I tried today
God, i tried my best
But it wasn't enough
To pass your test

I failed it
I’m sorry, i really am.
I wanted to make it
To accomplish your plan

I’m sorry god.
But best isn't enough
This time
Inside your eyes of love

You put me through
Your foul lessons
Of how life should be lived
With each of its “blessings”

You expected things
Like how I should survive
But I panicked
And Became blind

To the truths
You wanted me to see
Behold, the consequences
I begin to weep

Inside, Life dug
Its greatest hole
Reaching to my core
Within my soul

And it touched
The deepest hatred
And tested me repeatedly
Until i had bled

Spread on top of wings
That knew no limits
Came to my own boundaries
In merely just minutes

A soul so untamed
Was cast away
Never to return
To the light of day

I kept my secrets
Locked inside
I tried the piper
And payed the price

I payed it with
The things Life gave to me
The pained blood
That I set free

I didn’t know
That failing felt so real
When it comes down to it
There is nothing left to feel

You gave the rose
Life in colors of red
All you wanted to see
Is if it would succeed

You gave her life
And watched what she did with it
Watched her hug it
Saw her kiss it

You gave her choices
Watched her choose
And saw her suffer
Saw her lose.

God, why did you do this?
Why won’t you do something?
You only watch
And do nothing

God, you have touched
My deepest hatred
It grows for you
Until I’m dead

I’m disappointed
When you said you’d be there
Is just another lie
That I will have to bare

A pain so great
Took my life today
I’m sorry god,
I decided not to stay










Don't tell me what i what i am doing is wrong, don't condencend me either.







You don't know me. And you can sit there and judge me. But if you knew how many time i cried today...
....
i could drown you....