can be iether one
The Falling Protector
The Falling Protector is standing here,
Wanting to curl up and die.
But still fights for the ones,
Who needs them.
Remembering why they must stay alive,
Why they must keep fighting.
The Falling Protector is slipping on ice,
And falling into the dark shadows.
But still seeks the light for the ones,
Who needs them.
Remembering why they must find a way,
Why they must not give up.
The Falling Protector is struggling,
To get back up again.
But sthill stands for the ones,
Who needs them.
Remembering why they chose to live this way,
Why they don't turn their backs and walk away.
The Falling Protector is fighting,
While wanting to just run away.
But still stays in the fight for the ones,
Who needs them.
Remembering why they stay,
Why they live.
The Falling Protector is slipping on ice,
And Falling into the dark shadows.
But still seeks the light for the ones,
Who needs them.
Remebering why they must find a way,
Why they must not give up.
I am standing here,
Wanting to curl up and die.
But still fighting for the ones,
Who needs me.
Remebering why I must stay alive,
Why I must keep fighting.
I am slipping on ice,
and falling into dark shadows.
But still seeking the light for the ones,
Who needs me.
Remebering why I must find a way,
Why I must not give up.
I am struggling,
To get back up again.
But still standing for the ones,
Who needs me.
Remembering why I chose to live this way,
Why I dont turn my back and walk away.
I am fighting,
While wanting to just run away.
But still staying in the fight for the ones,
Who needs me.
Remembering why I stay,
Why I live.
I am slipping on ice,
And falling into the dark shadows.
But still seeking the light for the ones,
Who needs me.
Remembering why I must find a way,
Why I must not give up.
poem
Burning
Rising from the fire
That’s burning below me
Slipping more and more
Breathing in the smoke with every gasp I take
Feeling the fire rising on me
Feeling it catching up to me
Turning ice cold and heartless
Burning within my soul
Screaming in my mind for more
Seeing hands reaching out to me
Knowing they want to help
Knowing their love can’t get through to me
Knowing they can’t blow this fire away
Knowing they can’t tame me
Knowing what could is finally gone
And I will burn in my ice cold and heartless ways
Walking these neutral blood-killing grounds alone
Screaming for more
Knowing the fire is hearing me
Awaiting for it to fully answer my call
Burring within my soul
As I turn ice cold and heartless
With no one to stop me
With no one to save me
With no one to get through to me
No matter how much others try
Feeling nothing but fire rising on me
And the music and rage flowing through me
Oh how the music seems to tame me enough
To sleep just a little bit at night
Hearing nothing but the screams for more
Waiting to be completely burned alive
Screaming for more
Turning my back on everyone and everything
Shutting everything and everyone out
Living in my ice cold and heartless ways
Screaming for more
As the fire is rising on me
As I burn within my soul
Feeling so empty as I always have
With no one’s love ever getting through to me
To easy the emptiness
Never knowing why I thirst for this
Never knowing why I do this
Never know why I am this way
When there is nothing
To be scared of
When there is nothing to hurt me
But the pain I cause for myself
Turning ice cold and heartless
Burning within my soul
Feeling the fire rise up to me
And swallow me alive
As I scream for more
Wanting something stronger to drink
Wanting to be burned alive
Wanting something to get through to me
Knowing of nothing that can
Knowing of nothing that will
Remember the one thing that once did for a while
Knowing I will never have anything like it again
Knowing I will never have something getting through to me like that again
Knowing the only thing that will is the fire
That is burning bellow me
That I am screaming for more of
As it is burning within my soul
Slowly eating me alive
Slowly killing me inside
Knowing nothing can get through to me
To save me
Knowing no one can get through to me
To save
Knowing nothing will
Knowing no one will
That ever possible could
Knowing it will all be over soon enough
As the fire rises on me
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poem
Goodbye
You are the one I have loved for so long
You are the one I shall never stop loving
For my love for you is eternal
Even when death kills me
Even when I am completely dead inside
You will be the one that I shall still love
You are the one I love
You are the one who saved me
You are the one who’s love has gotten through to me
You are the one who’s broken down my walls
You are the one who’s gotten close to me
You are the one my love will always be eternal for
I shall never stop loving you
I shall never stop thinking of you
I shall never love another the way I love you
I shall never be close to another the way I was close to you
I shall never want another the way I want you
I shall never need another the way I need you
I shall never care for another the way I care for you
I shall never think of another the way I think of you
I shall never be pleased with another the way I am pleased with you
I shall walk these neutral blood-killing grounds in my ice cold and heartless ways
For no one but you
For nothing but you
I shall keep fighting these blood-dripping battles
For no one but you
For nothing but you
I shall live till this blood-cold world has finally killed me
For no one but you
For nothing but you
You are my only true love
And my only true reason for anything
I will let you go
But shall never forget you in my ice cold and heartless ways
Thank you for loving me
For saving me
But now it is time I let you have what you need or want
So goodbye for now and forever
My one and true angelic tormented love
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poem
What do they mean to you
Life death love hate
Inevitable eternal passion forever
What do they all mean to you?
What do they have to do with you?
What do they have to do with today’s world?
Life can mean joy and pleasure to one person
And mean pain and suffering to another
Death can mean sorrow to one
And relief to another
Love can mean everything to one
And nothing to another
Hate can mean survival to one
And destruction to another
To some inevitable may be something they never heard before
To others it could be something they never thought about
To some eternal can be unreal
And others possible never thought of
Passion can be unbelievable magical to one person
And unbelievable unreal to another
Forever can be untrue to one
And completely amazing to another
What they mean to you
Is up to you
Is life a joy and pleasure?
Or is it pain suffering to you
Is death sorrow or a relief to you?
Does love mean everything or nothing to you?
Is hate a survival or a destruction to you
Have you ever thought of the word inevitable?
Or do you even know what it means
Or have you even ever heard such a word
Is eternal unreal to you?
Or have you even though about it
Is passion unbelievable magical
Or Is it just unbelievable unreal to you
Is forever completely amazing
Or is it just untrue to you
What does it have to do with you?
In ways it plays rolls in the way you see things
In ways it plays rolls in how you live
In how your life turns out
What does it have to do with today’s world?
Everything, it plays a roll in how people see one another
It plays a roll in the lives that are taken by the one that dies
It plays a roll in how a child grows up
How a teenager fights for their life
How kids live through school
How people live through drama
What does it mean to me
Life is a pleasure at times and a pain at others
Death is a sorrow for me but a relief for the one who dies
After they have lived their lives and learned from their mistakes
Love is everything to me even when I don’t show it
Hate is a survival at times but destruction most of the time
Inevitable is coldly real for the bad things
That is inevitable to me
And amazing awesome for the good things
That is inevitable to me
Eternal is what I await for
The eternal life dream of
The eternal love I hold in grasp
Trying not to let it go
Passion is what I have for writing and art and music itself
Forever is what I see
Forever is how long I shall hold my love and passion for anything and anyone
That is what they are to me
That is what they mean to me
That is what I believe
Even as I stand in the battle field of moving on
For death is inevitable but love is eternal
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poem
Standing strong for everyone
Standing here in the mist of a battle field
Standing strong for everyone
Who come to me
For everyone who needs me
Being the hope
Being the will
Or trying to be so
Not giving up
On anything or anyone
Fighting till the end
Fighting till there’s nothing left to fight
Fighting till I can’t fight anymore
Fighting till everything’s okay once again
For the ones I love and care about
For the ones who come to me
For the ones I am trying to help
For the ones I am fighting for
For myself and everything I stand for
Not running away
Not trying to hide
Not trying to escape
This reality I live among
This reality I fight
This reality I have fought
For so long
And still am doing so
For not only myself
But everyone who
Can’t fight it alone
Fighting and doing my work
As the Dark Protector
As I live my life this way
Trying to open others up
And show them the better things in life
What life is really meant to be living for
What life really means
Show them the good thing in everything
Show them the good thing in everyone
Trying to some what balance out this world
Trying to save as many lives as I possible can
Getting over my own past and pain
To help others with their own
To keep focused on the present and future
And not drown in my past
Standing my ground
Ready to fight
For what is right
For what I stand for
For everyone I am fighting for
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poem
this one "UNTITELED" is a mixer of other writings of mine put into one thats all that "UNTITELED" is, is just parts of other writings that i have made put into one poem showing a few of my writings that i like all in one with the parts that i like if you have read the other ones that have some parts taken out of you may be abile to figure out which parts came from which writing i did change the line a bit so it may be a bit hard for some but some are pretty easy like "breathing in and breathing out" for instance is from the poem just below this one which is called "where all creaters cross paths striding the neutral grounds" so i hope you enjoy "UNTITELED"
UNTITELED
I live this life of mine
Day after day and night after night
For no one not even myself
Fighting the waves and tides
Of the silences of my let alone thoughts and mind
Saying, “no pain no game”
Breathing in and breathing out
Breathing light and breathing dark
Breathing blessings and breathing sins
Breathing day and breathing night
Living for nothing but pain itself
Often grinning and laugh with a bad attitude
Loving the feeling I get when I’m being cruel
Not caring about myself
Seeing no reason to live or die
Alive on the outside where everyone can see me
But dead on the inside where no one looks at all
Pushing myself day after day
And night after night
As I stride these grounds of the world of the living
Waiting for everyone
To turn their backs on me
Getting lost in the question
“What am I fighting for”?
