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Posted 11/3/15 , edited 11/4/15
-plays the song Lean on Me-

To all of you out there who are struggling with depression/ suicide:

I'm right there with you.

I'm struggling with you too. I'm beating myself up daily, I'm crying daily, I'm begging God to end my life daily and screaming throughout every inch of my body that I'm tired and have no hope while keeping a stoic face or forcing smiles. Daily.

I'm lonely, have a hard time believing in people, have been hurt, betrayed, isolated , sexually assaulted, been left out, been left behind. I caught meningitis when I was 8 and lost my right ear, making connecting with people almost impossible often times.

My best advice for you, is to fight and obliterate the depression bit by bit. . Open up to peoople- does NOT have to be a therapist. (Google 7CupsOfTea) and talk to them about your feelings. It will help to stop hiding all of your feelings inside of you because it teaches you that other people do care and want to help you solve your problems- and you are NOT burdening them with their problems.

Find encouragement..-find it in anything you can.Reasons to keep walking and keep fighting that depression or whatever else may be causing suicidal thoughts. For me, I find hope and encouragement to keep living when practicing my hoby of writing stories, and singing FallOutBoy, One Direction, Taylor Swift, Owl City Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, or Nickleback songs.Oh and FUN's We Are Young is fun to sing. Ellie Goulding, Smash Mouth, and Green Day, just to list a few of the amazing artists out there. Also when I'm really pissed off: Courtesy Call by Thousand Foot Knox. Go to social events to meet folks and make friends, be as positive as you can to attract folks to you n, but don't pressure yourself, .

-pulls you in to a warm huggle- You are beautiful people and I love you salall. I'm really grateful I get to live here with all of you and talk and have fun with you.
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Posted 11/3/15

NyakoMayushii wrote:

-plays the song Lean on Me-

To all of you out there who are struggling with depression/ suicide:

I'm right there with you.

I'm struggling with you too. I'm beating myself up daily, I'm crying daily, I'm begging God to end my life daily and screaming throughout every inch of my body that I'm tired and have no hope while keeping a stoic face or forcing smiles. Daily.

I'm lonely, have a hard time believing in people, have been hurt, betrayed, isolated , sexually assaulted, been left out, been left behind. I caught meningitis when I was 8 and lost my right ear, making connecting with people almost impossible often times.

My best advice for you, is to fight and obliterate the depression bit by bit. . Open up to peoople- does NOT have to be a therapist. (Google 7CupsOfTea) and talk to them about your feelings. It will help to stop hiding all of your feelings inside of you because it teaches you that other people do care and want to help you solve your problems- and you are NOT burdening them with their problems.

Find encouragement..-find it in anything you can.Reasons to keep walking and keep fighting that depression or whatever else may be causing suicidal thoughts. For me, I find hope and encouragement to keep living when practicing my hoby of writing stories, and singing FallOutBoy, One Direction, Taylor Swift, Owl City Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, or Nickleback songs.Oh and FUN's We Are Young is fun to sing. Ellie Goulding, Smash Mouth, and Green Day, just to list a few of the amazing artists out there. Also when I'm really pissed off: Courtesy Call by Thousand Foot Knox. Go to social events to meet folks and make friends, be as positive as you can to attract folks to you n, but don't pressure yourself, .

-pulls you in to a warm huggle- You are beautiful people and I love you salall. I'm really grateful I get to live here with all of you and talk and have fun with you.


sorry for your suicidal depression i can't really relate because the last time i was depressed was when i was in high school...it's good that you have hobby's too because that keeps your mind busy...keep pushing forward
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I suffer from depression and honestly I hate therapy. Therapy doesn't help though, and neither does medication, so I'm basically screwed. I don't want people to tell me how to deal with depression, I just want to talk to somebody who understands. To be honest, that's what helps the most.
Posted 11/3/15
My family does not believe me when I tell them about my problems, that's what hurts the most.
Posted 11/3/15 , edited 11/3/15
Was a pretty good post.


