Well time to stop fooling around..
And start going at things more seriously..
As much as I want to continue lazing around..


3 years of separation of CR,
3 months of slacking since back to CR.


Those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything.
Time for some change, once more..
I'm planning on changing myself again.
As the current me tends to be extremely lacking..
For better or for worst, only time will tell.

You will never change your life until you change something you do daily.
That being said.. I plan on fixing my bad habit of making my room into a mess.
Despite being a perfectionist.. I am pretty dam lazy..
A record of not cleaning room for half a month

The current me fails to follow my own schedules, plans and words..
And then afterward making excuses and or apologizing to everyone.
Despite the excuses being true, it's still pretty retarded

The new me will no longer blabber about plans and follow my initial plans.
I always intended for the "art of surprise" but always releasing parts of the updates..
Ruining the so called surprise and even delaying the updates
Will also fix some other problems in regard with myself that I believe needs changing


Also need to explain a few things..
Like I've said many times.. in all honesty..
The group is nothing but a past time to me now.
CR itself.. I neither like nor dislike it..
I've offered the group ownership to Dee since I've came back.
So I got nothing really more to say in regard to this.

In regard with the group itself.. I can't really say I think like I did like my past self..
I'm not obsessed with post count or competition like I was in the past.
Right now the main thing that matters is whether or not you guys are having fun.
In regard to that.. most the new things should tell you something in regard with my own thoughts.
If I was obsessed with competition and only care about post count or CR points like certain groups..
I wouldn't impose the skirt rule or the double posting rule and other certain rules.


And a comment about me lacking motivation wise would be..
I don't really need motivation to do stuff but it would be better if I had some..
It's like studies you don't really want to do.. but in the end you still do it well.
The same reasoning for this.. doing updates these past 3 months..
Things are lacking and updates are slow because well.. I'm not really into it.
That being said.. If I was supposedly fully motivated.. I would of done everything I did in those 3 months in a day or two.. that is how lacking I think of myself right now.

During the 3 months
I've been multitasking while doing updates and the following;
1. Studies - homework, exams, kumon
2. Chores - everything except cleaning my room
3. Procrastinating - L4D2, LF2, Flash games, Manga
Finished reading more then 20+ series
And got to latest chapter with many
4. Chatting and or just fooling around entirely
5. Family matters - Babysitting, family dinners or celebrations
6. Personal matters - Break up, stress, anxiety
7. More - ETC

And someone have stated that I have acted high and mighty..
My comment in regard with this would be.. I could care less about the group..
Why would I bother with such idiocy?
If it ever seemed that way it would probably be that you insulted me.
When in an argument or debate.. you will sound high and mighty no matter what you do.

Easiest ways to insult me:
1. Only read what you want / ignore what you want
2. Fail to read simplest instructions
3. Be a hypocrite b***ard
4. Be presumptuous b***ard
5. Be an egotistical pr**k
6. Someone who constantly assumes things
7. Trying to test my patience

All of these would basically annoy anyone..
A person who won't read has no advantage over one who can't read.

Also I almost forgot to say this,
I have a pretty dam good memory..
I haven't forgotten about..
1. Rewarding those who were active while I was working on updates
2. Rewarding those who tried making GFX or obtaining GFX for the group
3. Staff recruitment processes
4. Axing the inactive
5. 10,000 pictures

Guess I'm done with the semi-giant text for now.