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What was your lowest point in life? By this I mean... the time in which you've felt at your lowest. Based off your emotions when do you think you felt as if you reached your lowest point?

I'm not sure if I want to say much as I do have a slightly fear of people bashing me for posting my thoughts (example would be... someone saying that I'm petty for it or something similar) so maybe I'll edit in my answer later on.

But I'm curious to know as what do you think was your lowest point? Why do you think you felt that way during the moment?

Bonus: What did you do to get out of that lowest point?

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LunaTakimoto wrote:

What was your lowest point in life? By this I mean... the time in which you've felt at your lowest. Based off your emotions when do you think you felt as if you reached your lowest point?

I'm not sure if I want to say much as I do have a slightly fear of people bashing me for posting my thoughts (example would be... someone saying that I'm petty for it or something similar) so maybe I'll edit in my answer later on.

But I'm curious to know as what do you think was your lowest point? Why do you think you felt that way during the moment?

Bonus: What did you do to get out of that lowest point?



I can think of two points, they were both low, but in different ways.
First one was when my first gf dumped me. I know I'm being lame for it, but that was the most sadness I ever felt. I loved her a lot, but she was my first and I didn't know how to be a good bf so I kinda deserved it.

Anyway, my second lowest was a few months ago, when I felt sad, depressed I would even say. But at some point it got so bad... like I felt as if there was no longer any escape, I felt like I'll be depressed forever and it'll only get worse until at some point, even though I'm against it, I'll even consider suicide. That was a scary feeling, it only lasted a few hours, I'm not saying I'm completely better, but in all the general depression and or anxiety, that moment was sudden, and scary.

I know either one or both of these things might sound silly to others, but that's what I saw as my lowest points. I guess what I learned from them is that it can always get better again, I wish I could think this when I'm actually down
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Right now in this moment actually. It's not really big, but I haven't done much really. So, last year my friend and I were getting really close, we were very intimate with each other. We cuddled, we played around a bit in her bed, yet we weren't officially together. I ended up asking her out and she said no. Now, I really don't know how to go about things. I still have feelings for her and I really don't want to see anyone else but her. I'm considering being single for a while, maybe there is chance even though she specifically said no. I never liked a girl as much as I like her, so is really hard for me to move on.

I know is not all that to be considered a low point in my life, but I really haven't done much so far.
Posted 2/14/17
Hmm in all honesty my sophomore year of highschool was a complete mess in all honesty. I 100% fell into depression and just didn't care about anything anymore and sadly I am still trying to recover from it in all honesty. It just lingers there in the back of my mind. Anyway I truly have no clue what the cause was in all honesty.

I only have 2 assumptions my first one was this brain/medical issue I had my freshman year of high school.

My brain literally crashed like a computer but was able to boot back up and repair itself lol. I mean I lost my memory and couldn't even speak for almost a good 30-40 minutes all I could say was the letter B. Since that day I have been in the hospital a few times for constant brain/medical issues and have headaches 24/7 every single day of my life (still happening) with no cause or reason to be found. So go figure lol but reason why I suspect that was the reason was because my whole attitude changed and my whole entire thinking changed as well after everything was said and done. It was like I was a 100% different person in all honesty.

Second reason was the fact I was transgender (The brain/medical issue didn't cause me to want to change my gender lol. I have actually been thinking this since I was in first/second grade lol, just didn't tell a single person, since I thought it was normal/a phase but never went away at all) anyway I was a sophomore in high school and was a bit upset that well I was still a guy and nothing was being done and the fact that I was afraid of telling my parents that I was transgender and that I wanted to change my gender was 100% nerve wrecking and was 100% afraid of what they would say or do in all honesty. So kept it hidden until they forced it out of me but then things weren't all that great still and they where a bit upset at first & thought I was only looking for attention but then took me to a therapist and became 100% accepting of me when I was confirmed I was 100% transgender.

Only thing is like I said my depression can be from 1 of those 2 reasons or both reasons but it still lingers around in all honesty. Plus to top it off having adhd as well isn't that much of a help either in all honesty. Plus the fact I still have headaches 24/7 and my brain is like a ticking time bombing waiting to blow, well yeah lol anyone would be in all honesty.

Anyway my lowest point was truly my sophomore year of high school when I fell 100% into depression stopped talking to all my friends, started getting bad grades, failed 2 classes, dropped stuff, changed schools, and even said extremely mean things to my parents a few times even out in public. So was a complete mess.

