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I hate myself and I am a people pleaser.


Oh yeah, that's also a couple problems I have as well. I'd forgotten about those.


I'm not alone.


That's right. I just think I am burden to everyone and I hate myself more if I feel I'm not helping them out in some way.
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I can get obsessive.

Like, when I become friends with a girl and we end up being realllllly close, I get obsessive and selfish. I don't want to share her with anyone else other than people I feel she's worth sharing with. It's really bad.
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I'd have to say make lack of confidence due to being hyper-critical of myself. Not only that but I have a bit of an imagination on me and that furthers the undermining of my confidence. I like to think I am a good guy but I don't approach many people since I am ways afraid I'm just going to f*ck up and just end up being alienated.


That's legitimately 90% how I feel at times lol. But you make it sound like either way, approaching or not, you'd be lonely anyways. Hypothetically, if your fate was being outcasted no matter what, then there shouldn't really be a big issue to come face to face with someone, amirite?


Well, I suppose this is true when I am dealing with people I am interested in, to be a friend or otherwise. You aren't wrong though. I am extremely lonely. I feel I can't trust anyone with how I feel and I have almost no friends at this point in time. I worry consistently about what people think of me and it usually turns out not in a positive fashion for myself. It sucks, badly. But, I do deal with people on a regular basis. I just put on a mask and act like I am fine. But, as you can tell, I am quite the opposite.
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TheDoc45 wrote:


qualeshia3 wrote:


TheDoc45 wrote:


qualeshia3 wrote:

I hate myself and I am a people pleaser.


Oh yeah, that's also a couple problems I have as well. I'd forgotten about those.


I'm not alone.


That's right. I just think I am burden to everyone and I hate myself more if I feel I'm not helping them out in some way.


Oh my gosh. That is so me.
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I'd have to say make lack of confidence due to being hyper-critical of myself. Not only that but I have a bit of an imagination on me and that furthers the undermining of my confidence. I like to think I am a good guy but I don't approach many people since I am ways afraid I'm just going to f*ck up and just end up being alienated.


That's legitimately 90% how I feel at times lol. But you make it sound like either way, approaching or not, you'd be lonely anyways. Hypothetically, if your fate was being outcasted no matter what, then there shouldn't really be a big issue to come face to face with someone, amirite?


Well, I suppose this is true when I am dealing with people I am interested in, to be a friend or otherwise. You aren't wrong though. I am extremely lonely. I feel I can't trust anyone with how I feel and I have almost no friends at this point in time. I worry consistently about what people think of me and it usually turns out not in a positive fashion for myself. It sucks, badly. But, I do deal with people on a regular basis. I just put on a mask and act like I am fine. But, as you can tell, I am quite the opposite.


So, like give me a realistic situation of your daily interactions. College, high school, at a job, etc.
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TheDoc45 wrote:


narutosonic330 wrote:


TheDoc45 wrote:

I'd have to say make lack of confidence due to being hyper-critical of myself. Not only that but I have a bit of an imagination on me and that furthers the undermining of my confidence. I like to think I am a good guy but I don't approach many people since I am ways afraid I'm just going to f*ck up and just end up being alienated.


That's legitimately 90% how I feel at times lol. But you make it sound like either way, approaching or not, you'd be lonely anyways. Hypothetically, if your fate was being outcasted no matter what, then there shouldn't really be a big issue to come face to face with someone, amirite?


Well, I suppose this is true when I am dealing with people I am interested in, to be a friend or otherwise. You aren't wrong though. I am extremely lonely. I feel I can't trust anyone with how I feel and I have almost no friends at this point in time. I worry consistently about what people think of me and it usually turns out not in a positive fashion for myself. It sucks, badly. But, I do deal with people on a regular basis. I just put on a mask and act like I am fine. But, as you can tell, I am quite the opposite.


So, like give me a realistic situation of your daily interactions. College, high school, at a job, etc.


