First  Prev  1  2  3  4  5  Next  Last
How screwed up are you?
Posted 1/23/16 , edited 2/2/16
[Be respectful in this post. Don't make fun of other peoples sufferings]

I'm going to share with you a brief summary of some of the highlights of my wonderful life. I hope you all enjoy reading this.

So, want to know how screwed up I am?

I don't mind being honest.

1. I have light Asperger syndrome which was used against me as a crutch in elementary school. School teachers told me I''d never even get out of high school, which also stunted my intellectual growth. And my parents never even told me till 2014.

2. Being violently and mentally abused for being mixed race and religious. Literally picked on everyday, being chased in groups at every recess. Being made fun of by teachers and other kids and my parents did nothing till later on.

3. Nearly be put into special education and told I have anger issues due to the fact that every day was sheer terror to live when I was a child.

4. Being molested as a child which screwed up my growth process and made my sexual orientation volatile.

5. Having abusive parents and a jealous brother with a learning disability who screamed and was always sarcastic to me.

6. Having an overly protective mother who was a cheating catholic hypocrite and smothered me from growing and maturing, trying to tell me who my friends should be.

7. Being an absolute outcast from Elementary all the way to high school, with no friends until the last 3 years.

8. Realizing the illusion that my parents were a good couple being utterly shattered after learning the truth. That since 1999 my mom and dad were divorced and the only reason my father stayed was to take care of me, never telling me till 2014.

9. Have half my family disown me by my mothers hands, who in revenge on my father literally out caste us both. In the process just to spite my father she kicked me out in the middle of winter without notice and physically attacked my father. Nearly having all my closest friends abandon me during that horrible process.

10. Be a virgin and never give into sexual lust, while watching every other person that I hated have wonderful families and blessed children they call their own.

The only thing I really wanted.

This isn't even the tip of the iceberg of all the shit I have had to put up with. How any sane human being can even manage all this means that I'm not a sad story.

I'm the goddamn hero.
7420 cr points
Send Message: Send PM GB Post
Offline
Posted 1/23/16
Sounds like a fairly traumatic childhood. I can understand where you are coming from. I even share a few of the items on your list, and have a few of my own.

I can tell you that the important part is putting it behind you can making friends. You have to be willing to trust others before you can find that special someone and create your own family.
3426 cr points
Send Message: Send PM GB Post
16 / F
Offline
Posted 1/23/16
Right now, a lot happening. My family and I are dealing with a drug abusing brother that was about to leave the country.
Posted 1/23/16
It's pretty far up there. I've been in various different dark moments in my life where I did not see the point in going on. Something that stands out a lot to me is how often I've ended up in mental institutions. I spent a year or more bedridden and I feel like I've lost a many years.
674 cr points
Send Message: Send PM GB Post
Offline
Posted 1/23/16 , edited 1/23/16
Everyone has their own horror story but it is your choice if you want to keep living that way.

I had a normal childhood for the most part. I faced some bullies, my sister used to hit me when I was a child, I didn't have friends because I was poor and my classmates used to make fun of me because of it. I was even sexually abused by my caretaker when I was 5 (we're both female).

But all that is forgotten and everyone is forgiven so I'm pretty happy with myself and my life right now. I focus on the good things like my mom, my grandparents, my two best friends and I do things I like.

Being an adult gives you the power to shape your mind and future. Don't dwell on the past and on the negative stuff. Forgive your mom, and the people who harmed you because most of the time, people like them are going through a rough time too and having someone to forgive them and show them kindness in spite of their bad actions can change them in a good way. Or just forget them and live your own life.

I know all this because it is my experience. I forgave my sister and now we are like best friends. I forgave my father who left us when I was born, my abuser, my bullies etc. There is one girl who used to make my life hell when I was a kid and now we get along pretty well.

There's no point in keeping all that hate and resentment in your heart because the only one suffering will be you (general you).

[I hope no one gets mad because of what I just said....usually people get mad when you tell them to be positive and look at the good side of things. ]
22663 cr points
Send Message: Send PM GB Post
24 / M / USA
Offline
Posted 1/23/16
Sorry to hear.

I used to fuck myself over.

Eventually you just pick yourself up and walk. It is is accurate to say I used to be screwed up--but I did it to myself like a proper fuckin' dumbass. Didn't have the backstory for it like this.

Posted 1/23/16
Lol xd I never heard of someone getting picked on for being "mixed raced" I myself is mixed race.lele
39056 cr points
Send Message: Send PM GB Post
26 / M / Your friendly nei...
Offline
Posted 1/23/16

PrinceJudar wrote:

Sorry to hear.

I used to fuck myself over.

Eventually you just pick yourself up and walk. It is is accurate to say I used to be screwed up--but I did it to myself like a proper fuckin' dumbass. Didn't have the backstory for it like this.



