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Posted 1/23/16

Sammy_Doo wrote:

Yeah lot of sh*t has happened but really everyone has something sh*tty that has happened.

Lets see.. when I was younger my parents were divorced but my mom would still live in and out of our home. When I was 5 I remember when my mom was drunk and my dad and her got in a fight which result with kitchen knives and lots of blood.

When I was about to go to high school I went to live with my mom. I hated living with her and wanted to live back with my dad but our church pastor thought it'd be better for me to stay with my mother. The church didn't know about her drinking and bursts of anger. Throughout my high school years I was sexually abused by her drunk "friends" and physically, mentally, emotionally abused by my mother.

I really hated holidays especially New Years cause my mom would always throw a party and get so wasted and would hurt me if I made eye contact with her. And what do you know? My first boyfriend I had was abusive towards me too, and would hit me whenever he was angry at me. Least I can take a punch, right? I was a loner in high school until my last year where I met some good friends.

I told some of my friends some of the things my mom would do to me and they were shocked a mom would hurt their kid for no reason.

Later my mom got a house up north but I wanted to stay for college so I moved in with my dad. At this point my dad had remarried to a woman named Satan. She never physically hurt me but she was very controlling, bossy, and very emotional talking about her feelings all the time. I really didn't like her and it was hard living with her hoovering over my back telling me what I should do with my life.

To let you know, I'm a very calm easy going kind of person and never had a burst of anger. But one day me and my step mom had a fight. It wasn't like other fights where she'd yell at me and I'd say nothing. This fight I got pissed off and was screaming at her. She got so scared I'd hit her so she grabbed a vase to hit me with. Before it escalated any further I walked out. Later on my step mom told my dad I got angry at her for no reason and got physical with her and tried to hit my baby brother. My dad believed her and I got kicked out.

I don't live with any of my family anymore instead I'm living with my friend's family. They very kind people and I'm very grateful towards them.

I could blame my parents for hurting me or for not believing in me but in the end it doesn't matter anymore. This is my past and I'm gunna keep it there. I'm looking towards my future and no one is gunna stop me.


"Lets see.. when I was younger my parents were divorced but my mom would still live in and out of our home. When I was 5 I remember when my mom was drunk and my dad and her got in a fight which result with kitchen knives and lots of blood. "

Dear god.

And wtf, hern ame was really Satan? WTF

We sound so similar in suffering. Glad I'm not the only one who dealt with this.
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Posted 1/23/16
I think that I am perhaps the sanest person in the world. Others would probably call me insensitive. I have no problems though. I had a drunk somewhat abusive father when I was young, but cancer relieved me of that problem. Aside from that I have no issues.
Posted 1/23/16
I can relate to some of that, on the plus side I didn't turn into my parents.
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Posted 1/23/16
I'm sorry if I sound like an asshole, but the only thing that sounds worse than my childhood is the molestation.... which is terrible.... but I also have my own other fucked up shit I've dealt with.


Basically... you had it rough. Now get some therapy and get over it. You are still ultimately responsible for yourself, now. Sorry if that sounds mean... but it's life.
Posted 1/23/16

HolyDrumstick wrote:

I'm sorry if I sound like an asshole, but the only thing that sounds worse than my childhood is the molestation.... which is terrible.... but I also have my own other fucked up shit I've dealt with.


Basically... you had it rough. Now get some therapy and get over it. You are still ultimately responsible for yourself, now. Sorry if that sounds mean... but it's life.


I am over it. But I wanted to share it.

I don't let the past define me and I don't think that my suffering is the worst at all. I know there are people that are worst off then I am.

But that doesn't mean I want to not speak about it.
Posted 1/23/16

xxJing wrote:

I think that I am perhaps the sanest person in the world. Others would probably call me insensitive. I have no problems though. I had a drunk somewhat abusive father when I was young, but cancer relieved me of that problem. Aside from that I have no issues.


Cancer?
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Posted 1/23/16

WeeabooWarrior wrote:


xxJing wrote:

I think that I am perhaps the sanest person in the world. Others would probably call me insensitive. I have no problems though. I had a drunk somewhat abusive father when I was young, but cancer relieved me of that problem. Aside from that I have no issues.


Cancer?


Yes. He got cancer and died.
Posted 1/23/16
I've talked about it enough with the other duplicate threads. But, let's just say I've been through my fair share of trauma and I'm not a fool that will say I'm the better for it, just made me who I am. Yes, I have demons, and in ways I am my demon. I have trouble sleeping and trouble getting about of bed. It is by no means an easy or charmed life, and I fight with depression and my victory is that I'm still alive.

I also know a thing or two about deadbeat fathers with violence and alcohol involved, and me and my siblings were abused by him and another one that was dating my mother later on, herself being also a victim by father and the guy she was married to before, who died from being shot by some guy.

I struggle with severe clinical depression, and I don't give a shit for charity cases or take shit from anyone. I don't need it, just content with my anime.
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I'm a 34 year old, single, and lives with a cat, who is commenting on CR forums on a Sat night. Thats how screwed up I am.
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Mom was a mentally ill drug addict who took off when I was 11. It was a bad scene. Haven't heard from her in decades. I have trouble letting people get close because of it, especially women.

