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Posted 11/3/15

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netdisorder wrote:

Man I used to have severe depression, it was usually especially bad during the winter so I figure a part of it could be a vitamin deficiency and lack of UV stimulation. But at some point I just learned to give up on worrying about things I can't control since I'm only human, not some demi-god, and then I stopped worrying about my future in the long term. I think we humans are all control freaks even if we don't outwardly show it. We want control over our lives so things don't turn out in an unfavorable way for us. Life just doesn't work that way.

Living day to day in the moment is where's its at, literally and mentally. You have 100% control over the future only when you have 100% control of the here and now in your minute to minute actions because we don't just suddenly jump to 1-10 years into the future where our worries lie, we constantly live each day in the future of our yesterday, one day at a time.

And the past doesn't exist, it's all in your head as memories. Most people have bad and good things in their past, and it's an option which ones we revisit to either feel a sense of nostalgia or learn from a mistake, and in some cases there's one's we'd rather forget which is fine as well. Either way I see my past experiences as an encyclopedia to tap into to help me make better decisions in the now.


"help me make better decisions in the now."

Says the naked man in the pine tree


You got somethin against pine trees? I'll have you know, they're the best species of tree and are the greatest for commando climbing.
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netdisorder wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:

Man I used to have severe depression, it was usually especially bad during the winter so I figure a part of it could be a vitamin deficiency and lack of UV stimulation. But at some point I just learned to give up on worrying about things I can't control since I'm only human, not some demi-god, and then I stopped worrying about my future in the long term. I think we humans are all control freaks even if we don't outwardly show it. We want control over our lives so things don't turn out in an unfavorable way for us. Life just doesn't work that way.

Living day to day in the moment is where's its at, literally and mentally. You have 100% control over the future only when you have 100% control of the here and now in your minute to minute actions because we don't just suddenly jump to 1-10 years into the future where our worries lie, we constantly live each day in the future of our yesterday, one day at a time.

And the past doesn't exist, it's all in your head as memories. Most people have bad and good things in their past, and it's an option which ones we revisit to either feel a sense of nostalgia or learn from a mistake, and in some cases there's one's we'd rather forget which is fine as well. Either way I see my past experiences as an encyclopedia to tap into to help me make better decisions in the now.


"help me make better decisions in the now."

Says the naked man in the pine tree


You got somethin against pine trees? I'll have you know, they're the best species of tree and are the greatest for commando climbing.


N...NO i just like burning pine trees
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Posted 11/3/15

Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:

Man I used to have severe depression, it was usually especially bad during the winter so I figure a part of it could be a vitamin deficiency and lack of UV stimulation. But at some point I just learned to give up on worrying about things I can't control since I'm only human, not some demi-god, and then I stopped worrying about my future in the long term. I think we humans are all control freaks even if we don't outwardly show it. We want control over our lives so things don't turn out in an unfavorable way for us. Life just doesn't work that way.

Living day to day in the moment is where's its at, literally and mentally. You have 100% control over the future only when you have 100% control of the here and now in your minute to minute actions because we don't just suddenly jump to 1-10 years into the future where our worries lie, we constantly live each day in the future of our yesterday, one day at a time.

And the past doesn't exist, it's all in your head as memories. Most people have bad and good things in their past, and it's an option which ones we revisit to either feel a sense of nostalgia or learn from a mistake, and in some cases there's one's we'd rather forget which is fine as well. Either way I see my past experiences as an encyclopedia to tap into to help me make better decisions in the now.


"help me make better decisions in the now."

Says the naked man in the pine tree


You got somethin against pine trees? I'll have you know, they're the best species of tree and are the greatest for commando climbing.


N...NO i just like burning pine trees


That escalated quickly..
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Posted 11/3/15

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Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:

Man I used to have severe depression, it was usually especially bad during the winter so I figure a part of it could be a vitamin deficiency and lack of UV stimulation. But at some point I just learned to give up on worrying about things I can't control since I'm only human, not some demi-god, and then I stopped worrying about my future in the long term. I think we humans are all control freaks even if we don't outwardly show it. We want control over our lives so things don't turn out in an unfavorable way for us. Life just doesn't work that way.

Living day to day in the moment is where's its at, literally and mentally. You have 100% control over the future only when you have 100% control of the here and now in your minute to minute actions because we don't just suddenly jump to 1-10 years into the future where our worries lie, we constantly live each day in the future of our yesterday, one day at a time.

