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i don`t like people at all, not most of them anyway. i try to get out of social situations as fast as i can. if i could work from home i would rarely leave the house. the only people i would not mind being around are the intelligent ones that i can have intelligent conversations with. i really don`t like being around women. i find them to be shallow narrow minded, and well bitchy. i have zero tolerance for stupidity and lack of common sense that`s why people avoid me and i`m fine with that. i`m not a people pleaser. i have thought of suicide more than once and i did not tell anyone, but i found a way to get out of that stage on my own because nobody really understands me. my family thinks i`m just lazy but they don`t understand that i have problems that stopped me from having a so called normal life to everyone`s standards. at times i can`t get out of bed and i still want to end it all. i realized that the only one you have is yourself to rely on, i really am alone and cannot expect anything good to happen to me so i`m always prepared for the worse. i want to disappear somewhere far away and start over but i know that`s just running away from my problems.


I can relate to that. Not liking people and the need to talk to more intelligent people and not these "Party goers" that just drink and DRINK.
And I have also thought of suicide a bunch of times too, but I found a reason to live even if it isn't much of a reason.
My family also thinks I am lazy and don't know of my problems. They keep pushing me to get a job but I doubt I will be able to...

Just wanna say, there are more people like yourself with similar problems. Try to talk to them and maybe you can relate.
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SetsunaPluto wrote:

i don`t like people at all, not most of them anyway. i try to get out of social situations as fast as i can. if i could work from home i would rarely leave the house. the only people i would not mind being around are the intelligent ones that i can have intelligent conversations with. i really don`t like being around women. i find them to be shallow narrow minded, and well bitchy. i have zero tolerance for stupidity and lack of common sense that`s why people avoid me and i`m fine with that. i`m not a people pleaser. i have thought of suicide more than once and i did not tell anyone, but i found a way to get out of that stage on my own because nobody really understands me. my family thinks i`m just lazy but they don`t understand that i have problems that stopped me from having a so called normal life to everyone`s standards. at times i can`t get out of bed and i still want to end it all. i realized that the only one you have is yourself to rely on, i really am alone and cannot expect anything good to happen to me so i`m always prepared for the worse. i want to disappear somewhere far away and start over but i know that`s just running away from my problems.


I can relate to that. Not liking people and the need to talk to more intelligent people and not these "Party goers" that just drink and DRINK.
And I have also thought of suicide a bunch of times too, but I found a reason to live even if it isn't much of a reason.
My family also thinks I am lazy and don't know of my problems. They keep pushing me to get a job but I doubt I will be able to...

Just wanna say, there are more people like yourself with similar problems. Try to talk to them and maybe you can relate.


well thank you. i know there are so many people with similar problems. i never had anyone to talk to, and even when someone asks about your life they don`t really want to know and that`s a fact. everybody has their own problems so its really hard to find someone who really wants to be there for you and help even if its just listening to what you have to say. i had bad experience with my first psychiatrist and that`s why i gave up on that and started to learn psychology on my own to help myself to cope with everything. now i kinda want to help others too, that is why i`m still alive today
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Posted 11/4/15

SetsunaPluto wrote:


Mrcreepday wrote:


SetsunaPluto wrote:

i don`t like people at all, not most of them anyway. i try to get out of social situations as fast as i can. if i could work from home i would rarely leave the house. the only people i would not mind being around are the intelligent ones that i can have intelligent conversations with. i really don`t like being around women. i find them to be shallow narrow minded, and well bitchy. i have zero tolerance for stupidity and lack of common sense that`s why people avoid me and i`m fine with that. i`m not a people pleaser. i have thought of suicide more than once and i did not tell anyone, but i found a way to get out of that stage on my own because nobody really understands me. my family thinks i`m just lazy but they don`t understand that i have problems that stopped me from having a so called normal life to everyone`s standards. at times i can`t get out of bed and i still want to end it all. i realized that the only one you have is yourself to rely on, i really am alone and cannot expect anything good to happen to me so i`m always prepared for the worse. i want to disappear somewhere far away and start over but i know that`s just running away from my problems.


I can relate to that. Not liking people and the need to talk to more intelligent people and not these "Party goers" that just drink and DRINK.
And I have also thought of suicide a bunch of times too, but I found a reason to live even if it isn't much of a reason.
My family also thinks I am lazy and don't know of my problems. They keep pushing me to get a job but I doubt I will be able to...

Just wanna say, there are more people like yourself with similar problems. Try to talk to them and maybe you can relate.


well thank you. i know there are so many people with similar problems. i never had anyone to talk to, and even when someone asks about your life they don`t really want to know and that`s a fact. everybody has their own problems so its really hard to find someone who really wants to be there for you and help even if its just listening to what you have to say. i had bad experience with my first psychiatrist and that`s why i gave up on that and started to learn psychology on my own to help myself to cope with everything. now i kinda want to help others too, that is why i`m still alive today


I can always listen to your problems. I like to help people if I can :)
And talking about it helps, I know that for sure. And having the mind set to help people is very noble of you. Most people are just mean to each other, and even worse on the Internet.
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Animegirlzvstheworld wrote:

I want to create an anime/manga franchise that is yuri loli.

