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Depression
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I've suffered from depression since I was very young, it comes and goes. Sometimes for years at a time, but when it passes I am still there, maybe not the same person I was before, but evolved in some way.

I know how hard I worked to get through it, and I appreciate every day, even the crappy ones. I am stronger for having faced it each time and moved forward.

The reality of depression is overwhelming, it feels like there is no point in drinking that water or contacting that friend or creating a meal. It's as if your whole head has been rewired to see the darkness of the world and the inevitable conclusion of it all. So, you basically have to keep going regardless of this aspect of yourself. Nurture and comfort your pain, like a child.

exercise (yoga, walking, swimming, jogging, be in the sunlight!) but remember to be gentle with yourself!

eat the right foods! Nutrient dense foods!

Find support! If the people around you can not help you because they are emotionally incapable, move further afield, the internet, hotlines or find a professional like a dr. or a therapist. You need to reach out, because you are so far inside.

You need to find a purpose!! Because depression is such an introverted state where you question your own worth, and over analyze your every thought and motive, you have to kind of prove your worth to yourself. Help others! Be there for someone who's having a hard time.

And lastly search through the gloom and find why it is there, what are you hiding from yourself? I don't recommend a rigorous meditation practice, with eyes closed, for people with severe depression (because meditation is about going inside, and that is what is already happening in an unhealthy way for people with depression) but something light where the eyes are open and the chest is open and soft like Trataka.

To live is to suffer. You just need to find out how to accept the fact and move through it.
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Depression is a soul sucking, mind numbing, hope killing pit that one falls into and some never can climb out of. My depression started when my nuclear family began to die. Then my close friends began to die. Then becoming estranged with most of the extended family and realizing that except for 4 of them the rest don't give a shit if I am alive or dead. I'm sure they would mouth the right words if I crossed over, but would they mean it? Then being disabled and on a fixed income so what is mundane expense (say a meal at McDonalds) becomes a rare treat when one can spare the money. Then realizing it is race to see what falls apart faster: your home or your health and not haivng the income to do any damned thing about either, Now then another big blow was when I sold the coin collection my brother and I painstakingly put together, the jewelry I inherited from him and my mom to fix my van only to have it throw a rod 2 month later. Which leaves me housebound since I signed it over to the dealership for diagnostic and storage fees. So now I stare at the 4 crumbling walls and roof and ponder all the mistakes I made in my life. (Some people have issues; I have a library.) I know I will die sad and alone and that's okay. I'm resigned to it, but by the same token I am not rushing headlong seeking death either.

How do I combat depression? Good question; no real easy answer. I write people here and on another forum (99.999% of the time much more cheerful posts then this). I try to find things to make me smile that doesn't hurt others or animals; the animes Sabagebu! and I Couldn’t Become a Hero, So I Reluctantly Decided to Get a Job.(Yushibu) are great about this because I get (usually) a LOL moment each show. If something touches me and brings me to tears (say animes like Angel Beats! I let myself be sad and cry. I think it is far better to acknowledge the sadness and let it out rather than keeping it bottled up and inside me. I found out from painful experience that you can't eat pride and swallowing sadness isn't that feeling either. Also having had several suicides touch my left I know all the pain and heartache it leaves in the surviving friends and family I never would be able to take the 'easy' or 'cowardly' way out. Oddly enough a song when I was in the deepest, darkest pit of despair bought some sanity to the insanity. https://youtu.be/d-diB65scQU
Last but not least I have two mottoes that:
1) Where there is life; there is hope. (No matter how infinitesimally small a chance there is a chance.)
2) It could always be worse. (Whenever I really start to feel sorry for myself God/Life slaps me across the head and I see somebody who has it even worse than I do.)

Now since this was a very depressing pot I will leave with what I hope is a funny image from one of my favorite animes (Haganai).

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Oh, and I forgot to say: Avoiding contact with negative people and information would be best during those times.
Posted 5/18/15
Talking to someone works as well.


I was never diagnosed with depression, or any kind of disorder. Just because, my sadness developed very slowly and when I told someone they either told me to talk to someone, or that it'll be over soon.

I was too scared to tell anyone else for quite a long time, oh well- not exactly scared but.. you know, just not wanting to tell anyone because I thought I could fix my own problems. Due to this, I was more mature than other people-- I couldn't even be a child anymore, and me not telling other people it all gathered up into a whole bunch of mental pain.


My only way to shake it off my shoulder was to cut myself, so the physichal pain was stronger than the mental pain. So I did so for a long time, as well. Eventually, someone found out.
Can you imagine what happens? I got brought to a psychologist. But I somehow ran off several times. And I was obviously uncomfortable.

And now I'm still sad a lot, and I try to move on even though it's hard-- Yes, ofc I am happy sometimes, but often that just breaks and suddenly I am sad over nothing! /:< But I know that the future is brighter than this. That's why I'm not buried underground in a coffin.

There's more to it. But, my point is.. it's hard to tell someone how you feel. But the earlier you do, the happier I guess you'll be.


Do something you enjoy. I enjoy music and anime, so I listen/watch both.

Remind your friend (who you were talking about, or whomever): It's okay not to be okay, it's okay to cry, but I know you are sad, please tell someone why!

God, that was a cheesy poem. But, I hope this helped. ^__^
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Foxes are my favorite animal, so obviously, I very much like your picture.
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for me i deal with it through Art, or building something, exercise...keep your body moving to free all those pockets of locked up negative energy...
Posted 5/18/15 , edited 5/18/15
I don't think i have it bad tbh..


Oh gosh, what's with my post?

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wildmoonchild wrote:

Foxes are my favorite animal, so obviously, I very much like your picture.


Thank you. Fennecs (Vulpes Zerda) are my totem animals. Well they're the ones I identify the most with.
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the music i listen to is to relate able so it ends up being depressing. Anime is the only way .
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I'm always depressed but I value my life more than anything else. Normally I would listen to my music, watch anime or play video game to keep my head occupied and forgot about the things that making me depressed. But of course sometimes its not enough, so make sure you surround yourself with good people.
Posted 5/18/15
Work out like crazy... At least that helped me deal with mine.

Thank you, endorphins.
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Gafennec wrote:


wildmoonchild wrote:

Foxes are my favorite animal, so obviously, I very much like your picture.


Thank you. Fennecs (Vulpes Zerda) are my totem animals. Well they're the ones I identify the most with. :D


I'd like to think that foxes were my totem animal, but I don't think I get to be that special. Mine is probably a turtle or something. You're lucky. I'll just have to admire them from afar. How do you know what you're totem animal is?
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