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Yall' nid a spiritual figure to guide yer lost soul! SMH,fam.
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Not particularly. Sure, if it is to happen I really have nothing against it, but I am not actively feeling like dying either.

In a pretty good spot right now, so why waste it?
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I want to die early . But that doesn't mean I'm suicidal. Doesn't mean I can die soon too. My life is fine.
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I don't particularly want to, but should it happen there isn't much I can do about it.
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I don't know. Maybe. It wouldn't be too bad if that were to happen. I definitely do not intend to commit suicide, as it is too difficult to properly pull off. I hate getting involved in things that contain certain risks.
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I really just don't care. If I died in some painlessly quick accident, I'd accept it. If I got diagnosed with a terminal illness, I'd accept it. I wouldn't do anything to make it happen on purpose, but rather let it just come to me when it does.

To fully answer the question, however, yes. I do secretly hope I will die soon (watch out, we got an edgy edgelord here), but I doubt it'd by suicide.

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well i don't wanna grow old so...
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VeggyZ wrote:


Ryulightorb wrote:

Curious for me I secretly wish I could die in the next 5 years anyone else


Why would you want to die? You don't know what's going to come after that. You don't really have all that long to stay alive on earth, you should probably make the most of it.

That's my take. You're way too young to be wanting to die. What if you only get one shot? Then you're fucked. Is life really that unpleasant for you? I promise when you get older and realize you have less and less time left, you'll be baffled by this mindset.

I used to think about dying and suicide. I'm manic-depressive bipolar, have PTSD and generalized anxiety disorder (thanks to drugs from doctors) and supposedly neurotic, though I REALLY don't agree with that, though I suppose a lot of those go hand in hand and it used to be more true than today. I grew up with no friends at all and I legitimately hated life and pretty much everyone around me. I thought about that stuff all the time - but now? I still don't have many of the things I never did have and I am not living large - but I've learned to cherish life.

It's unthinkable. I think it would suck to die. Not one thing about it seems pleasant to me. I guess people are just desensitized to things like this now, thanks to the media.

I would sooner turn to drug addictions intentionally to relieve my "pains" - over death.


I have a lot of problems between brain damage being unable to reach my dreams and a lot of other shit life is torture.

I can only hope I die since I'm way too scared to commit suicide...case in point seeing as I'm in the psych ward at my towns hospital as we speak
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No! Me and death are no longer on speaking terms. Plus the jerk cheats at bowling so screw him!!!

May I ask why you wish to die within the next 5 years? I know that most people who are depressed and think about suicide do so because they're tired of the pain and want relief but one cannot get that peace if one's dead. I don't know your particular circumstances but I hope you'll go talk to a professional about this. There is a lot of beauty in the world if you allow yourself the chance to see it.

Also I would like to share story with you that I post ALOT. It has to do with magic. You see when I was younger I was really into the occult and enjoyed reading about magic, secret societies, etc. I was particularly fond of the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn and thought the parallel on how so many of these supposed occult magi were said to wield enormous power and yet most of them died penniless drug addicts like Aleister Crowley lol. But still the thought of magic intrigued me. Who wouldn't like to perform a spell to get rid of their troubles? So I read everything I could find and absolutely nothing worked. Of course I was severely limited because I'm not climbing some obscure mountain, erecting a altar up there, facing a certain direction and chanting some gibberish while the moon is triangulated with freaking Libra. Surely there has to be some simpler magic out there? It took me years and years before I finally found an actual spell that has an enormous amount of power. It's a spell that anyone can do and it works. All you need is a mirror. The time of day or night is not important and you just simply face the mirror and say these three magical words: "I love you."

That's all there is to it and you will be surprised at how effective it is. The more often you use that magic the more powerful it becomes. I was kicking myself for wasting so many years searching for what had been in front of me the whole time. I know it sounds cheesy but trust me it's actually pretty important. Learning to love yourself is the first step towards learning to interact with and love others. It makes everything else possible. Good luck to you. I hope whatever circumstances are contributing to you feeling this way will change. If they don't change then try to change them yourself. Don't be afraid to grab life by the horns and give it everything you've got. You owe yourself the chance at happiness. We all deserve to be happy.
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I worry about you people. I really do.
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ZavinRoyalheart wrote:

I worry about you people. I really do.