And the past doesn't exist, it's all in your head as memories. Most people have bad and good things in their past, and it's an option which ones we revisit to either feel a sense of nostalgia or learn from a mistake, and in some cases there's one's we'd rather forget which is fine as well. Either way I see my past experiences as an encyclopedia to tap into to help me make better decisions in the now.


"help me make better decisions in the now."

Says the naked man in the pine tree


You got somethin against pine trees? I'll have you know, they're the best species of tree and are the greatest for commando climbing.


N...NO i just like burning pine trees


That escalated quickly..


As many things do ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

There is a sex joke in here somewhere.
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Posted 11/3/15

Ryulightorb wrote:


ComboChrist wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:

Man I used to have severe depression, it was usually especially bad during the winter so I figure a part of it could be a vitamin deficiency and lack of UV stimulation. But at some point I just learned to give up on worrying about things I can't control since I'm only human, not some demi-god, and then I stopped worrying about my future in the long term. I think we humans are all control freaks even if we don't outwardly show it. We want control over our lives so things don't turn out in an unfavorable way for us. Life just doesn't work that way.

Living day to day in the moment is where's its at, literally and mentally. You have 100% control over the future only when you have 100% control of the here and now in your minute to minute actions because we don't just suddenly jump to 1-10 years into the future where our worries lie, we constantly live each day in the future of our yesterday, one day at a time.

And the past doesn't exist, it's all in your head as memories. Most people have bad and good things in their past, and it's an option which ones we revisit to either feel a sense of nostalgia or learn from a mistake, and in some cases there's one's we'd rather forget which is fine as well. Either way I see my past experiences as an encyclopedia to tap into to help me make better decisions in the now.


"help me make better decisions in the now."

Says the naked man in the pine tree


You got somethin against pine trees? I'll have you know, they're the best species of tree and are the greatest for commando climbing.


N...NO i just like burning pine trees


That escalated quickly..


As many things do ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

There is a sex joke in here somewhere.


Nothing beats sexual innuendo.
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Posted 11/3/15

ComboChrist wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:


ComboChrist wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:

Man I used to have severe depression, it was usually especially bad during the winter so I figure a part of it could be a vitamin deficiency and lack of UV stimulation. But at some point I just learned to give up on worrying about things I can't control since I'm only human, not some demi-god, and then I stopped worrying about my future in the long term. I think we humans are all control freaks even if we don't outwardly show it. We want control over our lives so things don't turn out in an unfavorable way for us. Life just doesn't work that way.

Living day to day in the moment is where's its at, literally and mentally. You have 100% control over the future only when you have 100% control of the here and now in your minute to minute actions because we don't just suddenly jump to 1-10 years into the future where our worries lie, we constantly live each day in the future of our yesterday, one day at a time.

And the past doesn't exist, it's all in your head as memories. Most people have bad and good things in their past, and it's an option which ones we revisit to either feel a sense of nostalgia or learn from a mistake, and in some cases there's one's we'd rather forget which is fine as well. Either way I see my past experiences as an encyclopedia to tap into to help me make better decisions in the now.


"help me make better decisions in the now."

Says the naked man in the pine tree


You got somethin against pine trees? I'll have you know, they're the best species of tree and are the greatest for commando climbing.


N...NO i just like burning pine trees


That escalated quickly..


As many things do ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

There is a sex joke in here somewhere.


Nothing beats sexual innuendo.


Except Sexual innuendo's abusive father.
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Posted 11/3/15

Ryulightorb wrote:


ComboChrist wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:


netdisorder wrote:

Man I used to have severe depression, it was usually especially bad during the winter so I figure a part of it could be a vitamin deficiency and lack of UV stimulation. But at some point I just learned to give up on worrying about things I can't control since I'm only human, not some demi-god, and then I stopped worrying about my future in the long term. I think we humans are all control freaks even if we don't outwardly show it. We want control over our lives so things don't turn out in an unfavorable way for us. Life just doesn't work that way.

Living day to day in the moment is where's its at, literally and mentally. You have 100% control over the future only when you have 100% control of the here and now in your minute to minute actions because we don't just suddenly jump to 1-10 years into the future where our worries lie, we constantly live each day in the future of our yesterday, one day at a time.

And the past doesn't exist, it's all in your head as memories. Most people have bad and good things in their past, and it's an option which ones we revisit to either feel a sense of nostalgia or learn from a mistake, and in some cases there's one's we'd rather forget which is fine as well. Either way I see my past experiences as an encyclopedia to tap into to help me make better decisions in the now.


"help me make better decisions in the now."