What I did over the past many years is find somethings I am passionate about. Not find something just to fill your time to delay your negative thoughts, but something you truly feel happy doing. I guess I did it the opposite way, I had minimal contact that knew something was wrong.

I found exercising made me feel good, too. The first time when I lost a lot of weight to around my regular weight and then earlier this year when I decided I didn't want tiny arms (from losing weight without resistance training). Seeing my progress has always made me a bit more happy. This little bit is just to further describe the previous part - find something you can actively see improvement in and you might be able to pull yourself out of the slump (I understand not all depression is equal, some can be chemical imbalances, ect).

To end, I found talking to people is a bit risky. Not many want to deal with that. I believe talking about it is very important (only one of my old college friends stuck around to hear me out through the bad year - 2013-2014). I'll always be thankful to her, but I also lost a lot of friends with my negativity.

Best of luck. Love ya~~~
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No, thank you. Society can go fcuk itself right up their judgmental a***s
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QuietlyLoud wrote:

I suffer from depression and honestly I hate therapy. Therapy doesn't help though, and neither does medication, so I'm basically screwed. I don't want people to tell me how to deal with depression, I just want to talk to somebody who understands. To be honest, that's what helps the most.


Try to find someone else who has depression and talk to them :o?
Posted 11/3/15 , edited 11/3/15
currently trying to fight it, not going so well for me lately but eh- i'll get through it.. hopefully.

"Open up to peoople- does NOT have to be a therapist"
this line makes me so happy because I'm sick and tired of "my friends" asking me to go to one, thinking that it's the only thing that's gonna help me... kinda makes me think that they're bothered of the fact that i'm opening up to them. honestly though i get scared of the thought of having to go to theraphy, i'd rather just hide under my blankets . _ . ;; i just need someone to talk to, is all.

anyhow,
thank you for this post <3
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NyakoMayushii wrote:

-plays the song Lean on Me-

To all of you out there who are struggling with depression/ suicide:

I'm right there with you.

I'm struggling with you too. I'm beating myself up daily, I'm crying daily, I'm begging God to end my life daily and screaming throughout every inch of my body that I'm tired and have no hope while keeping a stoic face or forcing smiles. Daily.

I'm lonely, have a hard time believing in people, have been hurt, betrayed, isolated , sexually assaulted, been left out, been left behind. I caught meningitis when I was 8 and lost my right ear, making connecting with people almost impossible often times.

My best advice for you, is to fight and obliterate the depression bit by bit. . Open up to peoople- does NOT have to be a therapist. (Google 7CupsOfTea) and talk to them about your feelings. It will help to stop hiding all of your feelings inside of you because it teaches you that other people do care and want to help you solve your problems- and you are NOT burdening them with their problems.

Find encouragement..-find it in anything you can.Reasons to keep walking and keep fighting that depression or whatever else may be causing suicidal thoughts. For me, I find hope and encouragement to keep living when practicing my hoby of writing stories, and singing FallOutBoy, One Direction, Taylor Swift, Owl City Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, or Nickleback songs.Oh and FUN's We Are Young is fun to sing. Ellie Goulding, Smash Mouth, and Green Day, just to list a few of the amazing artists out there. Also when I'm really pissed off: Courtesy Call by Thousand Foot Knox. Go to social events to meet folks and make friends, be as positive as you can to attract folks to you n, but don't pressure yourself, .

-pulls you in to a warm huggle- You are beautiful people and I love you salall. I'm really grateful I get to live here with all of you and talk and have fun with you.


I'm here trying to find out who Salall is.

Joking aside i know how you feel with some of that stuff as i have been left out left behind hurt and betrayed also.
If you ever need someone to talk to send me a message as it sucks being lonely.

Also curious how does losing your right ear make it impossible at times to connect with others curious is it because they are judgemental?
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irnperf wrote:

currently trying to fight it, not going so well for me lately but eh- i'll get through it.. hopefully.