Only good thing was my senior year I did a complete 180 got good grades (passed classes with A's, even made up/passed the classes I failed even though my school counselor said I wouldn't be able to), tried to making amends with my old friends, and was a bit more happier of a person.

Today I still have a long way to go in all honesty. It wasn't until the start of last year I tried making friends again or well talking to people and truly grateful for all the friends I have made within just 1 year and my personality has made a complete turn around as well lol.

So I still have a long way to go. Am I happy with my life yet? nope not at all but I am trying my best and giving it my all to make it better. There is a few times I fall back into old ways but always try my best to climb back out of it the best I can. Also live by the rule everything will eventually get better no matter how long it takes. So I am more of a optimistic person as well. Though my brain is still ticking time bomb lol but blah doesn't phase em anymore just go about my day and ignore it. Anyway that's about it lol. Sorry for a long read lol.
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I wanted to say when I lost my best friend and my leg in Iraq to an IED. But it was 4 months later when I sitting in a Hospital room and telling the doctor to end life support and let my mother die. After that double whammy life has been nothing but rainbow farting kittens in comparison
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Hmm. My lowest point was somewhere around late high school through college. I wasn't aware I had depression at the time (as I wasn't suicidal) I lost weight and fell pretty ill--blacking out at times. I had no friends and my parents became increasingly frustrated with my closed off behavior to the point I was climatically shouted at that I was a "rude, nasty person that no one in the house wants to be around". I started rocking and repeating phrases as typical--and so they threatened me with a mental institution. My anxiety was out of hand as it had been most of my life, but it was pointedly worse. My hands and feet were so cold I'd wear multiple gloves and socks around the house. I felt physically ill most of the time--especially to my stomach. Gagging each morning and sometimes vomiting. Headaches quite consistently. My hands shook frequently throughout the day. I started attempting to figure out what was wrong with me--assuming it was blood sugar--something physical so I could ascertain to myself I wasn't 'crazy'. I had various blood tests done and I went to different specialists. I ripped up referrals to both psychologists and neurologists. I ripped up scripts for SSRI's. A couple times I ended up in urgent care--listening to my heart race or pound so loudly in my head I was convinced I was going to die. One visit I screamed at a nurse I was on fire and repeated "put my feet up" before promptly blacking out. I didn't figure out I was having panic attacks.

"Man's Search for Meaning" by Viktor E. Frankl is what I credit to helping me get out of the depression (something I had for years unaware). I also now routinely go to therapy (I finally went in) behind the backs of my parents where I am now getting help for my diagnosed Autism Spectrum Disorder and Anxiety Disorder. I've been steadily improving in my management with the information provided on my autistic idiosyncrasies and some medication/therapy for my anxiety (as opposed to drinking and 'toughing it out'). To be clear, I'm a happy crazy little fucker now.

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The year was 1999 everyone was partying like the Prince song said. I had just entered college and met the love of my life let's call her Hanna. I was on cloud nine the happiest I'd been in my life so far in my short 19 years. One night we where driving back to the dorms after a movie and where hit in the passenger side by a drunk driver. I made it out miraculously without a scratch just a bit sore from the impact, Hanna however was not so lucky it struck her straight on and she was DOA by the time they got her to the hospital. I wept like a baby for days after that, second guessing myself was it my fault did I not watch the road closely enough even if the drunk guy ran a red light? Should I have been in the passenger seat? Losing the love of my life I stopped living life, I hit rock bottom after that my grades fell and I stopped going to class, the only thing I did for months was go the the local 7-11 and ate gas station hot dogs as the tears flowed down my face. Slowly but surely I learned to love again after years Hanna still holds a place in my heart but gas station hot dogs taught me how to love again their delicious taste and tantalizing aroma changed me for the better.
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The year was 1999 everyone was partying like the Prince song said. I had just entered college and met the love of my life let's call her Hanna. I was on cloud nine the happiest I'd been in my life so far in my short 19 years. One night we where driving back to the dorms after a movie and where hit in the passenger side by a drunk driver. I made it out miraculously without a scratch just a bit sore from the impact, Hanna however was not so lucky it struck her straight on and she was DOA by the time they got her to the hospital. I wept like a baby for days after that, second guessing myself was it my fault did I not watch the road closely enough even if the drunk guy ran a red light? Should I have been in the passenger seat? Losing the love of my life I stopped living life, I hit rock bottom after that my grades fell and I stopped going to class, the only thing I did for months was go the the local 7-11 and ate gas station hot dogs as the tears flowed down my face. Slowly but surely I learned to love again after years Hanna still holds a place in my heart but gas station hot dogs taught me how to love again their delicious taste and tantalizing aroma changed me for the better.


