrote:


Bushidou777 wrote:


GreatLordBalzak wrote:

I have been in the same kind of funk right now ever since I dropped from college to have surgery on my ankle I never really got myself back into the swing of things. I trained my #% off to get into NFL shape for a few years only to injure my achilles tendon last May. I wasn't healed in time for the regional combines. For years all I have done is train, play video games, and watch anime with nothing to show for it... (though I have honed some of my programming and modeling skills)

Now I am working with and for my grandpa to learn plumbing. A master plumber is required to run the business so I suppose I am going to have to learn that job and get certified. I have pretty much been disconnected from all of my old friends and I am not meeting anyone new because all I do is new construction for work. I don't even know what to do as far as a social life goes anymore, I am just a workhorse...

Bars in this area are just smoke chambers with music so loud you can't hear anyone speak... oh and I don't drink due to a duodenal ulcer. This just sucks all around really. /endrant


I am not a drinker so i never enjoyed going to bars it was just loud i felt,it is good you are going to get certified for plumbing,I find it hard to get out of the funk as well it seems to get worse daily,i have to force myself to do this and it is scary to think about my wife is supportive but i feel like it is dumb to have anxiety this bad i was not always this way.


It is rather annoying at times... I don't really have any issues when I have a clear purpose to interact with someone, some kind of common ground or maybe work related purposes, but sometimes in public that anxiety just hits me out of nowhere. When it hits I just can't even really look at people, I look past them.

I am a very logic based thinker and I suppose when something falls outside of that logic I just freeze up. I need a life damn it lol



I am the same way it is not as intense if i have a specific goal in mind but it just sneaks up on me like i never have a chance to mentally prepare for something like that.

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Bushidou777 wrote:

I honestly think it has gotten to that point it is crippling, professional help is the best option it is just force myself to do it.Everything is force with me and it should not be that way.,


Maybe it shouldn't. But it is what it is for now, and if you have to force yourself to get it done, maybe that's all you can do. I had a support group from my church standing behind me and it still feels as though I had to force myself to get around to it, but I'm glad that I did now. I hope this helps.
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Thank and to be honest it does help well knowing that people have dealt with similar issues.
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Just hang in there and get help buddy!
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Knowing that you have a problem that needs fixing is already a huge step forward. Good luck.
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