It's first a magical girl series and then has its own AU franchise.


That AU is "Schoolyard Bloodhound Megumi".

And its supposed to be a violent and dark...and well sexual take on the "cute girls doing cute things" genre.


Bet your ass there's already a hentai like that or at least similiar.




Actually...Schoolyard Bloodhound Megumi is inspired by the works of SOFTCHARM. Look it up if you don't believe me.


Magical Dream Warrior Megumi has no inspiration...other than KnM and CCS.
There is no such thing as a magical girl yuri.
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Wow

There are so many people with depression and suicidal thoughts!

It's not that I'm optimistic or something but I try not to be like that, you know...sad and miserable. I've been like that so I know how it feels but it is because I know how it feels that I force my mind to see the good things in life.

The one thing I can't tell others in real life?

I like a friend's boyfriend, I feel bad when I'm with both of them because I feel like an hypocrite. When he tells me he's having problems with her I'm like " " but on the inside I'm actually like " ". I haven't told anyone nor I plan to. I mean, he is so perfect...why not me?
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SetsunaPluto wrote:

i don`t like people at all, not most of them anyway. i try to get out of social situations as fast as i can. if i could work from home i would rarely leave the house. the only people i would not mind being around are the intelligent ones that i can have intelligent conversations with. i really don`t like being around women. i find them to be shallow narrow minded, and well bitchy. i have zero tolerance for stupidity and lack of common sense that`s why people avoid me and i`m fine with that. i`m not a people pleaser. i have thought of suicide more than once and i did not tell anyone, but i found a way to get out of that stage on my own because nobody really understands me. my family thinks i`m just lazy but they don`t understand that i have problems that stopped me from having a so called normal life to everyone`s standards. at times i can`t get out of bed and i still want to end it all. i realized that the only one you have is yourself to rely on, i really am alone and cannot expect anything good to happen to me so i`m always prepared for the worse. i want to disappear somewhere far away and start over but i know that`s just running away from my problems.


This.

Now if only we didn't have those pesky laws in the way...
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SetsunaPluto wrote:

i don`t like people at all, not most of them anyway. i try to get out of social situations as fast as i can. if i could work from home i would rarely leave the house. the only people i would not mind being around are the intelligent ones that i can have intelligent conversations with. i really don`t like being around women. i find them to be shallow narrow minded, and well bitchy. i have zero tolerance for stupidity and lack of common sense that`s why people avoid me and i`m fine with that. i`m not a people pleaser. i have thought of suicide more than once and i did not tell anyone, but i found a way to get out of that stage on my own because nobody really understands me. my family thinks i`m just lazy but they don`t understand that i have problems that stopped me from having a so called normal life to everyone`s standards. at times i can`t get out of bed and i still want to end it all. i realized that the only one you have is yourself to rely on, i really am alone and cannot expect anything good to happen to me so i`m always prepared for the worse. i want to disappear somewhere far away and start over but i know that`s just running away from my problems.


This.

Now if only we didn't have those pesky laws in the way...


2nd this.
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I want to just go live out in the wilderness and say the hell with Society.

But certain things keep me from that, like the love of my life, dehydration and starvation. Also bacon, they don't have that out there.
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Posted 11/4/15

Animegirlzvstheworld wrote:


ComboChrist wrote:


Animegirlzvstheworld wrote:

I want to create an anime/manga franchise that is yuri loli.

It's first a magical girl series and then has its own AU franchise.


That AU is "Schoolyard Bloodhound Megumi".

And its supposed to be a violent and dark...and well sexual take on the "cute girls doing cute things" genre.


Bet your ass there's already a hentai like that or at least similiar.




Actually...Schoolyard Bloodhound Megumi is inspired by the works of SOFTCHARM. Look it up if you don't believe me.


Magical Dream Warrior Megumi has no inspiration...other than KnM and CCS.
There is no such thing as a magical girl yuri.


Didn't looked it up, but I'm 100% there's at least a mg-yuri-doujinshi somewhere to be found. Also; Fate/kaleid liner S01EP7 not rly yuri, but meh a little loli-action never hurt no one.
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thestars201 wrote:

Every day I'm actually just waiting to die. I don't really know what I truly want in life. Lost all my motivation. The thing is, nothing tragic happened to me, also I don't think I'm diagnosed with any sort of depression so I don't really know why I feel this way. I just feel that I'm a waste of space and want to die. It's not like I have anything better to offer the world. My life should be for someone who will do something better with it. More than I ever could. I'd happily give it up and die. Sometimes, I think about planning a suicide. There's nothing stopping me from committing suicide, but I guess the reason why I haven't yet is because I'm only 22 for now, I want to see how far I go until I can't take it anymore.