Till the moment I contain no breath to breathe
Till the instant I obtain my last breath
Till the instant I let this world receive my last breath of life
Till the instant I’m within my deathbed
Till the instant I give up the fight
I watch my life pass me by
Striding theses grounds
Living for nothing but pain itself
I watch other live without a care in the world
Wondering why don’t they just die
Wanting to live but wanting to die
Living by pain as others live by love
Playing my games and feeding myself
Watching as things fall apart
Grinning inside as I feed on the pain that I cause myself
No one knows if they get played
No one knows if they are just saved
No one knows my game till it’s to late
When they can’t escape without the pain
That I cause them to feed my thirst for my own pain
No one knows me fully
Not even at the end of my game with them
Some may get me back
And I shall thank them
For feeding me
Among my thirst for my own pain
As I stride theses grounds
Watching my live pass me all by
Living my live
How I want to
Letting things be
How they are
Subsisting in this world
Breathing in and breathing out
Till I vanish from this world
To the towering depths of despair of heaven
Or the profound depths of despair of hell
Leaving the neutral grounds of heaven and hell
That is neither except the world of the living
Striding theses grounds
Fighting more and more
As the waves, and tides
Seems to hit me even harder each time
As I wonder, as I ask myself why…
Why am I still here?
Why should I care?
Fighting, wondering, asking why…what…
Why am I fighting?
What is it that I am fighting for?
What is there to fight for in this deep dark blue ocean of my thoughts and mind?
As I stride these grounds with no concern for myself
Striding these grounds neither terrified to die nor live
Stride these grounds just to stride them
Striding theses grounds in neither good nor evil but both
As I fight away looking searching for the answers
As the waves, and tides hit me
Wondering, asking myself why… what… on away…
Getting a little bit more tired as I fight
Feeling a little bit more of my faith, my dreams
Myself, my everything slip away a little bit more each day…
Until the day all my faith, my dreams
Myself, my everything is completely gone…
I shall be finding myself fighting
The waves, and tides
Of the silences of my let alone thoughts and mind
Living among this world
Striding these grounds for whatever reasons
I come across
For I can’t go back now
For the grounds I have destroyed
For the sins I’ve done
Or the blessings I have come across
Knowing what’s happening
Knowing what will happen
If I don’t stop and change
But never caring
For I do what I please
For the pleasure
I get out of everything
For as I stride theses grounds
Watching everything and everyone change before me
While I hide in the shadows
Or burn in the light
Burn with the bliss
That shines down on me
Rising me to the greatest paradises
Rising me to heaven
Or hide with the sins
That will bury me deep
In the hottest cores of hell
Of the damned
For what I do
Shall not matter
For we all shall suffer
One way or the other
At least once in our life times
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poem
Where all creatures cross paths striding the neutral grounds
Living day after day
And night after night
Breathing in and breathing out
Breathing light and breathing dark
Breathing blessings and breathing sins
Breathing day and breathing night
Till the moment we contain no breath to breathe
Till the instant we obtain our last breath
Till the instant we let this world receive our last breath of life
Till the moment we say farewell
Till the instant we are within our deathbeds
Till the instant we die not to come back again
Till that moment we subsist in this world
Breathing in and breathing out
Till we at last vanish from this world
To the towering depths of despair of heaven
Or the profound depths of despair of hell
Leaving the neutral grounds of heaven and hell
That is neither except the world of the living
Where all creatures cross paths walking the neutral grounds
Some are neither alive nor dead
Some stride these grounds neither concerned for themselves nor others
Some stride these grounds neither terrified to die nor live
Some stride these grounds just to stride them
Some stride these grounds just to control them
Some stride these grounds in the name of evil
Some stride these grounds in the name of good
Some stride these grounds in the name of neutral
Some are evil
Some are good
And some are neither good nor evil nevertheless neutral
Some creatures stride these grounds in the name of good and evil
If not just neutral
Where some stride in neither good nor evil but both
Either way all creatures that live among this world
Stride theses grounds for whatever reasons
That they have or our just forced by the damned
For they can’t go back now
For the grounds they have destroyed
For the torturing they’ve gone through
For the sins they’ve done
Or the blessings they have come across
What was lost was lost
What was gained was gained
And there’s nothing that can be done about any of them
For as all creatures stride theses grounds
Watching everything and everyone change before them
All they can do is hide in the shadows
Or burn in the light
Burn with the bliss
That is shining down on them
Rising them to the greatest paradises
Rising them to heaven
While others hide
With the sins that bury them deep
In the hottest cores of hell
Of the damned
For what creature you
Shall not matter
For we all shall suffer
One way or the other
For all creatures walk theses neutral grounds
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poem
Times Running Out (Cause It Won’t Stay Frozen Forever)
Walking around as time freezes by
Watching everything pass you by
Hearing lies and alibis
Watching illusions and fantasies
Wondering why you live this way
Why don’t you just change
Why don’t you just stay
Why don’t you just leave
Why don’t you just fucking make up your god damn mind
Before sunrises cause its after sunset now
And times running out cause it wont stay frozen forever
So tell your love ones that you love them
And tell your lover that you need them
Living today like it’s your last
As you watch time freeze on by
Seeing reality before your eyes
Saying goodbye to everything and everyone you know
Saying goodbye to this word
As you finally kill your pain
Causing more for others in exchange
Cause times running out
Cause it wont stay frozen forever
Cause times running out
Cause it wont stay frozen forever
And ever and ever
And ever and ever
Before they all leave you
Before you die
Before you’re dead inside
Before your pain eats you alive
As your wondering why
Is this happening to you
When they all already are gone
Cause times running out
Cause it wont stay frozen forever
What will you do
What will you say
You’re standing all alone
In this cold winter day
Watching the world turn its back on you
Cause times running out
Cause it wont stay frozen forever
So tell your love ones that you love them
And tell your lover that you need them
Living today like it’s your last
As you watch time freeze on by
Seeing reality before your eyes
Saying goodbye to everything and everyone you know
Saying goodbye to this word
As you finally kill your pain
Causing more for others in exchange
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song
You Are A Soldier
("You Are A Soldier" is made out to my big brother who is in the army and all the other military people who is, was, and will be in the future)
You come and go
But never stay
You often get pulled away
By family and friends and even war
Wondering why we act this way
When you give us your time once more
As we watch you at day and night
Watching you from the sidelines of everything
Watching you standing in the spot light
Reaching out watching you
Reaching out praying for you
Reaching out crying for you
Missing you day and night
As we reach out and say
In the silences of our let alone minds
You are the hero
You are the brave
You are the strong
You are the fighter
You are the freedom
You are a soldier
You are our brother
Or you’re our sister
You are family
Or you’re a friend
But you’re never really around
To know what’s going down
To keep up with us
But that’s okay
Cause you are the true freedom
Of the home of the free
And the land of the brave
You are a soldier
You are a leader
Who leads us to victory
You are the one who we all count on
Who protect the weak
Who protect the strong
Who protect us all
Who we pray for day and night
You are our brother
Or you’re our sister
You are family
Or you’re a friend
You are a hero of this country
You are a hero to us all
And will always be so
From the day you became a soldier
To the day we all die
To the day we all die
You are a soldier of the world
And a hero of this country
You will always be our hero
And a soldier of the home of the free
And the land of the brave
Land of the brave
So don’t cha worry
Cause we all always understand