I have doubts about that. It's a little hard to worry about people you don't know and who you would most likely never notice their disappearing.

But I don't see what there is to worry about anyway.
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ZavinRoyalheart wrote:

I worry about you people. I really do.


I have doubts about that. It's a little hard to worry about people you don't know and who you would most likely never notice their disappearing.

But I don't see what there is to worry about anyway.


I've made a great many friends on this site. I'd rather them live a long while. I worry about people in general. You can doubt all you want but in the end it doesn't really matter what you think now does it?
Now I'm having trouble expressing just how angry you've made me so I think I'll just leave that to the imagination.
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TheOriginalStraynge wrote:
I was kicking myself for wasting so many years searching for what had been in front of me the whole time. I know it sounds cheesy but trust me it's actually pretty important. Learning to love yourself is the first step towards learning to interact with and love others. It makes everything else possible. Good luck to you. I hope whatever circumstances are contributing to you feeling this way will change. If they don't change then try to change them yourself. Don't be afraid to grab life by the horns and give it everything you've got. You owe yourself the chance at happiness. We all deserve to be happy.


Ryu ^ This is bloody good advice.

Now, let me level with you. For around half my life, on and off I've struggled with depression, anxiety, eating disorders and at one stage even drug abuse. I couldn't possibly tell you why - I have a nice life, and always have done really. There are problems - but who doesn't have those? My self esteem varies wildly day to day. Crucially, I have never felt I can really talk about things, or how I feel... partly because I'm convinced people will tell me I'm being dramatic (The curse of the actor).

Last August, I hit what I thought was rock bottom. I'd been having suicidal thoughts and for the first time ever, wasn't sure whether or not they were just thoughts. It sounds like a contradiction - but I didn't want to die... so finally went to speak to my doctor to ask for some help (I refuse to take pills). I waited for help, and tried to keep my head above water. Then, in November my partner left me - he'd never told me he loved me, and had decided he never would. He'd had enough of me hating myself. You don't need the details - but it was hard, and I was in an extremely bad place. I've distracted myself with work for months. Finally, around 6 weeks ago, I was referred to a therapist - CBT. I'm 6 sessions in, and whilst it's hard to know how things will be when I have another dip (and there will be one), I am already feeling more positive about myself. Like mentioned above, it's about redefining your rules, and perceptions of things. It's about listening to the good and not just focusing on the bad. Now, you obviously don't seem to have an issue talking about this stuff - you're very vocal. That's a start. Don't do what so many of us do, and wait 10+ years to deal with how you feel - Please please see a professional about this - you do not have to feel this way.

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ZavinRoyalheart wrote:


justanotherguy_2005 wrote:


ZavinRoyalheart wrote:

I worry about you people. I really do.


I have doubts about that. It's a little hard to worry about people you don't know and who you would most likely never notice their disappearing.

But I don't see what there is to worry about anyway.


I've made a great many friends on this site. I'd rather them live a long while. I worry about people in general. You can doubt all you want but in the end it doesn't really matter what you think now does it?
Now I'm having trouble expressing just how angry you've made me so I think I'll just leave that to the imagination.


How about:
Posted 6/19/16

ZavinRoyalheart wrote:


justanotherguy_2005 wrote:


ZavinRoyalheart wrote:

I worry about you people. I really do.


I have doubts about that. It's a little hard to worry about people you don't know and who you would most likely never notice their disappearing.

But I don't see what there is to worry about anyway.


I've made a great many friends on this site. I'd rather them live a long while. I worry about people in general. You can doubt all you want but in the end it doesn't really matter what you think now does it?
Now I'm having trouble expressing just how angry you've made me so I think I'll just leave that to the imagination.


It doesn't indeed. And yes, I think I will continue to doubt it. What I said wasn't intended to make you or anyone mad though. Just stating an opinion we clearly disagree on and as you say it is an opinion that doesn't matter so do try not to get too mad over it.
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