I'm an angel who's wings are broken
splintered and shredded to the point they bleed
jagged bone and remaining black feathers are all that hide me
from that world outside of my mind, but you don't care, all you see is me
the man inside this abomination
this crime against nature that is my life
you know that I'm a survivor
and that i've been fighting sence conception
anger and rage are my birthright for you know inside me lays the seed of destruction
but yet you marvel at my simplisity
my childlike nature toward the world around me
you understand that I've been through the fires that burn
in dante's great inferno
more times then I can count
or I want to remember
but through it all, you've been at my side in someway
my eturnal lover
through all these lives we've lived
the fables and legends we've starred in time and time again
generations and reincarnations
where oh where do we begin
or should I say when do we begin to tell our tale to those that would lend an ear
currently
a Goddess of the night
and a vampire
above all make this clear
you shine my path and light my way with in the darkest night
and I warm you when the winds so
cold do blow
you marvel at how in the mists of dispear I can bring up a smile
so human but so much more
yes my love, I know whats inside me, I'm aware of it more and more
you tell me you fear for me
that you fear I'll let my maddness eat me alive
my father's last gift given to me with smiling pride
you watch me struggle with it in the middle of the night
you hold me tight when I sleep for you fear I'll lose my way
back home to you in the bed which we lay
I've died so many times and you have done the same
and each time, we've found our way
back to the others arms
so familar, so right
I see heaven in your eyes as we make love in the moonlight
don't fret for me
my lovely
for its nothing new to me, as you know I'm not human inside
and though I fight the madness and the demon with in, I will still hide
them from the world around us
maybe I'm scared
maybe I'm tired
maybe I know you're all that matters in this world
but for you, and only you will I fight this unknown fight
and I will win as I always have
time and time again
life and life again
just remember if I go first, I'll be waiting for you to start this tale all over again..

There used to be this woman
she was one of my closest friends
though she liked to stay back and watch from a distance
If needs be, she'd be there till the very end
we had a special kind of friendship that I don't know how to put in words
she always made me
so very happy
her and our altered state of reality
kind of a world of our own
where things weren't the way fate seemed to believe
they should be
and she ment so much more to me
then i think I could ever really say
Until one day her light, seemed to go away
she disappeared with out any warnings
and now she hardly speaks to me
the brightness in her eyes seem to have gone away
I miss her and think of her every single day
I miss her laugh
and the way she would say my name
I miss the stories we used to share
and the time we spent together
I don't know what i did to drive her away
I see her every now and then, I guess so she can
remind me she's alive
and I just can't get past that dead look in her eyes
I want to help her, but she won't talk to me
she just goes on ignoring me
i don't know what i did wrong
to make her act like i'm no longer there
but i would fix it if I could just to bring her back
I miss her so much sometimes
and i feel pain when i look into her once bright eyes
i don't know what i can do
or if there is anything I can
or if i'm supposed to just sit here helpless
in my lonely silence
and watch one of the most beautiful people i know die
deep down inside
I just don't know what i should do
but I really wish I knew