We all always understand
That you’re just doing your duties
All over again
As a soldier
Of the home of the free
And the land of the brave
What more is there to say
What more is there to say
When it gets in the way
You just try to play all your roles once again
Of being family
And being a friend
Of being a soldier
Of the home of the free
And the land of the brave
Land of the brave
What more is there for us to say
What more is there to say
That’s what you are to me
That’s what you are to them
That’s what you are to us
That’s what you’ll always be
What you’ll always be
A soldier of the world
A hero of this country
A soldier of the home of the free
And the land of the brave
The land of the brave
For you and me and everyone else
Cause you are a soldier
You are a soldier
A soldier, a soldier, a soldier
A soldier of the world
And hero of this country
A hero of this country
Cause you are a soldier
You are a soldier
A soldier, a soldier, a soldier
A soldier of the world
A soldier of the home of the free
And land of the brave
Land of the brave
And a hero of this country
A hero of this country
So what more is there to say
What more is there to say
What more is there to say
What more is there to do
More to do
When it gets in the way
Gets in the way
Other then let you go
Let you go
Showing no fear
Showing no pain
Showing no sorrow
Showing nothing at all
Nothing at all
Other then being strong and proud
Being strong and proud
That you are our soldier of the world
Our soldier of the world
Our soldier of the world
Soldier of the world
And our hero of this country
Our hero of this country
Our hero of this country
Hero of this country
And nothing more
And nothing less
Of this world
Or the next
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poem
Let Things Be
Seconds ticks seasons change
As we all say, “No pain no game”
We watch as our lives pass us all by
Wishing we didn’t do this
Wishing we didn’t say that
Wishing we didn’t see this
Wishing we didn’t hear that
Wishing we didn’t believe this
Wishing we didn’t go with that
Wishing away wishing about
Wishing all day wishing all night
Wishing we did this
Wishing we said that
Wishing we saw this
Wishing we heard that
Wishing we believed this
Wishing we went with that
Dwelling on this dwelling on that
Dwelling all day dwelling all night
No matter how much we wish
No matter how much we dwell
We can’t go back to the past
The past is the past
What happened has happened
So learn from it now
And keep it from happening again later
We wish that this didn’t happen
We wish that that did
We wish that this wasn’t said
We wish that that did
We hope and wish that this won’t happen
We hope and wish that that will
When really we should just let things be
We should leave the broken pieces on the floor
That we can’t pick up and fix
No matter how much we want to
No matter how much we try
We can’t fix it
What was done was done
What was said was said
So just leave the broken pieces on the floor
For someone else who can
For someone else who will
Pick them up and fix them
And put them back together again
So just move on and let things be
This happen for a reason
Whether if we know what the reason is
Or understand it
If we know it
All we should do is just
Let things be
Seconds ticks seasons change
As we all say, “No pain no game”
We watch as our lives pass us all by
And we should
Learn from all of our mistakes
And live our lives
How we want to
Letting things be
How they are
We should stop trying to pick up and fix
And put them back together again
Things that we can’t fix
But live and treasure the things that
We have at the time
That we have them
And fix the things that we can fix
Letting the broken pieces on the ground
Stay on the ground
Till the day that someone
Who can
Pick them up and put them back together again
Till the day we say “good bye”
On our deathbeds
The second we die
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poem
The Deep Dark Blue Ocean
Every night, every day
Every hour, every minute
Even every second of my life
I find myself fighting
The waves, the tides
Of the deep dark blue
Ocean of my thoughts
My mind, my pain
My sorrow, my everything
Fighting to stay above the surface
Where I can breathe the air
Where I can see the truth
Where I can possible sleep
Without the pain and sorrow
Fighting night and day
Day and night
Seeming to go on underwater
No matter how hard I fight
Drinking the saltwater
Of the deep dark blue
Ocean of my thoughts
My my mind, my pain
My sorrow, my everything
Feeling more and more pain
As I keep on trying
Getting more and more tired
As I keep on fighting
Fighting more and more
But only seeming to be going underwater even more
As the waves, the tides
Seems to hit me even harder each time
Making me go underwater again and drink even more saltwater
As I wonder, as I ask myself why…
Why don’t I just swim to shore?
Is that cause that would be running away to me?
Why am I still here?
Is that cause I don’t know where I want to be?
Why should I care?
Is that cause I will drown if I don’t?
Fighting, wondering, asking why…what…
Why am I fighting?
What is it that I am fighting for?
What is there to fight for in this deep dark blue ocean of my thoughts?
My mind, my pain
My sorrow, my everything
Fighting away looking searching for the answers
Going underwater a bit more each time
As the waves, the tides hit me
Drinking more and more saltwater as I go underwater
Wondering, asking myself why… what… on away…
Feeling a little bit more pain as I try
Getting a little bit more tired as I fight
Feeling a little bit more of my faith, my dreams
Myself, my everything slip away a little bit more each day…
Until the day I completely drown…
Until the day all my faith, my dreams
Myself, my everything is completely gone…
I shall be finding myself fighting
The waves, the tides
Of the deep dark blue
Ocean of my thoughts
My mind, my pain
My sorry, my everything
Going underwater over and over again
Drinking more and more saltwater
As I go underwater once again
As I fight the waves, the tides
Of the deep dark blue
Ocean of my thoughts
My mind, my pain
My sorrow, my everything
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school poem
I am
I am an artistic and understanding person.
I wonder what else great artist I will come across in my lifetime.
I hear the amazing sounds of music all around me.
I see the magnificent works of art everyday.
I want to one-day write a song or poem as great as Beethoven’s music.
I am an artistic and understanding person.
I pretend to be back in the old days when Beethoven was alive playing one of his works of arts.
I feel truly alive when I hear amazing music like his.
I touch the wonderful interments of the past and today’s world.
I worry that not all the great works of art will be known if not remembered in the future.
I cry when all is forgotten.
I am an artist and understanding person.
I understand what other people often mean when they speak.
I say, “it’s not about what your talent is, it’s about what you do with it”.
I dream of feeling true freedom the way I feel music all around me.
I try to understand something or someone a bit more each day.
I hope that one day my purpose in life won’t be a mystery to me.
I am an artistic and understanding person.
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song
Long Lives
(one of my friends from Animefuel gave me the idea for that name n gave me the name as well for this song)
Waking up to another day with the sun starting to rise and shine. And the night with the moon and stars disappearing out of our sight before our eyes for another day. Knowing what we're really waking up to. Just another day with the same old shit from yesterday. With the same old people and the same old shit. Living our lives that we've lived all along. What is there for us to do? What is there for us to say? Cause we smile, we frown, we laugh, we cry, we run we walk, we stand, we fall, we do it all and more then that everyday.
We live these lives we've lived all along in happiness and pain. wondering why, wondering what did we do, what did we say to live this a way. We lose the ones that we love and care about so much within time. Just as it is with everything else. We somethimes have it where people walk in our lives and stay forever. Then we sometimes have it where they walk on into our lives and then sooner or later just walk on out again. And sometimes ww have it where they will into our lives and then sooner or later walk on out and then bacl on in.
So what is there for us to do? What is there for us to say? Cause we smiles, we frown, we laugh, we cry, we run, we walk, we stand, we fall, we do it all and more then that everyday. As we wake up to another dat with the sun starting to to rise and shine. And the night with the moon and stars disappearing out of our sight before our eyes for another day. We know what we're really waking up to. Just another day with the same old people and the same old shit from yesterday.
