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Nobody in my hometown thinks that I am not a real man. I am poor, I don't have cable tv, instead of "Disney dreams", I need nightmares to teach me a lesson about being a man to be a man? The real reason I keep forgetting things severly and unexpectly is mother fuckers don't want to be seen and they knew what the fuck is going on. If I sacrifice my way to go to college and I find out that I am being set up to fail college behind my back, I get punished for it, I will fucking go the fuck off and tantrum and treat all of the adults in my family like I never heard of them before. My brother told me that we need to learn from failure to sucess, if you get set up to fail, why the fuck would he say that?! I had autism and during 7th and 8th grade, I had trouble paying attention in English class and I was warned by influencial aid that I need to get it done otherwise he will get uoset like I ain't shit, Everybody would be the same way too like I ain't shit.. I did not know what was going on until 2013. I will fucking destroy their shit, if I find out.
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....huh i'm confused.

Seeing you got hit on the lower end of the spectrum...sad i hate that others don't benefit from their Autism like me
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Posted 6/12/16

Ryulightorb wrote:

....huh i'm confused.

Seeing you got hit on the lower end of the spectrum...sad i hate that others don't benefit from their Autism like me :(


How? I sacrificed my specials [as my school calls it] such as art, music, etc.. and I still have no respect.



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According to the double negative rule, you have just stated that everyone in your home town thinks you are a man.

I get what you are trying to say, but you need to learn to say it better. Focus your rage on finding your own path forward and learn to disregard what other people say about you.

Move forward.
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It was hidden to me until just a few weeks ago... I'm very annoyed at some missed opportunities, but at the same time had I known would I have the same chip on my shoulder that keeps me strong or would I have let it dominate me? In my case "fake it until you make it" seems to have worked to an extent yet the economy and my own logic has caused me to stagnate. I'm scared of the place I'm in.

It sucks hard... but my best way forward is to regain my formidable strength and with it my confidence. Perhaps I can carry my family through, but that is likely my own delusion. I'm still going to keep trying even if it is a dream.

Refocus and stay strong. Let the venom become your strength. That's all I can say.
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You're supposed to kill a bear and bring it back to the village.
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s-same
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let me point out - being on the lower end of the autism spectrum doesn't mean there are ANY advantages. It's still an impairment in a social society / world. It makes even simple things very difficult.

If I could be an autistic savant, I would, and I'd use my super-powers for the forces of good, but it doesn't work that way.
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No how many times I sacrifice my way, I never got any goddamn motherfucking respect. I overcame, my positive thoughts are always being invaded by negative thoughts. I accepted no and it muniplated me. Thanks to how things, motherfuckers are now running away from my fucking education like bitches because they know what the fuck is going on and that is causing chaos, i said that because they don't want to fucking admit that they are really full of shit by causing chaos and ran from it. So I'll get my way all the way since no respects me nor give shitting fuck.
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Nobody in my hometown thinks that I am not a real man. I am poor, I don't have cable tv, instead of "Disney dreams", I need nightmares to teach me a lesson about being a man to be a man? The real reason I keep forgetting things severly and unexpectly is mother fuckers don't want to be seen and they knew what the fuck is going on. If I sacrifice my way to go to college and I find out that I am being set up to fail college behind my back, I get punished for it, I will fucking go the fuck off and tantrum and treat all of the adults in my family like I never heard of them before. My brother told me that we need to learn from failure to sucess, if you get set up to fail, why the fuck would he say that?! I had autism and during 7th and 8th grade, I had trouble paying attention in English class and I was warned by influencial aid that I need to get it done otherwise he will get uoset like I ain't shit, Everybody would be the same way too like I ain't shit.. I did not know what was going on until 2013. I will fucking destroy their shit, if I find out.


Orrrr you can say "fuck it", find what makes you happy and then be the master of your own destiny by pursuing what brings you peace. Everyone around you is speaking from their own experience and will give you advice accordingly. It's up to you whether or not that advice is right for you. Because nobody knows you like you. Just be humble and appreciative but do what's best for you.
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All you can really do is deal with it. Remember that autism doesn't define your whole existence it's just a disability you have. You might have to work harder than everyone else and might need medicines to help focus but if that's what you have to do then it's what you have to do.

My younger brother has mild autism and we just do what we can. I'm not sure if we'll ever be able to trust him with driving given his focus problems and occasional temper issues. But again all you can do if what you can do and not worry too much about things that just can't it won't happen.

Also try to use normal english more and not cursing every other word. I know you're upset but talking like that won't earn you any respect. If anything it will make people see you even more as an uncontrollable child.
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I can't even imagine how awful that must be. It sounds like you've been treated really badly by people who haven't made much effort to understand your experience.

I've gone ahead and moved this to the Chit Chat forum, since this is very much a personal thread, and threads with a strong personal focus about one's self belong there rather than in General Discussion, even if the topic is more serious and less "chatty."
Posted 6/18/16
I think you should try and do what you can, that is all anyone can do right? If you can't manage college then it doesn't matter, do what you can
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