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Posted 1/23/16

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PE class, sounds kinda stupid compared to these other guys...

Not really.

I know how much abuse can be dealt to an unpopular kid during PE. It can be as devastating as any other form of child abuse, save the perpetrators are your peers.
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This is going to be really long. You don't have to read it. But if you do, thank you for hearing me out. I appreciate it:3

side note: this was my life when I was 15-17. I thought life was hard but clearly not lol. So, don't compare my problems to yours & say aren't as bad as yours or something like that.


I was born in Costa Rica (no, not Puerto Rico... that's an island). I'm going to try to focus on my life in America only, Costa Rica is another story. My parents are both successful analytical chemists & two of the most brilliant people I've ever encountered in my life. I admire them for their intelligence. My dad might me insanely smart but he's definitely not good at...life? Decision making? Parenting? All of the above. Now, I prefer not to talk about the reasons behind the divorce (the story includes drug & alcohol abuse, verbal & physical abuse, infidelity, finding out truths, lots of debts, you name it) but what I can say is that during that time I wasn't the best daughter either. I mean I had been caught drinking, I started fucking with pills & I got held back & blahblah, stuff I’m not necessarily proud of.

My dad moved to the other side of the country with his new lady a little after the divorce & I didn't get along with my mom since she was super religious & I had just told her I liked girls, so... I was sent here to America. By myself. I moved in with my aunt & her husband who I had never met or talked to before lmao. One day I was a normal 15 year old living an awesome life in one of the most biodiverse (is that a word?) countries in the world, & the next day I was living in the Middle of Nowhere, Pennsylvania with a bunch of strangers who barely spoke Spanish. It was awfully cold & people talked about inches of snow. I had no clue what an inch was. (2.54 cm )

Long story short: I ended up moving to a different country following my parents’ divorce without knowing the language or anything about the culture.

It just got worse when I started going to school. Well, the main thing, of course, was that I didn't know any English. I had no clue what people were saying to me half (more like three fourths) of the time. I had to go to a different room for every class & the hallways were always so crowded you couldn't even read the signs. Over time I started noticing little things about the culture... how people said "I'm sorry" if you were sad?? Or how everybody pretended to be everybody's best friend but in reality they hated each other?? Or how people in general were always so sad for no apparent reason??? Stuff like that just didn't make sense to me. I was so convinced I didn't belong here. It was so hard to be so fucking sad & not be able to tell anybody because I didn't know how to... verbally. I was so happy (before the divorce) & outgoing back there but here I was shy & oblivious. I was so self-conscious about my accent I barely talked. I was really depressed & I couldn't tell anybody about it. In 2014 I was also diagnosed with anxiety.

Kids at school were the worsttt. When I finally started catching up with the language, I started making "friends" & girls at school started hating me for absolutely no reason. Boys wanted to talk to me & I was too naive to know what their intentions were. I became, I guess somewhat popular. Silly things like when my boyfriend cheated on me with my best friend in 9th upset me a lot at the time. The summer before 10th grade I hooked up with the wrong person & this girl made up all these lies & rumors & everybody believed her so I was known as school whore!! Yeah good times!!! I didn't understand how somebody could be so awful & cruel. How can you tell people somebody sleeps with every guy they talk to if she's way more attracted to girls...? & like, what do you gain from ruin somebody's reputation like that??... But of course that's irrelevant now. Just a few examples of why I was not a fan of highschoolers here.

Anyway, back to the story. I would visit Costa Rica every summer & it was so hard to live two completely different lives & keep up with everything. I felt stuck between two cultures. I was too Hispanic here & too white over there. It was so emotionally draining. It definitely contributed to my depression. So I decided to stop pitying myself & simply deal with it & do something to make my life better. now, I was young & I didn't have many options so I decided to leave my "other life" behind & stop visiting, forget about my past, my friends, that beautiful girl, my family, my pets, everything I ever knew. But I never forgot about who I was. That’s when I started to love myself. I forgave my dad & his crazy second life, my mom & her Jesus obsession & the people in school. I freed myself from all the suffering.

That’s when I met my first love. We started dating in early 10th grade. For the very first time in my life, I felt stable. It was thanks to her that I quit smoking & all. I felt like I had finally found where I belonged: right there with her family & her friends, in her life. She didn't care about all those rumors, she knew I was different. She made me believe in "forever". It sounds pathetic, I know but... my whole life I was so used to drastic changes all of a sudden & it felt good to think something was always going to stay the same. For some reason I just never once imagined I would have to live a life without her. & one day she just got up, & left for no reason. (Guess who was in love with some guy a week later) What a year of my life.