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poem
Night after night, day after day
I watch as things pass me on by
As the drama comes and goes
As things and others seem to
Change before my eyes
I watch as the little taste of
True freedom seems to slip
Out of my reach
Feeling like a little bit more
Of me is slipping, fading away
From me everyday, every night
Every hour, every minute
Even every second of my life
That ticks on by
As I lay here at night
Staring out into the deep
Dark sky, I ask myself
Why do I do the things I do
Why do I love the thngs I love
Why do I think the things I think
Why do I live the way I live
Why do I live at all
What is my purpose of being
In this world today
What do I want more
To live or to die
To love or to hate
To kill or to save
So til the day I figure out
Or the day I die
Depending on which comes first
I shall be watching as things me on by
As the drama comes and goes
As things and others seem to
Change before my eyes
I watch as the little taste of
True freedom seems to slip
Out of my reach
Feeling like a little bit more
Of me is slipping, fading away from me
And lay here at night
Staring out into the deep
Dark sky, I ask myself
Why do I do the things I do
Why do I love the thngs I love
Why do I think the things I think
Why do I live the way I live
Why do I live at all
What is my purpose of being
In this world today
What do I want more
To live or to die
To love or to hate
To kill or to save
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song
Military Kids
We ‘re standing strong and proud. Falling and getting back up again, we’re walking, running, crawling. Living in pride and honor. We’ll fight and defend till the end. Trying to stand strong for others, and help them when in need. We’ll give them our strength, and our will. We’ll give them everything that we can, because we’re standing strong and proud. Falling and getting back up again, because we’re military kids, acting like everythings all right when the soldiers leave for the battles. Trying to keep the families strong. While the soldiers are fighting away for our countries and everything else, waiting and hoping that they’ll return soon. Living our lives like everythings all right when nothing is at all. Watching as the time ticks on by. Wondering how much longer will it be till they’ll be back in our reach. Wondering when, wondering how, wondering where, wondering away. Falling and getting back up again with our hope and will fading away every second that time ticks on by. Looking, wanting, needing to find a reason to keep our will and spirit strong as ever when their gone. Because we’re military kids yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, military kids, yeah yeah yeah yeah, military kids, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, military kids yeah, yeah military kids.
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song
I’m standing strong
Go on ahead and knock me on down. Right after that kick me even lower. If that’ll satisfy you, walk on over me. Think that you’ve done well for your side of the deal. Well I’ll have to break it to you. You’ll have to do worst than that. If you want to keep me down. Cause I’m standing strong till the end and won’t stop till than. I fall and get back up again. Go on ahead and try your best.
Knock me on down and kick me even lower when I’m already there. I’ll have to break it to you but I’ll get right back up. You can’t keep me down. I’ll fight just to show you wrong. So do what you want and say what you want. But I’ll be right back up again. Cause I’m standing strong till the end and won’t stop till than. So go on a head and try but it won’t work. Kick me, punch me, beat me to a bloody pole, cuss me the hell on out.
And you’ll just see where that’ll get you. Yesterday I was weak struggling to make it through. Today I am low getting even lower as we speak. But tomorrow I’ll be above you and the world the life and everything. I’ll be standing strong right after I was low right after I was weak. Right after I was pushed down and kicked even lower. Right after it all, right after everything. I’ll be getting back up tonight and standing there tomorrow.
Give me a second and you’ll see me breathing, give me a minute and you’ll see me moving, give me an hour and you’ll see me standing, give me a day and you’ll see me training, give me a week and you’ll see me smiling if not grinning, give me a month and you’ll see me fighting, give me a year and you’ll see me winning if not standing above your grave of losing of dieing of being low the way you made me low and I’ll be kicking you even lower. Just as you did to me. Just as you pushed me down and kicked me even lower when I was already there so yeah oh yeah I’m still standing strong and I’ll still be there so yeah oh yeah so yeah oh yeah I’ll be still standing strong and still be there so yeah oh yeah so yeah oh yeah standing strong and still being there. I’ll be standing strong and proving you wrong so yeah oh yeah cause that’s what I do that’s what I do what all I do all I do what I do.
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poem
Forever
I lay here at night and stand there at day. Fading in and out. Wondering when, wondering how, wondering now. Asking, wondering how much longer, how much more. Watching as time ticks on by, as everything seems to be falling.
As I watch the cracks spread along the wall, along the shield, along myself and everything else. I’m thinking of a word ‘forever’ a word that means something that never ends, something that never falls, that stands there and stays as time passes by and yet everything seems to change once again. Looking back at my past, seeing that nothing ever truly last ‘forever’ for me or at least for the best for me and really for the worst.
So as I lay here at night and stand there at day. Fading in and out, watching, as things seem to be falling apart, As once again something must change and only for the worst but never really for the best. Thinking of the word ‘forever’ only being a word that means never ending, and still being there as time passes by. Being just a word and nothing more in this world for me till the day I die, other than for the worst. Wishing that it would be more than just a word or for the worst for me. Instead of just something that I can hear, read, say, sing, and everything else that you can do with a word. Other than seeing it really being anything more than just a word or for the worst.
Lying here at night and standing there at day. Fading in and out. Thinking of my past and where I’m at, who I am, what I am, what I am to others. What others think and say about me in front of me and behind my back. Being pushed around and pushed into. Only being able to push them back and away from me. Living this life everyday. Hiding the pain, hiding the sadness, hiding everything as much as I can. Trying to act like I’m fine, act like everything is all right; act like it doesn’t hurt when it truly does. Living this life, lying here at night and standing there at day. Thinking of the word ‘forever’.
Looking, searching for the good, for the light to lead me on my way, from the dark, from the pain, from the sadness, from everything. It’s all the same when it comes to the change, to the pain and everything that’s just like that, just as it is with me never being able to see the word ‘forever’ being more than just a word or for the worst for me in this world.
Lying here at night and standing there at day. Fading in and out. Wondering when, wondering how, wonder now. Asking, wondering how much longer, how much more till everything breaks, till everything’s broken, till everything is finally fallen apart, till there’s nothing left of me, till I’m so deep in the darkness, in the pain, in the sadness, in everything. Only thinking of the word ‘forever’ being nothing more than just a word or for the worst for me.
That I can’t even see the good or the light to lead me on my way, till I’m just lying here at night and standing there at day. Fading in and out. Wondering where am I, who am I, what am I, or even what am I to others anymore than what I use to be.
Than who I once was, than what I once was, where I once was in this world, in this life. Wondering this everyday and night that I live this life of mine. Lying here at night and standing there at day. Fading in and out. Wondering when, wondering how, wondering now. Asking, wondering how much longer, how much more till everything is broken, shattered; dust, destroyed, till everything is nothing anymore, till everything is broken among this world for me at least. Only thinking of a word ‘forever’ being just a word or for the worst for me and nothing more.
Fighting away at day as time passes by. When I’m not just standing there at day, but fighting to live another, to lay here another night and stand there another day, to some what find a way to show others that there is more to me than meets the eye. That one day they will see that I am not weak, that I do not hesitate as they do, as they think that I do, but they are wrong, as they always were, as they always are, till the day they can see that they are wrong, till the day I prove them wrong, till that day I will lay here at night and stand there at day. Fading in and out.
Wondering when, wondering how, wondering now. Asking, wondering how much longer, how much more can I take it before my wall, my shield, myself, my everything finally breaks. The day that breaks is the day that I shall prove them wrong, the day I lose it all is the day they will see that they are wrong about me. Wondering that all of that as I think of a word ‘forever’ only being just a word the means something that never ends, something that never falls, that stands there and stays as time passes by.
Only being just a word or for the worst for me and nothing more to me in this world, in this life, as I spend it day and night living my life for alone me and no one, and nothing else in this world. Till the day that changes my point of view of a word ‘forever’ to something that shows me that it is more than just a word, that it is good for me, to me in this world, in this life, in everything.
Till that day I lay here at night and stand there at day. Fading in and out. Wondering when, wondering how, wondering now. Asking, wondering how much longer, how much more. Thinking of a word ‘forever’ being nothing more to me than just a word or for the worst but never really for the best
The Falling Protector
The Falling Protector is standing here,
Wanting to curl up and die.
