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everything has dulled over the years.
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I think its pretty normal to turn to drugs or some sort of addictive figure for escape, even though its not the right choice, most people do it to get out of something, i can relate to you but when i was in that state, i hung on to one particular thing that i liked to keep me non-suicidal or gave me something to do in a while, i hung onto music for a long time when nothing was really that colorful as it used to be before.

Do you feel as if everything is gray and boring, nothing really entertains you or makes you laugh as it did before? Some people I've asked about this consider it as depression and it probably is, trying to find a hobby because someone told you to only makes you feel like you are just forcing yourself out of your current state, in my opinion at least, when i think about it, i don't think I've even gotten out of that kind of state of mind either, I still hang on to music every day and still waiting for something to happen. This is all my opinion anyway.

Try to seek medical help, i think this is a form of depression, if not try to talk to other people about it.
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The 15 year old wasn't wrong, but properly was focused on the incorrect reasoning behind the numbness. The fact is when you get older you've done most things, falling in love, having sex, egging windows, getting fights... most things are just samy... I find that it makes it easier to know what you actually like, but the problem is that there's a lot of stuff you know you don't like which makes you more frigid on things.
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TheOneTrueAero wrote:

It probably won't get any better, you might get a day or two, but that's it. How long have you been numb? A few days? Months? Years? I've been numb years... then i found a ray of hope and it just got snuffed out. I haven't touched any drugs or anything... maybe i should, i don't know anymore. I just wish i was happy. And medicine and stuff like that, it's expensive and i don't want any nasty side effects that make me worse... i just want to be happy like now. I know what could make me happy, but i'll never get it. I never have. Everyone is so fake and i'm just so tired. I don't care anymore... i can't even get the motivation to do drugs, i can barely type this. I got a stress ball, i carry it with me everywhere, i guess that helps. Try that i guess. It won't make you feel anything, but it will prevent you from getting extremely sad, angry, or upset in any way. At least it does for me. Not happy though.... Maybe music. Sometimes music helps... i don't know... i'm younger than you. I have no good advice...


Is a side effect going to be worse than constant crap all day every day? It may take a few attempts, but medications even with a few side effects can make constant crap into 'not so bad.'
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Because everything in life is just an illusion.
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Could have low testosterone.
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I honestly feel the same way, OP. Things I used to be really excited about when I was much younger (anime, tv shows, movies, games) all seem dull nowadays. It's been difficult trying to find that passion and excitement for new interests. It's a really numb feeling. I wouldn't be surprised if it was some form of depression, but it could also be a side-effect of growing up and having the feeling like you've experienced everything already. I think the worst thing would be to be completely idle; go to school, go to work, exercise -- keep your schedule active. Force yourself to try new things or talk to new people. Do little things that make you happy. Easier said than done, I know, but things are always temporary. Soon it will all pass and something or someone will enter your life and give you much joy and meaning, I'm certain of that.
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It's called the beauty of growing up.
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Exercise it helps
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Have you tried meditating? You've said you've taken psychedelics, so you have at least seen it. Aren't you curious haha
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I felt the same way these last few months.
Sometimes I get home from work and just sit in my car for a couple of minutes.
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It gets worse. Wait until your over 30...
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Hey Op Don't listen to most of these people that are saying it's life and it doesn't get better. I've felt like that since I was 15 to about a year ago. It's depression and it will fade. You have to go out and do something crazy experience new things. Make new friends, find new hobbies. Yes sometimes things are going to feel gray and boring and it is slightly cause your growing up. I get that feeling time to time. But here's what I did to help fix my depression. I got a part-time job in high school worked my ass off saved up alot of money it was all i had but i used it to go to japan for almost a month it was the best time of my life. Now I'm in college studying something that in very interested in and I'm enjoying life. Since I'm going into the ems field I'm always getting shots of adrenaline. Sorry if i typed alot of crap just want to help the best I can. I guess all I'm saying is to just go on a crazy adventure and find yourself and you'll start to feel better.
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    As they've said, perhaps it's depression.

    I can relate to the feeling. I think at a crucial point in your life you have to figure out what you want of your future, and if you don't have any motivation to work towards it, and no support to help you get there, everything looks bleak and life is akin to limbo. My advice (but just from personal experience) is to simply keep trudging forward. Find something you can really pour your heart into, or someone you can honestly love. When life is incessantly beating me down, I just try to think "Don't worry, Alyssa, it seems hard now, but in a year you'll be looking back on this, knowing you got through it."



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This reminds me of the South Park episode when Stan thinks that everything is a turd sandwich.

Anyways, I recommend you seek some counseling. None of us here are equipped to really give you the advice you need.
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