After this dramatic breakup in 11th grade, I felt like I was completely alone again. I didn't have my parents there to teach me anything. I didn't have a dad who would teach me how to drive or a mom who would be so proud of me when I got an A on a hard test or a friend to hear me out when I was sad & push me to better myself or a lover who would 'love me when I couldn't love myself' (silly small things like that for some reason meant the world to me). I fell into depression again. It was so hard to be so anxious & worry about everything but at the same time so depressed I just couldn’t care about anything. & I grew out of it when I learned having only me wasn't such a terrible thing. Proud to say I didn’t do anything stupid this time. Once I started waiting for people to come into my life & fix everything for me, & I started doing things for myself, that's when I started connecting with other beautiful souls. I began to understand it's impossible to fix somebody when you're broken as well.

Today I'm thankful my parents were the people who showed me what disappointment & rejection felt like. I'm thankful I was basically thrown into a different culture & obligated to learn a whole new language. I'm so thankful I got my heart destroyed by the one person I fell in love with. I'm thankful because those opened my mind to so many new things. They taught me how so much about myself & what I want to do with my life. I learned about my love for science (especially chemistry) & became an honor student. I started practicing yoga & meditating & later on became a Buddhist. I fell in love a couple times. I met this amazing boy who loves himself so much he's always willing to accept & appreciate my love, & return it. I traveled a lot. I joined the track team. I met awesome people. I saw my favorite artists. I became a lifeguard. I joined the diversity club. I just recently handed in my application for my dream school & things are looking good. I feel like I could've never accomplished some of these things if I had just sat there on my depression.

It’s been 3 years. I'm 18, bilingual, about to graduate. I'm still dating that amazing boy. Meditation has helped me control my anxiety. My mom eventually moved here with my sister & we bought a house of our own. There are a lot of things I have yet to accomplish but I have lots of self-confidence. I'm the happiest I've ever been, & it's not because my life is special in any way. It’s because I learned to forgive & move on. I learned that after all I went through; it all just prepared me for this very moment. I’m so excited for the future.
Posted 1/23/16

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Methadone overdose. Was hit by the defibrillator while I was semi-conscious. Doesn't sound possible for that to happen, as your heart is stopped. Turns out it is....and it sucks MAJOR donkey balls. That whole night was fucked up. Last thing I remember was Friday night....and then vague memories after EMS arrived on Sunday morning about 3:00 a.m.

BUT the worst part was that my mind was so messed up for about a week after, and everything tasted like metal... I thought I had caused permanent damage to my brain or something. Scariest week of my life.


That pain sounds really really viscous. How the hell did you even live?
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You're welcome, dude, I felt the same way. For about half a year, I told no one about my depression, just putting on a fake smile and trying to hold back the tears. Then I finally told my girlfriend, and she did everything to help me. just remember, people care about you, and you are loved!
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I just did... I mean they had me in the hospital. Remember a bit, like them drawing blood from my artery to make sure my blood had enough oxygen (I think that's why.) and other stuff. I mean, it isn't that hard to keep an OD victim alive, once EMS gets their hands on them (I think).

But, if EMS wouldn't have been called, I'd have been dead in less than an hour.

And, yeah... the pain was pretty darned bad.
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I had something similar to an aneurysm in my brain that ruptured when I was nine. I spent months in the hospital, even longer in therapy. To date, I still can't walk without a pronounced limp, and my coordination sucks. The doctors said that most people who have brain aneurysms rupture die as a result. I guess I'm just lucky.
Posted 1/23/16

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HolyDrumstick wrote:

Methadone overdose. Was hit by the defibrillator while I was semi-conscious. Doesn't sound possible for that to happen, as your heart is stopped. Turns out it is....and it sucks MAJOR donkey balls. That whole night was fucked up. Last thing I remember was Friday night....and then vague memories after EMS arrived on Sunday morning about 3:00 a.m.

BUT the worst part was that my mind was so messed up for about a week after, and everything tasted like metal... I thought I had caused permanent damage to my brain or something. Scariest week of my life.


That pain sounds really really viscous. How the hell did you even live?


don't hate on me, but vicious, viscous is what molasses is. But it might have been a viscous ordeal, as well.

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The worst thing I've ever been through? The Haruhi Suszimiya Endless Eight episodes.
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Toaster-Senpai wrote:

Personal stories are accepted, no judgement, so I'll share mine. when I was in middle school I got quite depressed, and no, It wasn't one of those "Oh, school's so hard, I'mma be sad," it was serious depression, even some self-harm, and I once almost killed myself. The thing that was the worse, was that I had no idea why it happened, but it was the worst thing I've ever had to be put through, and looking back now, it gives me courage, my scars serve as a reminder that things could be worse. So, please, open up, if you need someone to talk to, I'll be here! Thanks, guys, and if you're still going through it, there is still hope, you're not alone. Have a nice Day/night/life!