But still fights for the ones,
Who needs them.
Remembering why they must stay alive,
Why they must keep fighting.
The Falling Protector is slipping on ice,
And falling into the dark shadows.
But still seeks the light for the ones,
Who needs them.
Remembering why they must find a way,
Why they must not give up.
The Falling Protector is struggling,
To get back up again.
But sthill stands for the ones,
Who needs them.
Remembering why they chose to live this way,
Why they don't turn their backs and walk away.
The Falling Protector is fighting,
While wanting to just run away.
But still stays in the fight for the ones,
Who needs them.
Remembering why they stay,
Why they live.
The Falling Protector is slipping on ice,
And Falling into the dark shadows.
But still seeks the light for the ones,
Who needs them.
Remebering why they must find a way,
Why they must not give up.
I am standing here,
Wanting to curl up and die.
But still fighting for the ones,
Who needs me.
Remebering why I must stay alive,
Why I must keep fighting.
I am slipping on ice,
and falling into dark shadows.
But still seeking the light for the ones,
Who needs me.
Remebering why I must find a way,
Why I must not give up.
I am struggling,
To get back up again.
But still standing for the ones,
Who needs me.
Remembering why I chose to live this way,
Why I dont turn my back and walk away.
I am fighting,
While wanting to just run away.
But still staying in the fight for the ones,
Who needs me.
Remembering why I stay,
Why I live.
I am slipping on ice,
And falling into the dark shadows.
But still seeking the light for the ones,
Who needs me.
Remembering why I must find a way,
Why I must not give up.
poem
Burning
Rising from the fire
That’s burning below me
Slipping more and more
Breathing in the smoke with every gasp I take
Feeling the fire rising on me
Feeling it catching up to me
Turning ice cold and heartless
Burning within my soul
Screaming in my mind for more
Seeing hands reaching out to me
Knowing they want to help
Knowing their love can’t get through to me
Knowing they can’t blow this fire away
Knowing they can’t tame me
Knowing what could is finally gone
And I will burn in my ice cold and heartless ways
Walking these neutral blood-killing grounds alone
Screaming for more
Knowing the fire is hearing me
Awaiting for it to fully answer my call
Burring within my soul
As I turn ice cold and heartless
With no one to stop me
With no one to save me
With no one to get through to me
No matter how much others try
Feeling nothing but fire rising on me
And the music and rage flowing through me
Oh how the music seems to tame me enough
To sleep just a little bit at night
Hearing nothing but the screams for more
Waiting to be completely burned alive
Screaming for more
Turning my back on everyone and everything
Shutting everything and everyone out
Living in my ice cold and heartless ways
Screaming for more
As the fire is rising on me
As I burn within my soul
Feeling so empty as I always have
With no one’s love ever getting through to me
To easy the emptiness
Never knowing why I thirst for this
Never knowing why I do this
Never know why I am this way
When there is nothing
To be scared of
When there is nothing to hurt me
But the pain I cause for myself
Turning ice cold and heartless
Burning within my soul
Feeling the fire rise up to me
And swallow me alive
As I scream for more
Wanting something stronger to drink
Wanting to be burned alive
Wanting something to get through to me
Knowing of nothing that can
Knowing of nothing that will
Remember the one thing that once did for a while
Knowing I will never have anything like it again
Knowing I will never have something getting through to me like that again
Knowing the only thing that will is the fire
That is burning bellow me
That I am screaming for more of
As it is burning within my soul
Slowly eating me alive
Slowly killing me inside
Knowing nothing can get through to me
To save me
Knowing no one can get through to me
To save
Knowing nothing will
Knowing no one will
That ever possible could
Knowing it will all be over soon enough
As the fire rises on me
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poem
Goodbye
You are the one I have loved for so long
You are the one I shall never stop loving
For my love for you is eternal
Even when death kills me
Even when I am completely dead inside
You will be the one that I shall still love
You are the one I love
You are the one who saved me
You are the one who’s love has gotten through to me
You are the one who’s broken down my walls
You are the one who’s gotten close to me
You are the one my love will always be eternal for
I shall never stop loving you
I shall never stop thinking of you
I shall never love another the way I love you
I shall never be close to another the way I was close to you
I shall never want another the way I want you
I shall never need another the way I need you
I shall never care for another the way I care for you
I shall never think of another the way I think of you
I shall never be pleased with another the way I am pleased with you
I shall walk these neutral blood-killing grounds in my ice cold and heartless ways
For no one but you
For nothing but you
I shall keep fighting these blood-dripping battles
For no one but you
For nothing but you
I shall live till this blood-cold world has finally killed me
For no one but you
For nothing but you
You are my only true love
And my only true reason for anything
I will let you go
But shall never forget you in my ice cold and heartless ways
Thank you for loving me
For saving me
But now it is time I let you have what you need or want
So goodbye for now and forever
My one and true angelic tormented love
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poem
What do they mean to you
Life death love hate
Inevitable eternal passion forever
What do they all mean to you?
What do they have to do with you?
What do they have to do with today’s world?
Life can mean joy and pleasure to one person
And mean pain and suffering to another
Death can mean sorrow to one
And relief to another
Love can mean everything to one
And nothing to another
Hate can mean survival to one
And destruction to another
To some inevitable may be something they never heard before
To others it could be something they never thought about
To some eternal can be unreal
And others possible never thought of
Passion can be unbelievable magical to one person
And unbelievable unreal to another
Forever can be untrue to one
And completely amazing to another
What they mean to you
Is up to you
Is life a joy and pleasure?
Or is it pain suffering to you
Is death sorrow or a relief to you?
Does love mean everything or nothing to you?
Is hate a survival or a destruction to you
Have you ever thought of the word inevitable?
Or do you even know what it means
Or have you even ever heard such a word
Is eternal unreal to you?
Or have you even though about it
Is passion unbelievable magical
Or Is it just unbelievable unreal to you
Is forever completely amazing
Or is it just untrue to you
What does it have to do with you?
In ways it plays rolls in the way you see things
In ways it plays rolls in how you live
In how your life turns out
What does it have to do with today’s world?
Everything, it plays a roll in how people see one another
It plays a roll in the lives that are taken by the one that dies
It plays a roll in how a child grows up
How a teenager fights for their life
How kids live through school
How people live through drama
What does it mean to me
Life is a pleasure at times and a pain at others
Death is a sorrow for me but a relief for the one who dies
After they have lived their lives and learned from their mistakes
Love is everything to me even when I don’t show it
Hate is a survival at times but destruction most of the time
Inevitable is coldly real for the bad things
That is inevitable to me
And amazing awesome for the good things
That is inevitable to me
Eternal is what I await for
The eternal life dream of
The eternal love I hold in grasp
Trying not to let it go
Passion is what I have for writing and art and music itself
Forever is what I see
Forever is how long I shall hold my love and passion for anything and anyone
That is what they are to me
That is what they mean to me
That is what I believe
Even as I stand in the battle field of moving on
For death is inevitable but love is eternal
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poem
Standing strong for everyone
Standing here in the mist of a battle field
Standing strong for everyone
Who come to me
For everyone who needs me
Being the hope
Being the will
Or trying to be so
Not giving up
On anything or anyone
Fighting till the end
Fighting till there’s nothing left to fight
Fighting till I can’t fight anymore
Fighting till everything’s okay once again
For the ones I love and care about
For the ones who come to me
For the ones I am trying to help
For the ones I am fighting for
For myself and everything I stand for
Not running away
Not trying to hide
Not trying to escape
This reality I live among
This reality I fight
This reality I have fought
For so long
And still am doing so
For not only myself
But everyone who
Can’t fight it alone
Fighting and doing my work
As the Dark Protector
As I live my life this way
Trying to open others up
And show them the better things in life
What life is really meant to be living for
What life really means
Show them the good thing in everything
Show them the good thing in everyone
Trying to some what balance out this world
Trying to save as many lives as I possible can
Getting over my own past and pain
To help others with their own
To keep focused on the present and future
And not drown in my past
Standing my ground
Ready to fight
For what is right
For what I stand for
For everyone I am fighting for
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poem
this one "UNTITELED" is a mixer of other writings of mine put into one thats all that "UNTITELED" is, is just parts of other writings that i have made put into one poem showing a few of my writings that i like all in one with the parts that i like if you have read the other ones that have some parts taken out of you may be abile to figure out which parts came from which writing i did change the line a bit so it may be a bit hard for some but some are pretty easy like "breathing in and breathing out" for instance is from the poem just below this one which is called "where all creaters cross paths striding the neutral grounds" so i hope you enjoy "UNTITELED"
UNTITELED
I live this life of mine
Day after day and night after night
For no one not even myself
Fighting the waves and tides
Of the silences of my let alone thoughts and mind
Saying, “no pain no game”
Breathing in and breathing out
Breathing light and breathing dark
Breathing blessings and breathing sins
Breathing day and breathing night
Living for nothing but pain itself
Often grinning and laugh with a bad attitude
Loving the feeling I get when I’m being cruel
Not caring about myself
Seeing no reason to live or die
Alive on the outside where everyone can see me
But dead on the inside where no one looks at all
Pushing myself day after day
And night after night
As I stride these grounds of the world of the living
Waiting for everyone
To turn their backs on me
Getting lost in the question
“What am I fighting for”?