Says the naked man in the pine tree


You got somethin against pine trees? I'll have you know, they're the best species of tree and are the greatest for commando climbing.


N...NO i just like burning pine trees


That escalated quickly..


As many things do ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

There is a sex joke in here somewhere.


Meanwhile in pine tree: it's getting hot in here, better take off all my cl- Oh yeah nvm.
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Meanwhile in pine tree: it's getting hot in here, better take off all my cl- Oh yeah nvm.

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almost all of the people who told me "you're welcome to inbox me as i will listen and reply and not be bothered at all." have either ignored my msgs after 3 days or replies to me with that "omfg not this shxt again" attitude so at this point im just scared to talk to anyone at all ;c

thank you tho <3
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almost all of the people who told me "you're welcome to inbox me as i will listen and reply and not be bothered at all." have either ignored my msgs after 3 days or replies to me with that "omfg not this shxt again" attitude so at this point im just scared to talk to anyone at all ;c

thank you tho <3


Message me anytime. I have a jar filled with wisdom in my closet, and I can consult with it anytime.
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aww, thank you <3
i wish i had a jar like that. seems like something i really need to own ;v;
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aww, thank you <3
i wish i had a jar like that. seems like something i really need to own ;v;


Well his jar of wisdom is more of a jar full of dirt and pine tree seeds...
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Posted 11/3/15

Ryulightorb wrote:


NyakoMayushii wrote:

-plays the song Lean on Me-

To all of you out there who are struggling with depression/ suicide:

I'm right there with you.

I'm struggling with you too. I'm beating myself up daily, I'm crying daily, I'm begging God to end my life daily and screaming throughout every inch of my body that I'm tired and have no hope while keeping a stoic face or forcing smiles. Daily.

I'm lonely, have a hard time believing in people, have been hurt, betrayed, isolated , sexually assaulted, been left out, been left behind. I caught meningitis when I was 8 and lost my right ear, making connecting with people almost impossible often times.

My best advice for you, is to fight and obliterate the depression bit by bit. . Open up to peoople- does NOT have to be a therapist. (Google 7CupsOfTea) and talk to them about your feelings. It will help to stop hiding all of your feelings inside of you because it teaches you that other people do care and want to help you solve your problems- and you are NOT burdening them with their problems.

Find encouragement..-find it in anything you can.Reasons to keep walking and keep fighting that depression or whatever else may be causing suicidal thoughts. For me, I find hope and encouragement to keep living when practicing my hoby of writing stories, and singing FallOutBoy, One Direction, Taylor Swift, Owl City Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, or Nickleback songs.Oh and FUN's We Are Young is fun to sing. Ellie Goulding, Smash Mouth, and Green Day, just to list a few of the amazing artists out there. Also when I'm really pissed off: Courtesy Call by Thousand Foot Knox. Go to social events to meet folks and make friends, be as positive as you can to attract folks to you n, but don't pressure yourself, .

-pulls you in to a warm huggle- You are beautiful people and I love you salall. I'm really grateful I get to live here with all of you and talk and have fun with you.


I'm here trying to find out who Salall is.

Joking aside i know how you feel with some of that stuff as i have been left out left behind hurt and betrayed also.
If you ever need someone to talk to send me a message as it sucks being lonely.

Also curious how does losing your right ear make it impossible at times to connect with others curious is it because they are judgemental?
I have a hard tim following what is going on atround me because there is so much noise many tims, or people mumble/ whisper things and I only have one ear and a hearing aid to process it.

Also because of this I miss a lot of converstation and so conversations are very spotty. HArd to keep track of conversation too because of this.

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I've heard it all. I'm pretty sure nothing is going to get better because I'm too useless to get better.
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High school student here. Going to therapist for first time tomorrow at my parents request. I honestly don't think it's going to help me at all. I can't see a reason to even care about anything, let alone life. My parents always drilled a "Never Give up!" attitude into me, it's our family creed in a way. We never give up or give in, so my suicidal thoughts usually get cut abruptly and treated as "that's a waste and thats pointless" It also seems painful too so why even bother. Yet i don't care about my life. If i died it wouldn't matter to me. Wish i could just live in anime or a video game and kill monsters or something. Life just seems boring and pointless. I remember when i could cry. I can't even cry anymore. I can fake tears, but i can't get sad, mad, angry, happy. It's all just gone. I work so freaking hard to get those emotions back, and then someone hurts me. There they go again... like a balloon, i'm filling myself with something that should fill me up and give me life. Every single time i just freaking pop.
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