I've been diagnosed with a lot of different things, most notably PTSD and chronic depression. Those seem right. Sometimes I get super depressed for no obvious reason, and it's hard to shake. Usually loneliness is the root I guess. I'm not good at managing friends/family so I'm not really close to anyone. I don't do medication or anything though, just ride it out. Works for me.

It's been suggested that I might have Aspergers, but I've never been officially diagnosed. I am what I am, don't need a label put on it. I think I'm just strange, and that's fine.

I've done a lot of drugs, but not anymore.

Dad died about a year ago, and that really sucks. Life goes on though.

Those are the highlights. I don't like to pity myself, we all have our problems. I'm mostly content right now.
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Y'all are fantastic beautiful people who deserve respect.
I don't know why our lives and families were so fecked up, but I love hearing people decide to just be themselves. It takes courage.
I think respect is much more than love.
Love without respect is just a sense of entitlement

Stay strong
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Posted 1/25/16

WeeabooWarrior wrote:

[Be respectful in this post. Don't make fun of other peoples sufferings]

I'm going to share with you a brief summary of some of the highlights of my wonderful life. I hope you all enjoy reading this.

So, want to know how screwed up I am?

I don't mind being honest.

1. I have light Asperger syndrome which was used against me as a crutch in elementary school. School teachers told me I''d never even get out of high school, which also stunted my intellectual growth. And my parents never even told me till 2014.

2. Being violently and mentally abused for being mixed race and religious. Literally picked on everyday, being chased in groups at every recess. Being made fun of by teachers and other kids and my parents did nothing till later on.

3. Nearly be put into special education and told I have anger issues due to the fact that every day was sheer terror to live when I was a child.

4. Being molested as a child which screwed up my growth process and made my sexual orientation volatile.

5. Having abusive parents and a jealous brother with a learning disability who screamed and was always sarcastic to me.

6. Having an overly protective mother who was a cheating catholic hypocrite and smothered me from growing and maturing, trying to tell me who my friends should be.

7. Being an absolute outcast from Elementary all the way to high school, with no friends until the last 3 years.

8. Realizing the illusion that my parents were a good couple being utterly shattered after learning the truth. That since 1999 my mom and dad were divorced and the only reason my father stayed was to take care of me, never telling me till 2014.

9. Have half my family disown me by my mothers hands, who in revenge on my father literally out caste us both. In the process just to spite my father she kicked me out in the middle of winter without notice and physically attacked my father. Nearly having all my closest friends abandon me during that horrible process.

10. Be a virgin and never give into sexual lust, while watching every other person that I hated have wonderful families and blessed children they call their own.

The only thing I really wanted.

This isn't even the tip of the iceberg of all the shit I have had to put up with. How any sane human being can even manage all this means that I'm not a sad story.

I'm the goddamn hero.


"Im the goddamn hero." Nice title bruh

Posted 1/25/16 , edited 1/25/16
I'm a nervous/anxious person around random people when I cannot tune my emotions out properly unsure why...

I have an eye that requires me to wear glasses or else I look like I'm going paranoid/insane.

I can barely remember things that I don't care about.

Nothing much else.

Unless you count despising this reality and making people get hurt at times screwed up.

I find it quite normal.

EDIT: You may also consider voices you argue and have conversations with in my head screwed up... Most of the time it is me talking to myself but there are quite common occurrences.
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Posted 1/25/16 , edited 2/2/16

WeeabooWarrior wrote:

[Be respectful in this post. Don't make fun of other peoples sufferings]

I'm going to share with you a brief summary of some of the highlights of my wonderful life. I hope you all enjoy reading this.

So, want to know how screwed up I am?

I don't mind being honest.

1. I have light Asperger syndrome which was used against me as a crutch in elementary school. School teachers told me I''d never even get out of high school, which also stunted my intellectual growth. And my parents never even told me till 2014.

2. Being violently and mentally abused for being mixed race and religious. Literally picked on everyday, being chased in groups at every recess. Being made fun of by teachers and other kids and my parents did nothing till later on.

3. Nearly be put into special education and told I have anger issues due to the fact that every day was sheer terror to live when I was a child.

4. Being molested as a child which screwed up my growth process and made my sexual orientation volatile.

5. Having abusive parents and a jealous brother with a learning disability who screamed and was always sarcastic to me.

6. Having an overly protective mother who was a cheating catholic hypocrite and smothered me from growing and maturing, trying to tell me who my friends should be.

7. Being an absolute outcast from Elementary all the way to high school, with no friends until the last 3 years.

8. Realizing the illusion that my parents were a good couple being utterly shattered after learning the truth. That since 1999 my mom and dad were divorced and the only reason my father stayed was to take care of me, never telling me till 2014.

9. Have half my family disown me by my mothers hands, who in revenge on my father literally out caste us both. In the process just to spite my father she kicked me out in the middle of winter without notice and physically attacked my father. Nearly having all my closest friends abandon me during that horrible process.

10. Be a virgin and never give into sexual lust, while watching every other person that I hated have wonderful families and blessed children they call their own.

The only thing I really wanted.

This isn't even the tip of the iceberg of all the shit I have had to put up with. How any sane human being can even manage all this means that I'm not a sad story.

I'm the goddamn hero.


And yet I don't see you shooting up schools... humans these days.

You are pretty amazing...
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Posted 1/25/16
I'm not messed up at all no sir nope not one iota not one bit zero zilch nada

Can I have a cookie
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