Till the moment I contain no breath to breathe
Till the instant I obtain my last breath
Till the instant I let this world receive my last breath of life
Till the instant I’m within my deathbed
Till the instant I give up the fight
I watch my life pass me by
Striding theses grounds
Living for nothing but pain itself
I watch other live without a care in the world
Wondering why don’t they just die
Wanting to live but wanting to die
Living by pain as others live by love
Playing my games and feeding myself
Watching as things fall apart
Grinning inside as I feed on the pain that I cause myself
No one knows if they get played
No one knows if they are just saved
No one knows my game till it’s to late
When they can’t escape without the pain
That I cause them to feed my thirst for my own pain
No one knows me fully
Not even at the end of my game with them
Some may get me back
And I shall thank them
For feeding me
Among my thirst for my own pain
As I stride theses grounds
Watching my live pass me all by
Living my live
How I want to
Letting things be
How they are
Subsisting in this world
Breathing in and breathing out
Till I vanish from this world
To the towering depths of despair of heaven
Or the profound depths of despair of hell
Leaving the neutral grounds of heaven and hell
That is neither except the world of the living
Striding theses grounds
Fighting more and more
As the waves, and tides
Seems to hit me even harder each time
As I wonder, as I ask myself why…
Why am I still here?
Why should I care?
Fighting, wondering, asking why…what…
Why am I fighting?
What is it that I am fighting for?
What is there to fight for in this deep dark blue ocean of my thoughts and mind?
As I stride these grounds with no concern for myself
Striding these grounds neither terrified to die nor live
Stride these grounds just to stride them
Striding theses grounds in neither good nor evil but both
As I fight away looking searching for the answers
As the waves, and tides hit me
Wondering, asking myself why… what… on away…
Getting a little bit more tired as I fight
Feeling a little bit more of my faith, my dreams
Myself, my everything slip away a little bit more each day…
Until the day all my faith, my dreams
Myself, my everything is completely gone…
I shall be finding myself fighting
The waves, and tides
Of the silences of my let alone thoughts and mind
Living among this world
Striding these grounds for whatever reasons
I come across
For I can’t go back now
For the grounds I have destroyed
For the sins I’ve done
Or the blessings I have come across
Knowing what’s happening
Knowing what will happen
If I don’t stop and change
But never caring
For I do what I please
For the pleasure
I get out of everything
For as I stride theses grounds
Watching everything and everyone change before me
While I hide in the shadows
Or burn in the light
Burn with the bliss
That shines down on me
Rising me to the greatest paradises
Rising me to heaven
Or hide with the sins
That will bury me deep
In the hottest cores of hell
Of the damned
For what I do
Shall not matter
For we all shall suffer
One way or the other
At least once in our life times
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poem
Where all creatures cross paths striding the neutral grounds
Living day after day
And night after night
Breathing in and breathing out
Breathing light and breathing dark
Breathing blessings and breathing sins
Breathing day and breathing night
Till the moment we contain no breath to breathe
Till the instant we obtain our last breath
Till the instant we let this world receive our last breath of life
Till the moment we say farewell
Till the instant we are within our deathbeds
Till the instant we die not to come back again
Till that moment we subsist in this world
Breathing in and breathing out
Till we at last vanish from this world
To the towering depths of despair of heaven
Or the profound depths of despair of hell
Leaving the neutral grounds of heaven and hell
That is neither except the world of the living
Where all creatures cross paths walking the neutral grounds
Some are neither alive nor dead
Some stride these grounds neither concerned for themselves nor others
Some stride these grounds neither terrified to die nor live
Some stride these grounds just to stride them
Some stride these grounds just to control them
Some stride these grounds in the name of evil
Some stride these grounds in the name of good
Some stride these grounds in the name of neutral
Some are evil
Some are good
And some are neither good nor evil nevertheless neutral
Some creatures stride these grounds in the name of good and evil
If not just neutral
Where some stride in neither good nor evil but both
Either way all creatures that live among this world
Stride theses grounds for whatever reasons
That they have or our just forced by the damned
For they can’t go back now
For the grounds they have destroyed
For the torturing they’ve gone through
For the sins they’ve done
Or the blessings they have come across
What was lost was lost
What was gained was gained
And there’s nothing that can be done about any of them
For as all creatures stride theses grounds
Watching everything and everyone change before them
All they can do is hide in the shadows
Or burn in the light
Burn with the bliss
That is shining down on them
Rising them to the greatest paradises
Rising them to heaven
While others hide
With the sins that bury them deep
In the hottest cores of hell
Of the damned
For what creature you
Shall not matter
For we all shall suffer
One way or the other
For all creatures walk theses neutral grounds
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poem
Times Running Out (Cause It Won’t Stay Frozen Forever)
Walking around as time freezes by
Watching everything pass you by
Hearing lies and alibis
Watching illusions and fantasies
Wondering why you live this way
Why don’t you just change
Why don’t you just stay
Why don’t you just leave
Why don’t you just fucking make up your god damn mind
Before sunrises cause its after sunset now
And times running out cause it wont stay frozen forever
So tell your love ones that you love them
And tell your lover that you need them
Living today like it’s your last
As you watch time freeze on by
Seeing reality before your eyes
Saying goodbye to everything and everyone you know
Saying goodbye to this word
As you finally kill your pain
Causing more for others in exchange
Cause times running out
Cause it wont stay frozen forever
Cause times running out
Cause it wont stay frozen forever
And ever and ever
And ever and ever
Before they all leave you
Before you die
Before you’re dead inside
Before your pain eats you alive
As your wondering why
Is this happening to you
When they all already are gone
Cause times running out
Cause it wont stay frozen forever
What will you do
What will you say
You’re standing all alone
In this cold winter day
Watching the world turn its back on you
Cause times running out
Cause it wont stay frozen forever
So tell your love ones that you love them
And tell your lover that you need them
Living today like it’s your last
As you watch time freeze on by
Seeing reality before your eyes
Saying goodbye to everything and everyone you know
Saying goodbye to this word
As you finally kill your pain
Causing more for others in exchange
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song
You Are A Soldier
("You Are A Soldier" is made out to my big brother who is in the army and all the other military people who is, was, and will be in the future)
You come and go
But never stay
You often get pulled away
By family and friends and even war
Wondering why we act this way
When you give us your time once more
As we watch you at day and night
Watching you from the sidelines of everything
Watching you standing in the spot light
Reaching out watching you
Reaching out praying for you
Reaching out crying for you
Missing you day and night
As we reach out and say
In the silences of our let alone minds
You are the hero
You are the brave
You are the strong
You are the fighter
You are the freedom
You are a soldier
You are our brother
Or you’re our sister
You are family
Or you’re a friend
But you’re never really around
To know what’s going down
To keep up with us
But that’s okay
Cause you are the true freedom
Of the home of the free
And the land of the brave
You are a soldier
You are a leader
Who leads us to victory
You are the one who we all count on
Who protect the weak
Who protect the strong
Who protect us all
Who we pray for day and night
You are our brother
Or you’re our sister
You are family
Or you’re a friend
You are a hero of this country
You are a hero to us all
And will always be so
From the day you became a soldier
To the day we all die
To the day we all die
You are a soldier of the world
And a hero of this country
You will always be our hero
And a soldier of the home of the free
And the land of the brave
Land of the brave
So don’t cha worry
Cause we all always understand
