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Personal stories are accepted, no judgement, so I'll share mine. when I was in middle school I got quite depressed, and no, It wasn't one of those "Oh, school's so hard, I'mma be sad," it was serious depression, even some self-harm, and I once almost killed myself. The thing that was the worse, was that I had no idea why it happened, but it was the worst thing I've ever had to be put through, and looking back now, it gives me courage, my scars serve as a reminder that things could be worse. So, please, open up, if you need someone to talk to, I'll be here! Thanks, guys, and if you're still going through it, there is still hope, you're not alone. Have a nice Day/night/life!
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Hmm too much.

death is nothing compared
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Probably all the instances in which I nearly died.

Getting washed out at the beach is the one that sticks out the most. I just remember the ground swept out from under me as I tried vainly to fight the current. People were laughing and having a good time so far away and I thought nobody noticed that I was getting dragged out. I remember the feeling of inhaling the salty water and the panic of trying to keep my face above the waves.
Posted 1/23/16

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Personal stories are accepted, no judgement, so I'll share mine. when I was in middle school I got quite depressed, and no, It wasn't one of those "Oh, school's so hard, I'mma be sad," it was serious depression, even some self-harm, and I once almost killed myself. The thing that was the worse, was that I had no idea why it happened, but it was the worst thing I've ever had to be put through, and looking back now, it gives me courage, my scars serve as a reminder that things could be worse. So, please, open up, if you need someone to talk to, I'll be here! Thanks, guys, and if you're still going through it, there is still hope, you're not alone. Have a nice Day/night/life!


You want to know how fucked up I am?

Sure, this is the internet after all.

1. I have light Asperger syndrome which was used against me as a crutch in elementary school. School teachers told me I''d never even get out of high school, which also stunted my intellectual growth. And my parents never even told me till 2014.

2. Being violently and mentally abused for being mixed race and religious. Literally picked on everyday, being chased in groups at every recess. Being made fun of by teachers and other kids and my parents did nothing till later on.

3. Nearly be put into special education and told I have anger issues due to the fact that every day was sheer terror to live when I was a child.

4. Being molested as a child which screwed up my growth process and made my sexual orientation volatile.

5. Having abusive parents and a jealous brother with a learning disability who screamed and was always sarcastic to me.

6. Having an overly protective mother who was a cheating catholic hypocrite and smothered me from growing and maturing, trying to tell me who my friends should be.

7. Being an absolute outcast from Elementary all the way to high school, with no friends until the last 3 years.

8. Realizing the illusion that my parents were a good couple being utterly shattered after learning the truth. That since 1999 my mom and dad were divorced and the only reason my father stayed was to take care of me, never telling me till 2014.

9. Have half my family disown me by my mothers hands, who in revenge on my father literally out caste us both. In the process just to spite my father she kicked me out in the middle of winter without notice and physically attacked my father. Nearly having all my closest friends abandon me during that horrible process.

10. Be a virgin and never give into sexual lust, while watching every other person that I hated have wonderful families and blessed children they call their own.

The only thing I really wanted.

This isn't even the tip of the iceberg of all the shit I have had to put up with. How any sane human being can even manage all this means that I'm not a sad story.

I'm the goddamn hero.
Posted 1/23/16 , edited 1/23/16

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Toaster-Senpai wrote:

Personal stories are accepted, no judgement, so I'll share mine. when I was in middle school I got quite depressed, and no, It wasn't one of those "Oh, school's so hard, I'mma be sad," it was serious depression, even some self-harm, and I once almost killed myself. The thing that was the worse, was that I had no idea why it happened, but it was the worst thing I've ever had to be put through, and looking back now, it gives me courage, my scars serve as a reminder that things could be worse. So, please, open up, if you need someone to talk to, I'll be here! Thanks, guys, and if you're still going through it, there is still hope, you're not alone. Have a nice Day/night/life!


You want to know how fucked up I am?

Sure, this is the internet after all.

1. I have light Asperger syndrome which was used against me as a crutch in elementary school. School teachers told me I''d never even get out of high school, which also stunted my intellectual growth. And my parents never even told me till 2014.

2. Being violently and mentally abused for being mixed race and religious. Literally picked on everyday, being chased in groups at every recess. Being made fun of by teachers and other kids and my parents did nothing till later on.

3. Nearly be put into special education and told I have anger issues due to the fact that every day was sheer terror to live when I was a child.

4. Being molested as a child which screwed up my growth process and made my sexual orientation volatile.

5. Having abusive parents and a jealous brother with a learning disability who screamed and was always sarcastic to me.

6. Having an overly protective mother who was a cheating catholic hypocrite and smothered me from growing and maturing, trying to tell me who my friends should be.

7. Being an absolute outcast from Elementary all the way to high school, with no friends until the last 3 years.

8. Realizing the illusion that my parents were a good couple being utterly shattered after learning the truth. That since 1999 my mom and dad were divorced and the only reason my father stayed was to take care of me, never telling me till 2014.

9. Have half my family disown me by my mothers hands, who in revenge on my father literally out caste us both. In the process just to spite my father she kicked me out in the middle of winter without notice and physically attacked my father. Nearly having all my closest friends abandon me during that horrible process.

