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Did you ever try to kill yourself?
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Kerst wrote:

I tried with pills once I got some from a girl I knew took them and drank some alchohol I didn't take enough or drink enough apparently because I fell asleep and eventually woke up hours later.
Of course this if the first time I have ever mentioned the time I tried with pills.


You had better results with them than I did then. I was in misery for a week afterwards and had to just pretend like I was sick for other reasons so that nobody would know. How many times have you attempted it?


If I had better results it would have worked I'm sure.
Twice first the pills then the wrists.
I somewhat fear it the next time I may try it as my emotions and I don't know why have been the worst they have ever been anything that hurts me emotionally will nearly break me, when before I could easily forget it or shrug it off even a few hours ago I spent a hour in the shower crying just so no one would hear me after seeing a picture from a super old relationship in my belongings that was cut in half as it was one of the only things I had from that relationship so that picture it was dear to me.
Being bi-polar doesn't help but my emotions are so raw lately I only sleep 3 hours a day at most I feel weaker than I ever have so thinks just constantly are building up apparently because I never just endlessly cry every week, maybe like once or twice a year but not every other fucking day.


Sorry to hear. I'm not nearly as comforting to people as I used to be. I've kinda been mostly empty for a long time now but if you ever are at a point where you wanna scrape the bottom of the barrel and talk to me about things feel free. Are you getting help or taking anything for the bi-polar? How many people around you do you let know about this stuff?
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Doing a suicide will just make all your relatives sad, especially siblings, parents and close friends. It'll cause never ending trauma to them.

I can see why some people might want to do it but in my opininion suicide is such a waste to do. There's still so much fun and interesting stuff to do in the world and you'll miss it all by wasting all your remaining years.

I ain't gonna game over myself before I get the world in order. Join my evil army and I promise great things to happen.


Spot the normie, guys.
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Thanks but not really for me to talk it out and almost no one I don't want other people to bear my problems incase they get hurt also. My mom knew and I take depression pills they just don't help. But that's about it my girlfriend didn't even know the night I cut my wrists and went to the hospital she didn't know and now that we are not together she never will.
I can't see burdening peopling with my issues because it will emotionally drain them like it does me. I can fake smil;e and laugh very well long enough until I can get somewhere alone.
Posted 7/16/16 , edited 7/16/16

ComboChrist wrote:


evilLaughing wrote:

Doing a suicide will just make all your relatives sad, especially siblings, parents and close friends. It'll cause never ending trauma to them.

I can see why some people might want to do it but in my opininion suicide is such a waste to do. There's still so much fun and interesting stuff to do in the world and you'll miss it all by wasting all your remaining years.

I ain't gonna game over myself before I get the world in order. Join my evil army and I promise great things to happen.


Spot the normie, guys.


Judging from the endless suidical/depression/how well you can act normie -posts I can say with confidence I am the abnormal guy here.

Join the evil army to find a purpose for your life you pesky emos.
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No, I'm not the issue the world is.


^^^^^^^^
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Thanks but not really for me to talk it out and almost no one I don't want other people to bear my problems incase they get hurt also. My mom knew and I take depression pills they just don't help. But that's about it my girlfriend didn't even know the night I cut my wrists and went to the hospital she didn't know and now that we are not together she never will.
I can't see burdening peopling with my issues because it will emotionally drain them like it does me. I can fake smil;e and laugh very well long enough until I can get somewhere alone.


Understandable. Since you are already taking pills for depression though it wouldn't hurt to let the doctor who prescribed them know that they aren't working right? I'd like to try and convince you to let people know but...I've shoved everyone away myself so I can't really come up with a non-hypocritical argument for it.
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They are not doctor prescibed they are over the counter.
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Kerst wrote:

They are not doctor prescibed they are over the counter.


Oh. I didn't know there were OTC medicines for depression. In that case...uh...carry on?
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EichiXIII wrote:


Kerst wrote:

They are not doctor prescibed they are over the counter.


Oh. I didn't know there were OTC medicines for depression. In that case...uh...carry on?


since I have some aparently there are. Carry on with what?
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Kerst wrote:


EichiXIII wrote:


Kerst wrote:

They are not doctor prescibed they are over the counter.


Oh. I didn't know there were OTC medicines for depression. In that case...uh...carry on?


since I have some aparently there are. Carry on with what?


Carry on as in as you were...continue with what you were doing. I no longer have any ideas to help your situation at all and so I simply have to hope for the best.
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Ahahahah. You have no power to say that to my face you foolish one.

On the serious note, I've been here two days and the community seems absolutily horrible and unapproachable. Mods really gotta stand up with some new rules or reinforce the old ones. Is there even any paid mods keeping the place in order?

1. No politics

2. No religion

3. Be civil

4. Less weird shit

5. No sharing own personal problems, internet forums aren't the right place for it. There's plenty better places for it.

Honestly, just scroll around a bit in the "general", horrible. It might be the general threads forum but there really should be someone filtering it, the forums are supposed to be for all ages starting from age 13.
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I use to have suicidal thoughts in the past because I was doing very poorly in school plus I had family problems (with parents) and back then I didn't have a lot of friends, and was often lonely. Back then, my only happiness was playing video games on the computer, and watching TV shows, movies, and anime.

However that has all changed. Life is now great for me. I still did poor in school, but I have gotten my highschool diploma, gotten many more friends, doing a lot more things that I haven't done before, and just enjoying life. I still have family issues (parents fighting w each other, money problems, etc). It does bother me at times, but in the future I hope everything will be resolved. It's not worth commiting suicide over it. I feel like I have a life now, because I don't play as much video games as I use to now, due to the fact studying for final exams made me play video games less.

In a way Im kinda sad that highschool is over cuz I met a lot of great people. Im taking a year off before going to college / university so I have a feeling I'll be depressed cuz I don't think I'lll socialize enough, but hopefully getting a job will fix that.

Guys, seriously tho, suicide is not the answer. Things WILL get better.
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At some point, I really wanted to try. But, then I thought it will not make the people around me happy.
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Yes.... I attempted to twice 4 years ago. Once I was going to slice my arm open but couldn't go through with it. The second time a few months latter I tried to hang myself after a few mins of thinking on whether or not to jump, I decided not to because if I did I wouldn't have been to see all the new movies and anime that was coming out and I didn't want to miss it. To this day I never stopped wanting to be dead but I just can't bring myself to do the deed. Some stuff has happened recently that started me up again and I've been debating on if it's even worth staying alive just to watch my shows anymore.
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