I can totally under..... wait...... hold up...... when did you transform back into a girl?
22663 cr points
Send Message: Send PM GB Post
24 / M / USA
Offline
Posted 1/23/16

thekevin4 wrote:

I can totally under..... wait...... hold up...... when did you transform back into a girl?


Mmm, couple weeks back actually. I do what I want.



39056 cr points
Send Message: Send PM GB Post
26 / M / Your friendly nei...
Offline
Posted 1/23/16

PrinceJudar wrote:


thekevin4 wrote:

I can totally under..... wait...... hold up...... when did you transform back into a girl?


Mmm, couple weeks back actually. I do what I want.





I can thwips with that... back to being on topic...

To sum it up, pretty much just gotta get over it. Life is a shit sandwich, and most times they don't even bother to give you bread.
2553 cr points
Send Message: Send PM GB Post
18 / M / California
Offline
Posted 1/23/16
Damn, this wasn't the screwed up I thought it was gonna be :/
24577 cr points
Send Message: Send PM GB Post
23 / F / Your Cookie Jar
Offline
Posted 1/23/16 , edited 1/23/16
Yeah lot of sh*t has happened but really everyone has something sh*tty that has happened.

Lets see.. when I was younger my parents were divorced but my mom would still live in and out of our home. When I was 5 I remember when my mom was drunk and my dad and her got in a fight which result with kitchen knives and lots of blood.

When I was about to go to high school I went to live with my mom. I hated living with her and wanted to live back with my dad but our church pastor thought it'd be better for me to stay with my mother. The church didn't know about her drinking and bursts of anger. Throughout my high school years I was sexually abused by her drunk "friends" and physically, mentally, emotionally abused by my mother.

I really hated holidays especially New Years cause my mom would always throw a party and get so wasted and would hurt me if I made eye contact with her. And what do you know? My first boyfriend I had was abusive towards me too, and would hit me whenever he was angry at me. Least I can take a punch, right? I was a loner in high school until my last year where I met some good friends.

I told some of my friends some of the things my mom would do to me and they were shocked a mom would hurt their kid for no reason.

Later my mom got a house up north but I wanted to stay for college so I moved in with my dad. At this point my dad had remarried to a woman named Satan. She never physically hurt me but she was very controlling, bossy, and very emotional talking about her feelings all the time. I really didn't like her and it was hard living with her hoovering over my back telling me what I should do with my life.

To let you know, I'm a very calm easy going kind of person and never had a burst of anger. But one day me and my step mom had a fight. It wasn't like other fights where she'd yell at me and I'd say nothing. This fight I got pissed off and was screaming at her. She got so scared I'd hit her so she grabbed a vase to hit me with. Before it escalated any further I walked out. Later on my step mom told my dad I got angry at her for no reason and got physical with her and tried to hit my baby brother. My dad believed her and I got kicked out.

I don't live with any of my family anymore instead I'm living with my friend's family. They very kind people and I'm very grateful towards them.

I could blame my parents for hurting me or for not believing in me but in the end it doesn't matter anymore. This is my past and I'm gunna keep it there. I'm looking towards my future and no one is gunna stop me.
810 cr points
Send Message: Send PM GB Post
25 / F / Huntsville
Offline
Posted 1/23/16
I had a messed up childhood, from playing alone in kindergarten every day to being bullied by kids and teachers from elementary school to high school. When I was little I was left alone by my mom and stepdad, having trouble adjusting with other kids in the neighborhood and school, sexually assaulted by my sister's friend (she's a female), had drank a bottle of whisky, almost got abused by my stepdad's friend's family member, often mistaken as a little boy, and people took advantage of me. I even watched my family fighting and cursing at each other! All of these events were 20-something years ago and I still remember every single one of them.

I'm still messed up and that's because of my childhood.
Posted 1/23/16

PrinceJudar wrote:

Sorry to hear.

I used to fuck myself over.

Eventually you just pick yourself up and walk. It is is accurate to say I used to be screwed up--but I did it to myself like a proper fuckin' dumbass. Didn't have the backstory for it like this.



Oh Prince Judar, actually putting correct words in context <3.

But I agree none the less. If I would have let my past determine myself now, I wouldn't be alive.

Thanks to all for hearing me out.
Posted 1/23/16 , edited 1/23/16

suhamagirl wrote:

I had a messed up childhood, from playing alone in kindergarten every day to being bullied by kids and teachers from elementary school to high school. When I was little I was left alone by my mom and stepdad, having trouble adjusting with other kids in the neighborhood and school, sexually assaulted by my sister's friend (she's a female), had drank a bottle of whisky, almost got abused by my stepdad's friend's family member, often mistaken as a little boy, and people took advantage of me. I even watched my family fighting and cursing at each other! All of these events were 20-something years ago and I still remember every single one of them.

I'm still messed up and that's because of my childhood.


I hear you on that. I really hate child molesters with a passion, I wish they'd be dead.
First  Prev  1  2  3  4  5  Next  Last
You must be logged in to post.