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Posted 11/15/08 , edited 11/16/08
I lay here and wonder where my life has gone, where my love went to; where it all went wrong.
I try to piece it together like some twisted child's game, a jigsaw of memories; tainted with pain.
I stare at the ceiling as my head floats on and on, the thoughts of where I lost her continue 'til it's dawn.
I close my eyes and try to sleep another day, worrying to myself if I'll waste my life away.
I dream of what I always do, of some long and distant time; of when it felt like happiness was within this grasp of mine.
and yet they seem as nightmares ever burning in my head, sometimes I feel as if I'd just be better off dead.
I wake up every afternoon feeling almost moved to tears, why is it that this pain can last for so many horrible years.
I laugh at myself once again, for being so pathetic, the pain seems to subside with all the hateful words to myself.
and yet it only grows more unbearable once I do break down...
I always break down...

I wonder how long a person can stay like this with his sanity.
I wonder if I can be called sane at all.

I hate wondering, I hate it all.
I hate this pathetic side.

I just want my family back...
I know she'll never come back.

okay so really weird one >.<
Kinda creepy and really kinda... well let's just say when i let my mind wander even I lose sight of where it is going sometimes... lol

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Posted 11/18/08 , edited 11/19/08
^_^ I must agree i see where ur mind wonders in this, but lyk it all the same. It's true, ain't it? We do let our lives just pass before our eyes lyk we'll have them forever. ...
I think i'm gonna go 2 the park.
I don't wanna waste my life away.
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