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I want to apologize to everyone
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I'm sorry to all those who i have upset or hurt and flipped out at i owe alot of you apologies because of the way i have acted over the last few years.

I'm dealing with alot of problems mostly with one that my Abusive ex pointed out that i seem to switch personalities alot and that has lead to hurting others because i want to help people and don't like seeing pain i want everyone to be happy and at peace.

I want my friends by my side and i want to stay next to the ones i love.

However there is a part of me that sometimes i just lose all empathy and want to hurt others and cause pain and strife i usually end up manipulating people or hurting them badly or inflicting damage onto myself mentally.
I have done some awful stuff whilst like this even pulling weapons on people i love.

I try not to post or talk to people when i get like that but i don't really have much control over it.
I hurt someone i see as a friend Drozy because i shared stuff i promised to never share because i wanted to cause pain and despair and suffering to someone in particular it wasn't till later when i was myself again that i broke down and hated myself to my core.

Thing is though as much as i hate myself for hurting people my friends and ex etc only part of me is sad the part of me that acts like that feels no pain and enjoys it.

I'm convinced something is wrong with me im seeing a proffesional but i want to apologize for all the people i have wronged.

Yesterday i found out that my Friend Nasirei had deleted her whole existance online and for the first time in my life i felt all of me felt sadness even the side that enjoys others suffering and my suffering.

After not eating and sleeping for 18 hours and forcing myself to eat i have been thinking about how i have hurt people and upset others and i want to publically apologize even if it makes me look like a complete fool and insane person.

I'll probably go sleep for another 10 or so hours now.
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wait what?

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I hope you really are getting help if you are depressed like that. Is this really related to crunchyroll though? Was it forum related?
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Posted 9/6/16
Something went down?
Did you go to 7/11?
There you could crash for some burgers or gas station hot dogs.
Posted 9/6/16
Naw nasirei left?
Posted 9/6/16
As The Crunchyroll Turns.
Posted 9/6/16

GooseMcDucks wrote:

Something went down?
Did you go to 7/11?
There you could crash for some burgers or gas station hot dogs.


The 7/11s here have a deal for a Big Gulp and a Hot Dog for just 2 dollars. And all the chili sauce you want
Posted 9/6/16

KennethKenstar wrote:


GooseMcDucks wrote:

Something went down?
Did you go to 7/11?
There you could crash for some burgers or gas station hot dogs.


The 7/11s here have a deal for a Big Gulp and a Hot Dog for just 2 dollars. And all the chili sauce you want


Can you sit there and just eat chilli?
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Wait nasirei left?
Sure its not about a time-off or a timeout?

but s/he said there was some depression, and the disliking towards who s/he is as a person with different likings or views, then those around s/he.
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I hope you get the help you need and that things will get better
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Posted 9/6/16
How sad . I hope that saying and admitting as well as apologizing helps a bit ^_^
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Venting on a forum isn't so uncommon, but take care to not make others miserable just because you are miserable.
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Posted 9/6/16
Nah, up yours d-bag!!! Haha jk I dont know you and you probably wouldnt offend me.
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