"Open up to peoople- does NOT have to be a therapist"
this line makes me so happy because I'm sick and tired of "my friends" asking me to go to one, thinking that it's the only thing that's gonna help me... kinda makes me think that they're bothered of the fact that i'm opening up to them. honestly though i get scared of the thought of having to go to theraphy, i'd rather just hide under my blankets . _ . ;; i just need someone to talk to, is all.

anyhow,
thank you for this post <3




I have friends who like me are depressed and i have told them to goto a therapist before.

Now i want to ask is it because they think that it's the only thing thats going to help you?

it might be just like me with my friends i listen to them and help them but at the end of the day i recommend a therapist mainly because i'm not a proffesional....i want to solve any problems i can and will gladly listen but its best to see a proffesional.

Not saying you should goto one and if you need someone to talk to my inbox is always open but the fact they are even asking to me shows that they care alot.
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idk, i know they dont mean anything bad but when it's almost the only thing they ever say it really feels like they're only saying that to shut me up. *sigh* can't blame them though. and even if people suggest me that I just dont really have the time and money to so. I just end up keeping my distance and shut up when people i talk to start saying the word "therapy" . _ . ; i just dont want to seem like a bother.
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ComboChrist wrote:

No, thank you. Society can go fcuk itself right up their judgmental a***s


Well I can't argue with this, seconded.
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Man I used to have severe depression, it was usually especially bad during the winter so I figure a part of it could be a vitamin deficiency and lack of UV stimulation. But at some point I just learned to give up on worrying about things I can't control since I'm only human, not some demi-god, and then I stopped worrying about my future in the long term. I think we humans are all control freaks even if we don't outwardly show it. We want control over our lives so things don't turn out in an unfavorable way for us. Life just doesn't work that way.

Living day to day in the moment is where's its at, literally and mentally. You have 100% control over the future only when you have 100% control of the here and now in your minute to minute actions because we don't just suddenly jump to 1-10 years into the future where our worries lie, we constantly live each day in the future of our yesterday, one day at a time.

And the past doesn't exist, it's all in your head as memories. Most people have bad and good things in their past, and it's an option which ones we revisit to either feel a sense of nostalgia or learn from a mistake, and in some cases there's one's we'd rather forget which is fine as well. Either way I see my past experiences as an encyclopedia to tap into to help me make better decisions in the now.
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irnperf wrote:



idk, i know they dont mean anything bad but when it's almost the only thing they ever say it really feels like they're only saying that to shut me up. *sigh* can't blame them though. and even if people suggest me that I just dont really have the time and money to so. I just end up keeping my distance and shut up when people i talk to start saying the word "therapy" . _ . ; i just dont want to seem like a bother.



Well all i can say is alot of people do find Depressed people bothersome ....it's stupid in my opinion as having someone to talk to is something you need.

Well i hope you can find someone to talk about your problems to and try to help and as with everyone else in this thread your welcome to inbox me as i will listen and reply and not be bothered at all.
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Man I used to have severe depression, it was usually especially bad during the winter so I figure a part of it could be a vitamin deficiency and lack of UV stimulation. But at some point I just learned to give up on worrying about things I can't control since I'm only human, not some demi-god, and then I stopped worrying about my future in the long term. I think we humans are all control freaks even if we don't outwardly show it. We want control over our lives so things don't turn out in an unfavorable way for us. Life just doesn't work that way.

Living day to day in the moment is where's its at, literally and mentally. You have 100% control over the future only when you have 100% control of the here and now in your minute to minute actions because we don't just suddenly jump to 1-10 years into the future where our worries lie, we constantly live each day in the future of our yesterday, one day at a time.

And the past doesn't exist, it's all in your head as memories. Most people have bad and good things in their past, and it's an option which ones we revisit to either feel a sense of nostalgia or learn from a mistake, and in some cases there's one's we'd rather forget which is fine as well. Either way I see my past experiences as an encyclopedia to tap into to help me make better decisions in the now.


"help me make better decisions in the now."

Says the naked man in the pine tree
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