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I do have depression and anxiety, although i dont imagine that mine is as bad as other peoples, so i always try to help others with mental illnesses
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PrinceJudar wrote:
It's hard. I ended my school life and now I'm entering a new phase. This is my first year working full time, and it seems to be going well so far, but my mental state is kicking up a storm because of the changes. Despite my efforts of trying to keep it as routine as possible. While I was in university--I could skip classes and study the way that worked for me. That ability to stay home and work my ass off isn't as much of an option anymore. Some of the issues I wasn't forced to address before are now cropping up on me.


Yeah, I worked third shift for years because it let me avoid all the noise and tomfoolery of office politics. Ground my health down but hey, at least I didn't have to deal with middle management and "team building" exercises. Though I still got poor marks on my annual reviews for not being a team player on my private time. IE I would get dinged on my reviews for not attending out of office functions like bowling night and shit.

Why yes, I mean, I work full time 11p-8am shifts handling emergency calls for dead bodies but I would just love to get out of bed at my equivalent of 3am to come hang out with 20 people I barely know at a bowling alley.



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My social issues are becoming a major frustration and source of anxiety (new social situations) at work. I've been trying to "tough it out" and simply force myself through these challenges of mine, but I seem to only consume alcohol and stim a fuckton. I've been going to therapy but communication has been rough. I just end up scratching or flapping my arms in frustration when trying to express my stress. Then end up surrendering a: "I don't want to talk about it".


Ah yes, the arm things. I know that one well. I tried to tough it out much longer than I should have. But it never occurred to me that it was my mental health eroding instead of my physical health. I was just trapped in a cycle of work, sleep, work, sleep, work, sleep like a zombie for a number of years. I probably would have kept on for a couple more years yet had I not been forcibly promoted and removed from third shift to supervisor on day shifts. That triggered my complete collapse and its taken, geez, I don't know. 3 years or so of therapy, meds, etc to get me back to being this functional. Which is not very functional at all.

I function within a 3 block radius long as no one makes any sudden movements or noises. ;p



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At least I'm making money and can move out soon. I'm just dealing like everybody else. Hope you're alright. Shit ain't easy.


Well, just don't push it too far. I worked my ass off for over a decade in one of the most difficult/miserable jobs there is and have nothing to show for it financially because of the resulting medical expenses from my break down. Drained my life savings away bit by bit. I have my disability pension now but its not what you would call Vegas money. -.-

Heck, I owe CR there. I discovered CR when I was bed ridden from the pain and the doctor's haven't figured out wtf was wrong with me yet. Binge watching things on a tablet got me through a number of seriously dark nights.


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But it never occurred to me that it was my mental health eroding instead of my physical health.


Yep. Feel yah. I went full throttle hypochondriac for awhile. I got a ton of blood testing done within half a year. I was dead set thinkin' I was physically ill--but really it was my psychology eating at my body. Climatically led up to having a panic attack in the urgent care where I was convinced someone lit me on fire as I suddenly experienced searing pain all over. That poor nurse I was yellin' at though. I knew I had an attack, but again, I was assuming everything was physical.


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Well, just don't push it too far. I worked my ass off for over a decade in one of the most difficult/miserable jobs there is and have nothing to show for it financially because of the resulting medical expenses from my break down. Drained my life savings away bit by bit. I have my disability pension now but its not what you would call Vegas money. -.-

Heck, I owe CR there. I discovered CR when I was bed ridden from the pain and the doctor's haven't figured out wtf was wrong with me yet. Binge watching things on a tablet got me through a number of seriously dark nights.


Yeah my therapist is telling me the same. I might work where I am for a while and then maybe look for something that's even more routine...and where I don't have to deal with clients or new situations. I figure i can maybe get into one of the big motor companies around here after a couple years if things don't get easier. For now I want to try and push through and see if I can find a way to cope with my shortcomings. Even if it means writing down what I want to say to a client prior. Maybe even learn extra on my off time to make up for my inability to handle social...anything really.

My workplace hasn't a clue about my issues, obviously, but anyone with a set of eyes can figure out shit ain't right with me. They've been trying to ease me into things. I know I can improve on communicating, but I don't know if it'll be enough.

Sometimes I go nonverbal and end up just pointing at a notepad I carry with me-- maybe saying keywords. Am I trying to telepathically communicate? The fuck am I doing?

The internet in general sure damn helps. Don't like to think where I'd be without it. Typing and reading is much, much easier for me.

CR is pretty damn cool like that.

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Posted 9/30/16 , edited 9/30/16

PrinceJudar wrote:


runec wrote:

But it never occurred to me that it was my mental health eroding instead of my physical health.


Yep. Feel yah. I went full throttle hypochondriac for awhile. I got a ton of blood testing done within half a year. I was dead set thinkin' I was physically ill--but really it was my psychology eating at my body. Climatically led up to having a panic attack in the urgent care where I was convinced someone lit me on fire as I suddenly experienced searing pain all over. That poor nurse I was yellin' at though. I knew I had an attack, but again, I was assuming everything was physical.


runec wrote:
Well, just don't push it too far. I worked my ass off for over a decade in one of the most difficult/miserable jobs there is and have nothing to show for it financially because of the resulting medical expenses from my break down. Drained my life savings away bit by bit. I have my disability pension now but its not what you would call Vegas money. -.-

Heck, I owe CR there. I discovered CR when I was bed ridden from the pain and the doctor's haven't figured out wtf was wrong with me yet. Binge watching things on a tablet got me through a number of seriously dark nights.


Yeah my therapist is telling me the same. I might work where I am for a while and then maybe look for something that's even more routine...and where I don't have to deal with clients or new situations. I figure i can maybe get into one of the big motor companies around here after a couple years if things don't get easier. For now I want to try and push through and see if I can find a way to cope with my shortcomings. Even if it means writing down what I want to say to a client prior. Maybe even learn extra on my off time to make up for my inability to handle social...anything really.

My workplace hasn't a clue about my issues, obviously, but anyone with a set of eyes can figure out shit ain't right with me. They've been trying to ease me into things. I know I can improve on communicating, but I don't know if it'll be enough.

Sometimes I go nonverbal and end up just pointing at an empty notepad I carry with me-- maybe saying keywords. Am I trying to telepathically communicate? The fuck am I doing?

The internet in general sure damn helps. Don't like to think where I'd be without it. Typing and reading is much, much easier for me.

CR is pretty damn cool like that.



How can I thumbs up a comment outside youtube or Facebook?

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How can I thumbs up a comment outside youtube or Facebook?



Hmm, CR seems to have a rating system for posts in the bottom right corner but I don't think it actually...does anything.



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PrinceJudar wrote:


T1mered wrote:

How can I thumbs up a comment outside youtube or Facebook?



Hmm, CR seems to have a rating system for posts in the bottom right corner but I don't think it actually...does anything.





Well, I'vev just done it. I have some things to add, but I've done it on the insanity tpc. So it would be redundant to do so.

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My psychologist apparently diagnosed me with OCD concerning Japanese and contact with human skin.

Gotta love having a rumbling stomach and flinching every time Japanese audio comes on or when someone touches me, even myself. Hell, I can make my stomach rumble at will if I concentrate on imagining them- how about that, lol.

These were prob the most prevalent for the past couple years.
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suicidal depression, severe OCD, anxiety, and trichotillomania

all professionally diagnosed
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I think people disclose way too much personal information on CR
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