We all always understand
That you’re just doing your duties
All over again
As a soldier
Of the home of the free
And the land of the brave
What more is there to say
What more is there to say
When it gets in the way
You just try to play all your roles once again
Of being family
And being a friend
Of being a soldier
Of the home of the free
And the land of the brave
Land of the brave
What more is there for us to say
What more is there to say
That’s what you are to me
That’s what you are to them
That’s what you are to us
That’s what you’ll always be
What you’ll always be
A soldier of the world
A hero of this country
A soldier of the home of the free
And the land of the brave
The land of the brave
For you and me and everyone else
Cause you are a soldier
You are a soldier
A soldier, a soldier, a soldier
A soldier of the world
And hero of this country
A hero of this country
Cause you are a soldier
You are a soldier
A soldier, a soldier, a soldier
A soldier of the world
A soldier of the home of the free
And land of the brave
Land of the brave
And a hero of this country
A hero of this country
So what more is there to say
What more is there to say
What more is there to say
What more is there to do
More to do
When it gets in the way
Gets in the way
Other then let you go
Let you go
Showing no fear
Showing no pain
Showing no sorrow
Showing nothing at all
Nothing at all
Other then being strong and proud
Being strong and proud
That you are our soldier of the world
Our soldier of the world
Our soldier of the world
Soldier of the world
And our hero of this country
Our hero of this country
Our hero of this country
Hero of this country
And nothing more
And nothing less
Of this world
Or the next
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poem
Let Things Be
Seconds ticks seasons change
As we all say, “No pain no game”
We watch as our lives pass us all by
Wishing we didn’t do this
Wishing we didn’t say that
Wishing we didn’t see this
Wishing we didn’t hear that
Wishing we didn’t believe this
Wishing we didn’t go with that
Wishing away wishing about
Wishing all day wishing all night
Wishing we did this
Wishing we said that
Wishing we saw this
Wishing we heard that
Wishing we believed this
Wishing we went with that
Dwelling on this dwelling on that
Dwelling all day dwelling all night
No matter how much we wish
No matter how much we dwell
We can’t go back to the past
The past is the past
What happened has happened
So learn from it now
And keep it from happening again later
We wish that this didn’t happen
We wish that that did
We wish that this wasn’t said
We wish that that did
We hope and wish that this won’t happen
We hope and wish that that will
When really we should just let things be
We should leave the broken pieces on the floor
That we can’t pick up and fix
No matter how much we want to
No matter how much we try
We can’t fix it
What was done was done
What was said was said
So just leave the broken pieces on the floor
For someone else who can
For someone else who will
Pick them up and fix them
And put them back together again
So just move on and let things be
This happen for a reason
Whether if we know what the reason is
Or understand it
If we know it
All we should do is just
Let things be
Seconds ticks seasons change
As we all say, “No pain no game”
We watch as our lives pass us all by
And we should
Learn from all of our mistakes
And live our lives
How we want to
Letting things be
How they are
We should stop trying to pick up and fix
And put them back together again
Things that we can’t fix
But live and treasure the things that
We have at the time
That we have them
And fix the things that we can fix
Letting the broken pieces on the ground
Stay on the ground
Till the day that someone
Who can
Pick them up and put them back together again
Till the day we say “good bye”
On our deathbeds
The second we die
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poem
The Deep Dark Blue Ocean
Every night, every day
Every hour, every minute
Even every second of my life
I find myself fighting
The waves, the tides
Of the deep dark blue
Ocean of my thoughts
My mind, my pain
My sorrow, my everything
Fighting to stay above the surface
Where I can breathe the air
Where I can see the truth
Where I can possible sleep
Without the pain and sorrow
Fighting night and day
Day and night
Seeming to go on underwater
No matter how hard I fight
Drinking the saltwater
Of the deep dark blue
Ocean of my thoughts
My my mind, my pain
My sorrow, my everything
Feeling more and more pain
As I keep on trying
Getting more and more tired
As I keep on fighting
Fighting more and more
But only seeming to be going underwater even more
As the waves, the tides
Seems to hit me even harder each time
Making me go underwater again and drink even more saltwater
As I wonder, as I ask myself why…
Why don’t I just swim to shore?
Is that cause that would be running away to me?
Why am I still here?
Is that cause I don’t know where I want to be?
Why should I care?
Is that cause I will drown if I don’t?
Fighting, wondering, asking why…what…
Why am I fighting?
What is it that I am fighting for?
What is there to fight for in this deep dark blue ocean of my thoughts?
My mind, my pain
My sorrow, my everything
Fighting away looking searching for the answers
Going underwater a bit more each time
As the waves, the tides hit me
Drinking more and more saltwater as I go underwater
Wondering, asking myself why… what… on away…
Feeling a little bit more pain as I try
Getting a little bit more tired as I fight
Feeling a little bit more of my faith, my dreams
Myself, my everything slip away a little bit more each day…
Until the day I completely drown…
Until the day all my faith, my dreams
Myself, my everything is completely gone…
I shall be finding myself fighting
The waves, the tides
Of the deep dark blue
Ocean of my thoughts
My mind, my pain
My sorry, my everything
Going underwater over and over again
Drinking more and more saltwater
As I go underwater once again
As I fight the waves, the tides
Of the deep dark blue
Ocean of my thoughts
My mind, my pain
My sorrow, my everything
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school poem
I am
I am an artistic and understanding person.
I wonder what else great artist I will come across in my lifetime.
I hear the amazing sounds of music all around me.
I see the magnificent works of art everyday.
I want to one-day write a song or poem as great as Beethoven’s music.
I am an artistic and understanding person.
I pretend to be back in the old days when Beethoven was alive playing one of his works of arts.
I feel truly alive when I hear amazing music like his.
I touch the wonderful interments of the past and today’s world.
I worry that not all the great works of art will be known if not remembered in the future.
I cry when all is forgotten.
I am an artist and understanding person.
I understand what other people often mean when they speak.
I say, “it’s not about what your talent is, it’s about what you do with it”.
I dream of feeling true freedom the way I feel music all around me.
I try to understand something or someone a bit more each day.
I hope that one day my purpose in life won’t be a mystery to me.
I am an artistic and understanding person.
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song
Long Lives
(one of my friends from Animefuel gave me the idea for that name n gave me the name as well for this song)
Waking up to another day with the sun starting to rise and shine. And the night with the moon and stars disappearing out of our sight before our eyes for another day. Knowing what we're really waking up to. Just another day with the same old shit from yesterday. With the same old people and the same old shit. Living our lives that we've lived all along. What is there for us to do? What is there for us to say? Cause we smile, we frown, we laugh, we cry, we run we walk, we stand, we fall, we do it all and more then that everyday.
We live these lives we've lived all along in happiness and pain. wondering why, wondering what did we do, what did we say to live this a way. We lose the ones that we love and care about so much within time. Just as it is with everything else. We somethimes have it where people walk in our lives and stay forever. Then we sometimes have it where they walk on into our lives and then sooner or later just walk on out again. And sometimes ww have it where they will into our lives and then sooner or later walk on out and then bacl on in.
So what is there for us to do? What is there for us to say? Cause we smiles, we frown, we laugh, we cry, we run, we walk, we stand, we fall, we do it all and more then that everyday. As we wake up to another dat with the sun starting to to rise and shine. And the night with the moon and stars disappearing out of our sight before our eyes for another day. We know what we're really waking up to. Just another day with the same old people and the same old shit from yesterday.