10. Be a virgin and never give into sexual lust, while watching every other person that I hated have wonderful families and blessed children they call their own.

The only thing I really wanted.

This isn't even the tip of the iceberg of all the shit I have had to put up with. How any sane human being can even manage all this means that I'm not a sad story.

I'm the goddamn hero.


My eyes are watery.
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Watching a friend and co-worker get cut in half by the bomb bay doors of the airplane we were working on.

It did not kill him right away, the doors sealed everything. We had time to drive his wife in so they could say goodbye before he died. I still have nightmares where I can hear his voice.
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Hang in there, man, I'm so sorry to hear you suffering, it will get better, so just don't give up, there are people who care, and I'm one of them.
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The same thing happened to me once!
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Probably all the instances in which I nearly died.

Getting washed out at the beach is the one that sticks out the most. I just remember the ground swept out from under me as I tried vainly to fight the current. People were laughing and having a good time so far away and I thought nobody noticed that I was getting dragged out. I remember the feeling of inhaling the salty water and the panic of trying to keep my face above the waves.


I know that exact feeling. I was like 15 or something in Turkey, back then it wasn't a warzone. I had one of those inflatable boat things, and I was just led back, chilling. Looking at the sky, smoking away. Until all I could hear was the ocean. I got up and I had drifted way too fucking far lol. I windmilled like a motherfucker back to the beach.
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Happened yesterday. My sister and I discovered that my big brother is abusing drugs.

Yes my brother that I esteem so much, that I love so much is on the verge of falling into a dark pit. I'm very young so I didn't understand much of what was happening. I thought I understood pain, but the worst thing is that betrayal comes not from your enemies but from your loved ones. It hurts so much, just like your intestines are been crushed inside your body, like your heart and brain been mashed at the same time. What hurts is that he lied to everyone, he lied to me, my big sister, my mother and father.

It's not like my family is on good terms, I think is everyones fault in our family. We never pay so much attention to him, and the only person he had near was his girlfriend which we also discovered was drug abusing.

The thing is that he was about to move to another country with his girlfriend and attend a college there, but I always had my doubts so my sister and I investigated him... and that's when everything came up.

I still don't know what to do. He is not going to the college anymore, he's staying in my town, we're trying to be more comprehensive with him, trying to talk more with him and help him. My parents are going to become more close to him, my big sister (also his big sis) is going to start talking to him again after 3 years. She recognises she was at fault also. We're trying to handle this situation as, gladly he didn't take any serious drugs like heroin or meth... There's still time.

So this is my situation...
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Waiting for the "there are people much worse off than you are"-clan to bomb this thread.
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Posted 1/23/16 , edited 1/24/16

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Waiting for the "there are people much worse off than you are"-clan to bomb this thread.


Some people like to compare their misfortune with of the others' in order to feel good

But I firmly believe there's no comparison to someone's life. A lot of things will happen to you and the important thing is how you're going to deal with it.
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-The hole of depression and anxiety I dug myself into for years--absolutely no good reason for it--perplexing as all hell. I was physically ill from it. I didn't think myself depressed, and yet I couldn't find the energy to do nothing more than sleep or lay in bed for hours after waking. I'd hyperventilate and occasionally deal with racing heart and palpitations (which let me tell you--hearing your heartbeat so loud is some of the freakiest shit). I had disturbed sleep to the point I'd wake up screaming from night terrors on occasion and every morning my mattress was tilted. I got cold hands and feet, my bones would ache, and eventually my skin started changing colors. I was bored and 'down' nearly all the time and found interest in little outside of the negative muddling in my mind. I stopped eating from a loss of appetite and started blacking out and fainting on occasion.

Eventually I just climbed out of the hole one day. If you asked me what put me there to begin with, embarrassingly enough, I don't have the best reply. My life is more fortunate than others.

-Watching the heart monitor on my Grandmother as she passed unexpectedly one day recently. She went in for dehydration that morning--fine as ever--and suddenly I'm being told I need to be there. I made it 30 minutes before her passing, but seeing her covered in blood made my heart drop. I had never seen her once relatively like that. Watching the heart monitor steadily fade was the most surreal thing. I was close to her--she was the only one to have a actual interest and excitement in the things I do online (a large part of my character).

-Finding my mother in tears as she was realizing she had miscarried.

-The day my parents were screaming that there was something wrong with me and that they should drop me off at a mental hospital. I don't hold it against them--I've forgiven them--but I also can't forget.



That being said though, I'm happy with my life and who I generally turned out to be, because of all my experiences.

I was dealt a good hand. I just had to learn how to play cards.



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Some people like to compare their misfortune with of the others in order to feel good

But I firmly believe there's no comparison to someone's life. A lot of things will happen to you and the important thing is how you're going to deal with it.


Well said.

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There are many bad things that happened in my life but I have forgotten them so I don't see them as "the worst thing" now.

Probably the worst thing now is my inability to take action and accept change in my life. There's a stillness I hate. I want to move on but the thing is: I don't know what to study or what's the perfect career for me. I have wasted so much time and money in trying to find out the right profession for me but in the end I realize it is not the one.

Being in standby with my life is the worst thing that has ever happened to me.
Posted 1/23/16 , edited 1/23/16
dropped my french fries...never went back
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