You want to know how fucked up I am?

Sure, this is the internet after all.

1. I have light Asperger syndrome which was used against me as a crutch in elementary school. School teachers told me I''d never even get out of high school, which also stunted my intellectual growth. And my parents never even told me till 2014.

2. Being violently and mentally abused for being mixed race and religious. Literally picked on everyday, being chased in groups at every recess. Being made fun of by teachers and other kids and my parents did nothing till later on.

3. Nearly be put into special education and told I have anger issues due to the fact that every day was sheer terror to live when I was a child.

4. Being molested as a child which screwed up my growth process and made my sexual orientation volatile.

5. Having abusive parents and a jealous brother with a learning disability who screamed and was always sarcastic to me.

6. Having an overly protective mother who was a cheating catholic hypocrite and smothered me from growing and maturing, trying to tell me who my friends should be.

7. Being an absolute outcast from Elementary all the way to high school, with no friends until the last 3 years.

8. Realizing the illusion that my parents were a good couple being utterly shattered after learning the truth. That since 1999 my mom and dad were divorced and the only reason my father stayed was to take care of me, never telling me till 2014.

9. Have half my family disown me by my mothers hands, who in revenge on my father literally out caste us both. In the process just to spite my father she kicked me out in the middle of winter without notice and physically attacked my father. Nearly having all my closest friends abandon me during that horrible process.

10. Be a virgin and never give into sexual lust, while watching every other person that I hated have wonderful families and blessed children they call their own.

The only thing I really wanted.

This isn't even the tip of the iceberg of all the shit I have had to put up with. How any sane human being can even manage all this means that I'm not a sad story.

I'm the goddamn hero.


That's terrible all you had to go through. This is why I grow irritated with everyone around me having children so easily. The decision to have a child is very serious. Parents should be ready to cast aside what they want for themselves and selfish desires to raise their child. I'm not saying parents should deny themselves what they love and enjoy. But if you don't put all the attention, love, and care your child deserves into the effort of raising them, then you are scum and shouldn't have had kids. Again, sorry for all you went through. Even though your parents sound awful and are scum bags for behaving so irresponsibly, at least they produced and brought you into the world. I could never imagine what all you went through or how it feels, but keep on keeping on because your existance coupled with your life experiences will be a great help to someone else.
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Definitely the last two years of my life. First on May 11, 2014 I stopped to help at a car accident when a speeding drunk plowed through the scene, dragging me and the other two cars about twenty feet. My leg broke in two places and I remained conscious the whole time. It was a hit and run and as he took off he almost got my head under his tires. I had surgery for that and couldn't walk for six months. Here's a couple photos from that (no graphic images shown, just the scene and me in a hospital bed).


Fast forward to March 2015 and I'm walking with a cane and I just landed my first role in a play. Then I ended up slipping on ice and breaking my left foot and tearing a ligament in it. Two more surgeries, another six months without walking, and I had to give up my role in the play.

Fast forward to now, where on the 28th I will have yet another surgery on my leg due to residual complications from the original accident. And there is a chance that I will need ANOTHER one at some point in the future.

For my day to day life, I have panic disorder and a phobia of vomit that makes it hard for me to eat and leave the house. I've lost 25 pounds over the last three months because I've just been too scared to eat in case it made me sick. This has just been the way it is for my whole life.
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dragontackle wrote:
But on the plus side im going to the Air Force so hopefully the military will help me get my outlook on life together!
And to help me get the resources to punish my distant relatives who were supposed to help us out, I will ruin them completely.

Thank you for your impending service, and may God keep you safe.

As for your grudge against your relatives, er....


Sorry, but I dont tolerate Traitors
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Everyone has a fucked up life. Some more than others, it is all relative. I have had many awful things happen to me but at the end of the day, I have a job, a place to live, food, and am still breathing.

The hardest thing for me is death, its final and there is nothing you can do about it.

My older brother overdosed on Cocaine 3 years ago. My best friend just died in a car accident two months ago, and his poor parents were too broken up that I was the one to speak at his funeral. They were the only people I trusted enough to tell everything and I truly felt understood me good and bad. I still listen to voicemails they left me and once in a while I can't help but tear up (I never cry, not that there is anything wrong with it).
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I hear you.
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high school
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Probably when someone let themselves into my workplace and tried to off themself.
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