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poem
Night after night, day after day
I watch as things pass me on by
As the drama comes and goes
As things and others seem to
Change before my eyes
I watch as the little taste of
True freedom seems to slip
Out of my reach
Feeling like a little bit more
Of me is slipping, fading away
From me everyday, every night
Every hour, every minute
Even every second of my life
That ticks on by
As I lay here at night
Staring out into the deep
Dark sky, I ask myself
Why do I do the things I do
Why do I love the thngs I love
Why do I think the things I think
Why do I live the way I live
Why do I live at all
What is my purpose of being
In this world today
What do I want more
To live or to die
To love or to hate
To kill or to save
So til the day I figure out
Or the day I die
Depending on which comes first
I shall be watching as things me on by
As the drama comes and goes
As things and others seem to
Change before my eyes
I watch as the little taste of
True freedom seems to slip
Out of my reach
Feeling like a little bit more
Of me is slipping, fading away from me
And lay here at night
Staring out into the deep
Dark sky, I ask myself
Why do I do the things I do
Why do I love the thngs I love
Why do I think the things I think
Why do I live the way I live
Why do I live at all
What is my purpose of being
In this world today
What do I want more
To live or to die
To love or to hate
To kill or to save
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song
Military Kids
We ‘re standing strong and proud. Falling and getting back up again, we’re walking, running, crawling. Living in pride and honor. We’ll fight and defend till the end. Trying to stand strong for others, and help them when in need. We’ll give them our strength, and our will. We’ll give them everything that we can, because we’re standing strong and proud. Falling and getting back up again, because we’re military kids, acting like everythings all right when the soldiers leave for the battles. Trying to keep the families strong. While the soldiers are fighting away for our countries and everything else, waiting and hoping that they’ll return soon. Living our lives like everythings all right when nothing is at all. Watching as the time ticks on by. Wondering how much longer will it be till they’ll be back in our reach. Wondering when, wondering how, wondering where, wondering away. Falling and getting back up again with our hope and will fading away every second that time ticks on by. Looking, wanting, needing to find a reason to keep our will and spirit strong as ever when their gone. Because we’re military kids yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, military kids, yeah yeah yeah yeah, military kids, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, military kids yeah, yeah military kids.
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song
I’m standing strong
Go on ahead and knock me on down. Right after that kick me even lower. If that’ll satisfy you, walk on over me. Think that you’ve done well for your side of the deal. Well I’ll have to break it to you. You’ll have to do worst than that. If you want to keep me down. Cause I’m standing strong till the end and won’t stop till than. I fall and get back up again. Go on ahead and try your best.
Knock me on down and kick me even lower when I’m already there. I’ll have to break it to you but I’ll get right back up. You can’t keep me down. I’ll fight just to show you wrong. So do what you want and say what you want. But I’ll be right back up again. Cause I’m standing strong till the end and won’t stop till than. So go on a head and try but it won’t work. Kick me, punch me, beat me to a bloody pole, cuss me the hell on out.
And you’ll just see where that’ll get you. Yesterday I was weak struggling to make it through. Today I am low getting even lower as we speak. But tomorrow I’ll be above you and the world the life and everything. I’ll be standing strong right after I was low right after I was weak. Right after I was pushed down and kicked even lower. Right after it all, right after everything. I’ll be getting back up tonight and standing there tomorrow.
Give me a second and you’ll see me breathing, give me a minute and you’ll see me moving, give me an hour and you’ll see me standing, give me a day and you’ll see me training, give me a week and you’ll see me smiling if not grinning, give me a month and you’ll see me fighting, give me a year and you’ll see me winning if not standing above your grave of losing of dieing of being low the way you made me low and I’ll be kicking you even lower. Just as you did to me. Just as you pushed me down and kicked me even lower when I was already there so yeah oh yeah I’m still standing strong and I’ll still be there so yeah oh yeah so yeah oh yeah I’ll be still standing strong and still be there so yeah oh yeah so yeah oh yeah standing strong and still being there. I’ll be standing strong and proving you wrong so yeah oh yeah cause that’s what I do that’s what I do what all I do all I do what I do.
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poem
Forever
I lay here at night and stand there at day. Fading in and out. Wondering when, wondering how, wondering now. Asking, wondering how much longer, how much more. Watching as time ticks on by, as everything seems to be falling.
As I watch the cracks spread along the wall, along the shield, along myself and everything else. I’m thinking of a word ‘forever’ a word that means something that never ends, something that never falls, that stands there and stays as time passes by and yet everything seems to change once again. Looking back at my past, seeing that nothing ever truly last ‘forever’ for me or at least for the best for me and really for the worst.
So as I lay here at night and stand there at day. Fading in and out, watching, as things seem to be falling apart, As once again something must change and only for the worst but never really for the best. Thinking of the word ‘forever’ only being a word that means never ending, and still being there as time passes by. Being just a word and nothing more in this world for me till the day I die, other than for the worst. Wishing that it would be more than just a word or for the worst for me. Instead of just something that I can hear, read, say, sing, and everything else that you can do with a word. Other than seeing it really being anything more than just a word or for the worst.
Lying here at night and standing there at day. Fading in and out. Thinking of my past and where I’m at, who I am, what I am, what I am to others. What others think and say about me in front of me and behind my back. Being pushed around and pushed into. Only being able to push them back and away from me. Living this life everyday. Hiding the pain, hiding the sadness, hiding everything as much as I can. Trying to act like I’m fine, act like everything is all right; act like it doesn’t hurt when it truly does. Living this life, lying here at night and standing there at day. Thinking of the word ‘forever’.
Looking, searching for the good, for the light to lead me on my way, from the dark, from the pain, from the sadness, from everything. It’s all the same when it comes to the change, to the pain and everything that’s just like that, just as it is with me never being able to see the word ‘forever’ being more than just a word or for the worst for me in this world.
Lying here at night and standing there at day. Fading in and out. Wondering when, wondering how, wonder now. Asking, wondering how much longer, how much more till everything breaks, till everything’s broken, till everything is finally fallen apart, till there’s nothing left of me, till I’m so deep in the darkness, in the pain, in the sadness, in everything. Only thinking of the word ‘forever’ being nothing more than just a word or for the worst for me.
That I can’t even see the good or the light to lead me on my way, till I’m just lying here at night and standing there at day. Fading in and out. Wondering where am I, who am I, what am I, or even what am I to others anymore than what I use to be.
Than who I once was, than what I once was, where I once was in this world, in this life. Wondering this everyday and night that I live this life of mine. Lying here at night and standing there at day. Fading in and out. Wondering when, wondering how, wondering now. Asking, wondering how much longer, how much more till everything is broken, shattered; dust, destroyed, till everything is nothing anymore, till everything is broken among this world for me at least. Only thinking of a word ‘forever’ being just a word or for the worst for me and nothing more.
Fighting away at day as time passes by. When I’m not just standing there at day, but fighting to live another, to lay here another night and stand there another day, to some what find a way to show others that there is more to me than meets the eye. That one day they will see that I am not weak, that I do not hesitate as they do, as they think that I do, but they are wrong, as they always were, as they always are, till the day they can see that they are wrong, till the day I prove them wrong, till that day I will lay here at night and stand there at day. Fading in and out.
Wondering when, wondering how, wondering now. Asking, wondering how much longer, how much more can I take it before my wall, my shield, myself, my everything finally breaks. The day that breaks is the day that I shall prove them wrong, the day I lose it all is the day they will see that they are wrong about me. Wondering that all of that as I think of a word ‘forever’ only being just a word the means something that never ends, something that never falls, that stands there and stays as time passes by.
Only being just a word or for the worst for me and nothing more to me in this world, in this life, as I spend it day and night living my life for alone me and no one, and nothing else in this world. Till the day that changes my point of view of a word ‘forever’ to something that shows me that it is more than just a word, that it is good for me, to me in this world, in this life, in everything.
Till that day I lay here at night and stand there at day. Fading in and out. Wondering when, wondering how, wondering now. Asking, wondering how much longer, how much more. Thinking of a word ‘forever’ being nothing more to me than just a word or for the worst but never really for the best
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