oh btw Say Anything... has really good lyrics =p the songs all sound the same at first but after I listened all the way through one of their songs I fell in love =3 -.-' they would be on my profile but the imeem thing hates my guts...
I found them to be particularly interesting so I was going to give you the quotes and recommend you read the book. It is a dry book but it has some really good parts =p
well yeah of its a mix of my brain and heart that types^^ but also i know she knows but i dont know hers lolz i think i know and what i think i know is cool with me^^
lol you aren't the only one who talks to her loser ^^ I can guarantee a chance as long as you don't blow it =3 at that point it is over though. I can't help you anymore if you mess up
haha well i dont lie to her and u are right but cuz i am afraid she will again delete me before i have a time to explain makes me scared to actually tell her what i want to tell her^^
not as easy anymore when u are afraid to tell someone how u really feel cuz that one might shut u out of her/his life^^ so i cant take risks no more..not in this shake situation^^
I need to go to work though so I'll send you a message once I am done ^^: I won't be back for another 6 hours at least so I wouldn't wait up for it too much. Just check it when you get on ^^' later
kk I have a lot to say and I think I need to tell you something I haven't quite been able to explain well yet but it isn't important I just need to tell you =p
you are still not being you... you are doing what you normally do but that does not mean you are being you...^^: that is confusing but do you understand what I mean?
it was when that part of being you that makes you not be yourself arises that you go wrong... part of being you is that you try to lie and make yourself look better... while you are following your own wishes as yourself...
I think at times you gave her more than what you really were and then when she saw that wasn't who you were it became too little... she was probably searching for something that was never there ...
In order to protect people as well as myself I can no longer afford to be innocent or naive... I can't make mistakes like the past and neither can you... you may have done nothing except exist as yourself but that can be enough
I think the reason was selfless but the idea utterly selfish... ^^ I can't tell you anything about your Rachel before I talk to her myself =/ I am sorry but I can't be biased anymore ^^ not even for you or the one I love...
I didn't think that I could give her enough... I wanted to be perfect for her but in doing so I made myself what she didn't want ^^ I was a complete idiot and was too greedy maybe... I don't know if what I did was trying to be selfless
I went through too much to give up and be contented by the idea of "that is just how it is" and kept walking but she was fine and all she wanted was for me to be with her... that is all she needed but I wanted to give her more
I symbolized everything she hated about herself and brought out the plan of our past because I could never leave the path we were on... she was content with what she knew and didn't want to know more nor did she need it =/
^^; and if you love her so much then you should be able to just trust her... with my Rachel... she always loved me and maybe at points more than I loved her. She also hated me though... one day the hate became stronger than the love...
loooolz sooo damn many ahah^^ yeah i dont blame me at all its not my fault at all ^^ i was being myself all the time she lied to me when she said"i love u i wanna marry u" so thats basically it end of story i love her she doesnt love me^^
I killed most of them but I don't want t ogo in there and accidentally sit on dead bugs ^^: I don't really mind them but I would prefer not to... strongly so...
and I'm cleaning lol... I was going to go and play video games when I went into my room last night and there was at least 60 bugs on the ceiling, walls and floors... it was literally like something out of someone's nightmare...
lol ^^; I wasn't trying to say it was your fault but more like it isn't entirely her fault maybe ... -.-' but yeah I don't really think she truly loves you ^^;
i know but it isnt my fault its a misunderstanding ^^ and i hope she finds to love me again^^i am w8ting for her reply now gonna let ya know how its going^^
lol ^^ good catch, but before I wasn't sure what my blood type was and my parents just told me it is probably O+ or O- ....so I have no idea which one it is ^^;
lol sorry you were 100% in the wrong so this is somewhat funny to me now that you have calmed down some have to laugh at you for being stupid *chuckles slightly to himself at the irony*
everyone needs help sometimes, we often need our own advice. The problem with what we do is that we watch and analyze but we don't always know exactly why things are a certain way so we don't actually learn more like we react.
i know only a fool would do that^^ no i see what ya mean its weird how i tell ppl do this and that dont get negative and whatnot but i myself couldnt do that....well my brain is still sleepin i guess^^
You need to archive it and to do that you have to be able to accept it with simply common sense or understand it to the near simplest and fundamental level... it isn't something to take lightly ^^;
there is no guarantee of that until you understand why. While in the right state of mind it will make you better but it is when that is lost that our horrible nature comes to pass.
yes i know i know iknow... i know so that but its just i need to hear she loves me and i know she does.. its just i have to go soon and... i want her to say that before i do^^i am soo crazy about her
