To any friends. NO MORE GROUP INVITES!
I am in only a few groups, I will accept NO BLEACH/NARUTO/MEANINGLESS group invites. You all know who you are, sanding me invites every day to the same group hoping I'll accept them then. I'll take you off my f-list before I will join such groups. I like writing groups, I like certain anime groups. but if I reject an invitation... I will not accept it tomorrow. Thanx for the consideration.

Well I'm a big fan of Anime, I prefer them subbed to dubbed. although it seems that in a lot of the original casting for main characters in the shows... younger voices of men seem like they're women >.< oh well that's the way things go... ... WHAT? SOME OF THEM ARE WOMEN? okay... T.T Why am i always out of the loop? (btw 'atatakakunai' is japanese for "it's not warm... atatakai is warm, kunai means not, so to put atatakakunai means it's not warm, usually refering to the weather outside. I chose this because it is a common tougne-twistertype word for japanese folks... ... although atatakakunakata is worse!!! it means WAS not warm, as in to state of the past..... now that's a mouthful!)


and now for depressing reflections:
warning following is a killjoy, taking may result in side effects such as:
vomiting, dry mouth, teary eyes, a sudden loss in interest of my profile, a sudden urge to cry out "oh go cry emo kid" (thats the one i get... and i wrote it!!!!) or a possibility to reflect in your life.


Shouldn't love be forever? held close for worse or better?
I'll close my eyes to remember better days,
times when my life still made sense; when i could see my way.
when love surrounded my heart, and filled my life.
to have such days once, for which i can only pray.
no longer is my heart sheltered in loves getle warmth,
cold and lonely i sit and wait, never knowing always seeing,
just what life is throwing at me, never ending.
losing my own light to the sight of darkness that rules this world of mine.
I am the king of my own painful world, imprisoned by malice.
and yet i still cling to home with all my heart, to all i know and hate.
love is hard to come by, if true love is what you seek.
all i ever wanted was somone to hold, be told that everything will be allright.
shine a little light in on my eternal night. somone i can care for to return the favor. and yet it seems to be too much to ask for anymore.
cold is all i feel, alone is what i am, dark is what i see and silence is all i hear. what has happened to me?
i can't figure out where my friends have all gone.
and i can't see where the road ends.
i never was fond of the dark.
but life goes on.
What have I become anymore?
can i even call this empty shell me?