You don't have to have something tragic to lose motivation, one day you can just wake up and say "What the hell is my purpose".

Just know you're important, every life is important. People value your life, even people that don't know you.
Well, I know it's hard, but keep fighting. Dedicate your life to finding your reason to push forward. It's never okay to give up, it never solves anything. Just don't think that one day you may give up, trust me I've that that before, it just makes you weaker. Think about today and push for tomorrow. Live one day at a time, have as much as possible. Find what makes you happy, and never let go. Enjoy the time you have today, because tomorrow isn't promised, have a great life. And always be yourself.

Good luck
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I let the dogs out.
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furytime wrote:

Sure I guess I post.

As I got older I dropped out of school and realized it was a mistake. I thought it would fix my problems, being depression and ADD. Fix my want to die. But it only made it worse. So far in my life, the last two years or so, I've just wasted time trying to live out my life before I killed myself. I was going to do some on July 25, my birthday but I decided to get help instead. I started taking anti depressants and they have not helped me. I barely have the will to do anything because my depression and when I do something, my ADD messes with me and doesn't let me. I don't have a job and these problems prevent me from working atm. My mother is too poor to help me so I've been seeing a doctor at a free medical place. I'm seeing a psychiatrist in December, and my only hope really is to get some medication for my ADD. If anti depressants can't help me I'll have to be sad and just have ADD medicine. I'd rather 'cure' both. I've always hated my life and still do. I feel so lonely most of the time and I even comment on things like this just to feel in a group, to feel less lonely. I don't think people will ever be able to understand me and I don't think I'll ever have a SO i'll care about.

Today I took some allergy medicine to sleep all day. Slept from 4:00AM to about 3:00 PM the next day. I still want to just die though. Nobody can help me really. Nothing can. I've already ruined my life and I am so far behind. I wish I could just be normal and get a job like everyone else and just be human. I don't know why I am so different from everyone. Why I am the broken one. I feel so worthless myself. I'm a broken human. I don't know why I am even writing this tbh. I guess to vent? I'll probably just go see the psychiatrist in December and if things do not get better I'll probably still just end my life. And if anyone actually reads this, don't feel guilt or feel compelled to try to help me. It's ok.


I've been through a lot of what you have. I've been depressed before, and I have ADD. I know it gets hard some times, but you can't give up. Life is a pain in the ass, it's not easy to live if you have no meaning. But you can't keep putting yourself down. Find what makes you happy, and don't let go.

Never doubt yourself, you'll be amazed at what someone can accomplish when they believe in themselves. I myself have dropped out of school and realized the mistake, but right now I'm studying to fix that, I'm almost there too. It took a very long time, and it wasn't easy, at times I felt like giving up, some times I stopped studying for a long time. But I got back to it, and I've gotten so far. Whenever life knocks you down, get back up and hit life back twice as hard.

Don't give into suicide, and I hope you have the best of luck with your shrink. If you ever need any help, I'm here for ya. And I bet many others are, don't give up dude. Life is worth it in the end.

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Posted 11/4/15 , edited 11/4/15

ComboChrist wrote:


Animegirlzvstheworld wrote:


ComboChrist wrote:


Animegirlzvstheworld wrote:

I want to create an anime/manga franchise that is yuri loli.

It's first a magical girl series and then has its own AU franchise.


That AU is "Schoolyard Bloodhound Megumi".

And its supposed to be a violent and dark...and well sexual take on the "cute girls doing cute things" genre.


Bet your ass there's already a hentai like that or at least similiar.




Actually...Schoolyard Bloodhound Megumi is inspired by the works of SOFTCHARM. Look it up if you don't believe me.


Magical Dream Warrior Megumi has no inspiration...other than KnM and CCS.
There is no such thing as a magical girl yuri.


Didn't looked it up, but I'm 100% there's at least a mg-yuri-doujinshi somewhere to be found. Also; Fate/kaleid liner S01EP7 not rly yuri, but meh a little loli-action never hurt no one.





If you're curious you might want to.

The antagonists are actually based on the characters of those SOFTCHARM doujins.
Well, doujins like "Locker room".

Also, the music is pretty much if you had the soundtracks of Silent Hill series, Tekken series, and Serial Experiments Lain

Did I mention its pretty violent and the characters are in elementary school?
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Since the beginning of 9th grade (I'm in 11th now), I've been having worsening depression. I thought about ending my life last year, and I decided to do so after Blood Battlefront Blockade (Kekkai Sensen) ended, but the show's final episode never aired. I don't do much besides wait for the weekend so I can play Dark Souls 2. My brothers (I'm a quadruplet, meaning I was born with three other brothers) are more out going than me, and can have fun at parties, while all I can do is sit at the sidelines by myself and read Jojo's..... It's annoying being constantly in their shadows one way or another
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I have hardcore yaoi doujins in the top drawer of my end table next to my bed hidden inside a school folder.

On my phone if you open firefox all you'll find is visited porn sites.

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