At my job (I work in the kitchen of a restaurant and as the cashier sometimes), so I interact with customers and my co-workers every day. I usually put on a smile, chat with them, crack jokes, and the like. I act kind to customers, take their orders, and give them the food they ordered with a smile and a pleasant "Your welcome" or "Thank you". When I get home, I keep on the mask for sometime until everyone is asleep or when I am alone. Then everything kind of comes out or I show that I am depressed. I do however have a friend who can cheer me up but we can only talk for so long since I get home late mist days and she lives 1 hour ahead of me.
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qualeshia3 wrote:


TheDoc45 wrote:


qualeshia3 wrote:


TheDoc45 wrote:


qualeshia3 wrote:

I hate myself and I am a people pleaser.


Oh yeah, that's also a couple problems I have as well. I'd forgotten about those.


I'm not alone.


That's right. I just think I am burden to everyone and I hate myself more if I feel I'm not helping them out in some way.


Oh my gosh. That is so me.


"They share a drink they call "loneliness" but it's better than drinking alone!" -Piano Man by Billy Joel

But it is comforting to know that there is someone out there (that being you, miss) that understands how I feel.
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Inferior? Well my forgetful memory for once.
I don't like the fact I tend to forget things even after learning them.
If it is not important, then there is no reason to remember.
This applies for textbooks and work too, if it is not important then there is no point in remembering.
or maybe because I sleep at 1-2am every day for the past 5 years
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always feel like am a boring person because whenever someone else comes in the room, the person am talking to will suddenly stop talking to me to talk to the other person, and act like i don't exist anymore... then i'll just retreat to my lonely corner again. rinse and repeat.



this doesn't happen just once, it happens like 95% of the time. (and not with the same people either, with different people/strangers). so it gets to my head, i feel really insecured. "am i boring or are people just rude?" thought pops up in my head.


What's the other 5%?

You should build from there.
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Thank you. I feel the same way.
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All type of feels right there lol. Yet, so many advantages you have right in front of you. I don't think wearing a mask will be necessary. It sounds like to me the only reason you ever need to is because of what you think of yourself. I think being defeated after giving it your all hurts less You're gonna have that void in your heart if you know you have chances but never take them.
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I can get obsessive.

Like, when I become friends with a girl and we end up being realllllly close, I get obsessive and selfish. I don't want to share her with anyone else other than people I feel she's worth sharing with. It's really bad.


Ahh... that situation. I know EXACTLY how that feels but it's not something that I can explain clearly. I know for a fact that I don't like the girl in a romantic type of way, but if you know she's delicate and she's off on her own, that SHOULD make you worry.
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All type of feels right there lol. Yet, so many advantages you have right in front of you. I don't think wearing a mask will be necessary. It sounds like to me the only reason you ever need to is because of what you think of yourself. I think being defeated after giving it your all hurts less You're gonna have that void in your heart if you know you have chances but never take them.


I appreciate the kind words. If it were that simple, I'd do that but it is not, sadly. If you know what it feels like to not be able to trust anyone with your feelings, not even, say your mother, it tends to get very overwhelming. It is more or less that I don't feel that anyone I know can understand or accept me for being who I am or what I like doing. That is the kind of problem I have, more or less. I will stop posting on the thread so others may have a chance to read this topic with out another wall of text to scroll through.
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I typically see the best in others and the worst in me.
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I'm really bad with directions, so whenever there's something important I have to arrive hours beforehand to confirm the location. Because of this flaw, I'm terrible at FPS games (well I dislike them anyway), and I've even had to ironically call up for directions to the building for an interview, which made me turn up 30 minutes late. I was also late for my grandparent's funeral (not exactly a funeral, but some kind of memorial ceremony). In my early teens I'd miss out on several social gatherings due to ending up in opposite parts of the city, having to eventually give up and go home. This made people furious the next time they saw me, thinking they were "ditched". I often ask for directions, but they just don't seem to sink in. Thank technology I now have a phone with maps installed.
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