Dude that's rough. Those pains get better but they never go away
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Heroin addiction, i literally died a few times, stole from every one i saw a knew, mentally fucked up my family, and watched lots of my "friends" die. theres a couple years of my life i can barley remember i was so fucked up all the time. dope sick everyday, puking and shitting. It was miserable. But even if i could go back in time id do it all the same, the struggle is what made me who i am today.
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Lowest point in my life was when my grandma suddenly passed away during my senior year of high school. She helped raised me, and we were super close. I just shut down completely. I suddenly became really depressed, I stopped smiling and laughing, I would hardly eat or drink anything all day, I distanced myself from my then boyfriend, friends and my own family, I would just start crying in the middle of classes. The only thing I really cared about was graduating high school, since she wanted to see me cross stage, so I buried myself into my schoolwork and studying. Her passing away just made my world come crashing down. It took about a year of therapy, and a year of taking anti-depressants to put me back in a decent place. I'm pretty ok now, though. I still get sad when her birthday or anniversary of her passing comes around, but other than that, I'm in a better place now.
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For me, it would have to be sophomore year of high school. I actually want to say all of high school, but when I think back on it, sophomore year was distinctly the worst. I'd rather not delve into exactly what made it terrible, as there wasn't really any one specific thing that brought me to that lowest point. As for how I pulled myself out of it, graduating from high school would be an obvious choice, however there were three things I did when transitioning to my junior year that made things quite a lot better. The first one was that I left the IB program at my school and started taking AP classes instead for math and science. Second, I quit all band activities at school, though I continued to study the trumpet at my leisure. Lastly, I started seriously going to the doctor to diagnose the health problems I'd been having trouble dealing with.

My health problems, by the way, were basically all induced by climate and allergies so it wasn't even anything serious. One of the doctors I saw at that time recommended routine use of saline nasal spray to moisturize and clear out my sinuses. Following his advice cleared up nearly all of the problems I was having all by itself. Although I realize there's no way I could've known all that without his advice, I still feel like an idiot for even worrying about it in part because the resolution was so simple but also because I was nearly convinced I had some sort of serious illness.
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The year was 1999 everyone was partying like the Prince song said. I had just entered college and met the love of my life let's call her Hanna. I was on cloud nine the happiest I'd been in my life so far in my short 19 years. One night we where driving back to the dorms after a movie and where hit in the passenger side by a drunk driver. I made it out miraculously without a scratch just a bit sore from the impact, Hanna however was not so lucky it struck her straight on and she was DOA by the time they got her to the hospital. I wept like a baby for days after that, second guessing myself was it my fault did I not watch the road closely enough even if the drunk guy ran a red light? Should I have been in the passenger seat? Losing the love of my life I stopped living life, I hit rock bottom after that my grades fell and I stopped going to class, the only thing I did for months was go the the local 7-11 and ate gas station hot dogs as the tears flowed down my face. Slowly but surely I learned to love again after years Hanna still holds a place in my heart but gas station hot dogs taught me how to love again their delicious taste and tantalizing aroma changed me for the better.


That's a heartbreaking story. I'm sorry for you, Hanna and her family. You're a strong man to be able to lift yourself back up and into life. A lesser man would break. But what hit me is you'll never know what could've been. Sorry, I don't mean to be depressing but your experience got me thinking. Life is fleeting. I'll hug my wife & daughter a little tighter tonight.

On a lighter note: I have a hard time resisting a gas station hot dog when I walk by the rollers. Those things are gonna kill me.

As for me personally I don't think I ever had a low point. Maybe it's now. I'm not an alcoholic but sometimes I do over indulge on the sauce. I'm in my mid 30's and I just can't do i like I used to. I'm thinking about giving it up for awhile, but I enjoy it too much.
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when i had to use my state quarter collection to get on the bus
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when I was hospitalized and I saw my dad cry for the first time. nothing's really changed
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The lowest points in my life have all had something to do with my chronic depression.

The worst was probably me texting my boyfriend, apologizing for being the one he fell in love with. While also trying to convince him he was better off with someone else since I was so unstable. I was in a dark place then. Self-hatred makes you do some crazy stuff.

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