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27 / M / The heart of Linc...
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Posted 1/29/16 , edited 1/30/16
I have thought about it a few times, even tried it before. It was a dark time for me, I had no friends, bullying from students & teachers, death of family & constant pushes to things I didn't want to be part of.

I hate many things in life, but I no longer want suicide, far too many things to enjoy life & idea of doing that to my family, it's wrong & twisted.
I find talking about it, finding something to have as a hobby/interest, it all helps cope with it.

I guess part of my thoughts on this is cos very few talk about death, as if it doesn't happen or that it should never be mentioned. It isn't the most pleasant topic but how can you ignore what is in fact everyday life & needs talking about, cos withouth death, there is no interest/worth in life.
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28 / F / Bamboo Land
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Posted 1/30/16
In high school I had a period where I wondered what it would be like if I died. For example, would people be sad and contemplated how I might kill myself if I wanted to die. However, I was never really serious and figured I love anime and helping people more. I also couldn't imagine what I would miss and the thoughts eventually passed.
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Posted 1/31/16
To those who once thought about or attempted suicide and got past that I'm so happy for you guys!
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Posted 2/16/16
all the time man
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28 / M / Kansas, USA
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Posted 2/16/16
Never. With an ASPD that leans towards socio and psychopathic tendencies, my mind goes the complete opposite direction. I've never once thought of harming myself, but have thought about harming others.
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29 / M / B.C, Canada
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Posted 2/17/16
I honestly envy the people who can honestly answer no. I remember a dark day when I was 24, realising everyone I actually cared about was dead. Sophie, my Dad, my friends. I must have sat in front of Sophie's grave for 9 or ten hours. I remember the gravekeeper asking if I was okay around 9 or 10 pm I think. I remember asking him who was more alive me or the girl buried underneath that tombstone in front of us. He said that was a decision I'd have to make and if I answered to myself that Sophie was more alive he'd start digging a grave for me beside her right then and now.

I remember a sad little laugh I did when I asked him if he terribly mind doing such a thing that late at night. He said no but hoped that I would decide I was the one more alive. He then left me to my thoughts. Dawn came and I still hadn't come up with an answer.

I still really haven't but I don't want to give up either. I have to believe a world that Sophie and my Dad loved is a worthwhile place. Some of you make that a hard thing to believe in but I have never backed down from a fight before and I won't anytime soon. Even if I don't know what I am really fighting for anymore.
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Posted 2/17/16 , edited 2/18/16
No one deserves to die. No one.
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22 / M / Delaware
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Posted 2/17/16
Nah, suicide is never the answer and shouldn't ever even be in question. It's a selfish act and a big middle finger to those around you.
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29 / M / B.C, Canada
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Posted 2/17/16

Caramellah wrote:

Suicide IS BAD
THE LIFE IS GOOD AND BAD BUT THERE;S NOTHING BAD AS SUICIDE
LIKE GROW UP WHAT WILL YOU GET IF YOU KILLED YOURSELF
YOU MUST BE STRONG AND FIGHT EVERY DAY THIS IS THE LIFE YOU NEED TO BE STRONG TO LIVE
DO YOU GET IT


Well since you're the only only screaming their opinion on this subject matter I will ask you a question if I may. I apologise in advance if it offends you but hopefully you'll be mature enough to see my point.

The sort of person whom would actually would give serious and rational thought to the act of suicide has likely lost everything he or she has cared about. The world holds nothing of appeal to them other than the thought of dragging themselves through another day simply out of the morality they grew up with. That suicide is inherently a wrong act, a selfish one.

But to whom would they be selfish to? They have likely lost their family and friends and if not it is not likely they are worthy of that kind of devotion. After all despite their existence the person in question still feels the only way to end their pain is exiting this life. To what fight should they commit themselves to? The world is doing nothing to earn the suffering living with their pain is.

I am merely playing Devil's advocate here. I have no intention of ending my fight but since you're the only one shouting I feel compelled to ask you.
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18 / M / California
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Posted 2/17/16
Nah, never lol
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Posted 2/18/16 , edited 3/24/16
Death won’t relieve the pain.
Killing yourself will NOT be a relief to the suffering. When you’re dead, You no longer exist. If you want relief from your suffering, you have to choose to live. You have to reach out and find the courage to make tomorrow better than today. Remember, there is light at the end of the tunnel. There is hope and things will get better. You’re a strong person
Stop thinking about what is wrong with your life and start thinking about the little things that make life great.
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68 / M / Columbia, MO
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Posted 2/19/16
Me: Thought about it more than once during my youth, 20's, 30's, early 40's when I perceived events were contradictory to my aspirations (real or imaginary) but luckily had the foresight by late 40's to seek outside help (licensed counselor aka psychologist without the PhD who cost less and accomplished as much re client-centered therapy) after posting bond in west Texas for doing something non-professional OTR and getting incarcerated for it. The counseling was a great help. I never had to resort to drugs, alcohol for relief. I also believed in myself enough by then to not commit to a marriage with a hot, uber-attractive Manic-Depressive who was after me then mainly for my money rather than personality (stock crash 2000-2001 took care of most of the former anyway).

You: if you find yourself sliding again, seek outside help / counseling. There is no shame in saving yourself, helping yourself.
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Posted 2/19/16
I've attempted suicide and failed. Sometimes now I get very depressed and consider it, but usually I give up on the idea pretty quick. The main reason being if I did kill myself, I'd just be letting the people who depressed me win. Why should I die when they get to carry on living?
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31 / M / Orlando, FL
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Posted 2/19/16
Never attempted, but I've definitely felt suicidal for long periods before. Usually when I hadn't had contact with anyone in person for quite some time, or when I've been rejected horribly by someone I care about. Alcohol and drugs can help refocus your mind on the things you love and enjoy doing, but it can also lead you even further down the rabbit hole. I've learned to just bear it over time, even when it feels pointless to do so. Suicide is agonizingly painful, and you won't always succeed. You could end up with severe brain damage or a mangled arm and still have to continue living. It's always good to have familiar comfort activities and rituals on standby to calm things down until the emotional storm passes. Easier said than done, I know.
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20 / M / Termina
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Posted 3/24/16
I made a really shitty attempt at it once. I messed it up pretty badly haha. I guess I still think about it but I wouldn't do it again. I'd probably just screw it up again
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